{"id":46090,"date":"2019-10-21T09:08:00","date_gmt":"2019-10-21T07:08:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/fjala.info\/?p=46090"},"modified":"2019-10-21T09:08:00","modified_gmt":"2019-10-21T07:08:00","slug":"ju-flas-nga-ferri","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jehonashqiptare.al\/fjala\/ju-flas-nga-ferri\/","title":{"rendered":"Ju flas nga Ferri!"},"content":{"rendered":"

Nj\u00eb p\u00ebrkthim nga: Nikolin Sh. L\u00ebmezhi <\/strong>
\n\u2013 Shkod\u00ebr, m\u00eb 25.01.2017 <\/em><\/p>\n

Dita e kthimit t\u00eb sh\u00ebn Palit Apostull<\/strong><\/p>\n

Klara dhe Aneta, shum\u00eb t\u00eb reja, punonin n\u00eb nj\u00eb firm\u00eb tregtare n\u00eb\u2026 (Gjermani).<\/p>\n

Nuk i lidhte nj\u00eb miq\u00ebsi e thell\u00eb, por thjesht\u00eb nga mir\u00ebsjellja. Punonin \u00e7do dit\u00eb nj\u00ebra af\u00ebr tjetr\u00ebs dhe nuk mund t\u00eb mungonte nj\u00eb shk\u00ebmbim idesh. Klara deklarohej haptas besimtare dhe e ndiente detyr\u00ebn t\u00eb m\u00ebsonte dhe t\u2019i t\u00ebrhiqte v\u00ebmendjen Anet\u00ebs, kur kjo e fundit tregohej mendjeleht\u00eb dhe sip\u00ebrfaq\u00ebsore n\u00eb lidhje me besimin. <\/p>\n

Kaluan pak koh\u00eb bashk\u00eb; pastaj Aneta u martua dhe u largua nga Firma. N\u00eb vjesht\u00ebn e atij viti 1937, Klara po kalonte pushimet n\u00eb bregun e liqenit t\u00eb Gard\u00ebs. Nga mesi i shtatorit, n\u00ebna i d\u00ebrgoi, nga vendlindja e saj, nj\u00eb let\u00ebr: \u00abKa vdekur Aneta N\u2026 Ka mbetur viktim\u00eb e nj\u00eb aksidenti automobilistik. E kan\u00eb varrosur dje n\u00eb Waldfriedhof\u00bb.<\/p>\n

Ky lajm e trembi vajz\u00ebn e mir\u00eb, ngaq\u00eb e dinte se shoqja nuk kishte qen\u00eb edhe kaq besimtare. \u2013 A ishte p\u00ebrgatitur t\u00eb paraqitej p\u00ebrpara Hyjit? \u2026 Duke vdekur papritmas, si do t\u00eb jet\u00eb gjendur?… \u2013 <\/p>\n

T\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen mori pjes\u00eb n\u00eb Mesh\u00ebn e Shenjt\u00eb p\u00ebr shpirtin e saj, duke u lutur me zell. Gjat\u00eb nat\u00ebs, dhjet\u00eb minuta pas mesnat\u00ebs, pati nj\u00eb vizion. <\/p>\n

Klara, mos u lut p\u00ebr mua! Jam e humbur! N\u00ebse po ta komunikoj dhe po t\u00eb tregoj gjer\u00eb e gjat\u00eb, mos mendo se k\u00ebt\u00eb po e b\u00ebj p\u00ebr miq\u00ebsin\u00eb q\u00eb kemi pasur bashk\u00eb! Ne k\u00ebtu nuk duam m\u00eb ask\u00ebnd. Jam si e detyruar t\u00eb tregoj. E b\u00ebj si \u00abpjes\u00eb e asaj fuqie q\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb d\u00ebshiron t\u00eb keqen dhe vepron t\u00eb mir\u00ebn\u00bb (flet p\u00ebr gjendjen e saj sepse e b\u00ebn nga urrejtja-sh\u00ebnim i p\u00ebrkthyesit).<\/p>\n

N\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb do t\u00eb doja t\u00eb t\u00eb shihja edhe ty q\u00eb t\u00eb vije n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb gjendje, ku un\u00eb tashm\u00eb kam hedhur spiranc\u00ebn p\u00ebrgjithmon\u00eb.
\nMos u inatos p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb q\u00ebllim! K\u00ebtu ne t\u00eb gjith\u00eb mendojm\u00eb k\u00ebshtu. Vullneti yn\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb i ngurt\u00ebsuar n\u00eb t\u00eb keqen \u2013 n\u00eb at\u00eb q\u00eb ju tamam e quani \u00abe keqe\u00bb. \u2013 Edhe kur ne b\u00ebjm\u00eb ndonj\u00eb gj\u00eb \u00abt\u00eb mir\u00eb\u00bb, sikurse un\u00eb tani duke t\u00eb t\u00eb hapur syt\u00eb mbi Ferrin, nuk e b\u00ebj me q\u00ebllim t\u00eb mir\u00eb. <\/p>\n

A t\u00eb kujtohet akoma se para kat\u00ebr vitesh jemi njohur n\u00eb \u2026? Ishe at\u00ebher\u00eb 23 vje\u00e7e dhe gjendeshe aty q\u00eb nga gjys\u00ebm viti para se t\u00eb arrija un\u00eb. <\/p>\n

Ti m\u00eb hoqe nga ndonj\u00eb penges\u00eb; si fillestare q\u00eb isha m\u00eb ke dh\u00ebn\u00eb disa udh\u00ebzime t\u00eb mira. Por, \u00e7far\u00eb do t\u00eb thot\u00eb \u00abi mir\u00eb\u00bb?
\nUn\u00eb e l\u00ebvdoja \u00abdashurin\u00eb t\u00ebnde p\u00ebr t\u00eb af\u00ebrmin\u00bb. Sa qesharake! Ndihma jote vinte thjesht\u00eb nga krenaria, ashtu edhe si\u00e7 e kisha dyshim q\u00eb at\u00ebher\u00eb. Ne nuk njohim k\u00ebtu asgj\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb. N\u00eb ask\u00ebnd.<\/p>\n

Koh\u00ebn e rinis\u00eb sime ti e njeh. Disa boshll\u00ebqe i mbushi k\u00ebtu. <\/p>\n

Sipas planit t\u00eb prind\u00ebrve t\u00eb mi, t\u00eb them t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00ebn, nuk do duhej as t\u00eb ekzistoja. \u00abU ndodhi atyre nj\u00eb fatkeq\u00ebsi (ngjizja ime)\u00bb. Dy motrat e mia ishin 14 dhe 15 vje\u00e7e, kur un\u00eb po vija n\u00eb drit\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Oh sikur t\u00eb mos kisha ekzistuar! Sikur t\u00eb mund t\u00eb asgj\u00ebsohesha, t\u2019u ikja k\u00ebtyre torturave! Asnj\u00eb k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsi nuk do ta barazonte at\u00eb me t\u00eb cil\u00ebn do ta lija ekzistenc\u00ebn time, si nj\u00eb petk hiri q\u00eb humbet n\u00eb asgj\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Por, un\u00eb duhet t\u00eb ekzistoj. Duhet t\u00eb ekzistoj k\u00ebshtu, si\u00e7 jam e b\u00ebr\u00eb un\u00eb: me nj\u00eb ekzistenc\u00eb t\u00eb d\u00ebshtuar.
\nKur babai dhe n\u00ebna, akoma t\u00eb rinj, u transferuan nga fshati n\u00eb qytet, t\u00eb dy e kishin humbur kontaktin me Kish\u00ebn. Dhe qe m\u00eb mir\u00eb k\u00ebshtu.
\nSimpatizuan me njer\u00ebz q\u00eb nuk ishin t\u00eb lidhur me Kish\u00ebn. Ishin njohur n\u00eb nj\u00eb lokal k\u00ebrcimi dhe pas nj\u00eb gjys\u00ebm viti \u00abiu desh\u00bb t\u00eb martoheshin. <\/p>\n

N\u00eb ceremonin\u00eb martesore iu mbeti aq uj\u00eb i bekuar saq\u00eb n\u00ebna shkonte n\u00eb Kish\u00eb vet\u00ebm dy her\u00eb n\u00eb vit. Nuk m\u00eb ka m\u00ebsuar kurr\u00eb t\u00eb lutem me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb. Shterrej n\u00eb p\u00ebrkujdesjen e p\u00ebrditshme p\u00ebr jet\u00ebn, megjith\u00ebse kushtet tona nuk ishin t\u00eb parehatshme. <\/p>\n

Fjal\u00ebt, si Mesh\u00eb, m\u00ebsim fetar, Kish\u00eb, i them me nj\u00eb neveri t\u00eb pakrahasueshme. Urrej gjith\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb, ashtu sikurse urrej edhe ata q\u00eb frekuentojn\u00eb Kish\u00ebn dhe n\u00eb p\u00ebrgjith\u00ebsi t\u00eb gjith\u00eb njer\u00ebzit dhe t\u00eb gjitha gj\u00ebrat. Prej gjith\u00e7kaje, n\u00eb fakt, kemi mundime. \u00c7do njohje q\u00eb kemi marr\u00eb n\u00eb pik\u00eb t\u00eb vdekjes, \u00e7do kujtim t\u00eb gj\u00ebrave q\u00eb kemi jetuar apo m\u00ebsuar, \u00ebsht\u00eb p\u00ebr ne nj\u00eb flak\u00eb q\u00eb djeg. Dhe t\u00eb gjitha kujtimet na tregojn\u00eb at\u00eb pjes\u00eb q\u00eb n\u00eb to ishte hir dhe q\u00eb ne e p\u00ebr\u00e7monim. Oh, \u00e7far\u00eb mundimi \u00ebsht\u00eb ky! Ne nuk ham\u00eb, nuk flem\u00eb, nuk ecim me k\u00ebmb\u00eb. <\/p>\n

Shpirt\u00ebrisht t\u00eb prangosur, shohim t\u00eb trullosur \u00abme britma dhe me k\u00ebrc\u00ebllim dh\u00ebmb\u00ebsh\u00bb q\u00eb jeta jon\u00eb shkon n\u00eb tym: duke urryer dhe t\u00eb munduar! <\/p>\n

A m\u00eb d\u00ebgjon? Ne k\u00ebtu e pim\u00eb urrejtjen si uj\u00eb. Edhe e urrejm\u00eb nj\u00ebri-tjetrin. Mbi t\u00eb gjitha ne urrejm\u00eb Hyjin. Dua t\u00eb ta b\u00ebj t\u00eb kuptueshme. T\u00eb Lumturuarit n\u00eb Qiell duhet ta duan, sepse ata e shohin pa perde, n\u00eb bukurin\u00eb e tij shk\u00eblqyese. Kjo i lumturon aq shum\u00eb, saq\u00eb nuk mund t\u00eb p\u00ebrshkruhet. Ne e dim\u00eb dhe kjo njohje na t\u00ebrbon. <\/p>\n

Njer\u00ebzit n\u00eb tok\u00eb, q\u00eb e njohin Hyjin q\u00eb nga krijimi dhe nga zbulesa, mund ta duan; por nuk jan\u00eb t\u00eb detyruar.
\nBesimtari, – e them duke k\u00ebrc\u00eblluar dh\u00ebmb\u00ebt \u2013 i cili, duke medituar, e sodit Krishtin n\u00eb Kryq, me krah\u00ebt e hapur, do t\u00eb arrij\u00eb q\u00eb ta doj\u00eb.
\nPor, ai, t\u00eb cilit Hyji i afrohet si stuhi, si d\u00ebnues, si hakmarr\u00ebs i drejt\u00eb, sepse nj\u00eb dit\u00eb ka qen\u00eb refuzuar prej tij, ashtu si\u00e7 ndodhi me ne, ai nuk mundet ve\u00e7se ta urrej\u00eb, me gjith\u00eb vrullin e vullnetit t\u00eb vet t\u00eb lig, p\u00ebrjet\u00ebsisht, n\u00eb saje t\u00eb pranimit t\u00eb lir\u00eb, me t\u00eb cilin, duke vdekur, kemi dh\u00ebn\u00eb shpirtin ton\u00eb dhe q\u00eb as tani nuk e t\u00ebrheqim as nuk do t\u00eb mund ta kishim vullnetin p\u00ebr ta t\u00ebrhequr kurr\u00eb.
\nA e kupton tani se p\u00ebrse Ferri zgjat p\u00ebrjet\u00ebsisht? Sepse kok\u00ebfort\u00ebsia jon\u00eb nuk do t\u00eb hiqet kurr\u00eb prej nesh.<\/p>\n

Jam e detyruar t\u00eb shtoj se Hyji \u00ebsht\u00eb i m\u00ebshirsh\u00ebm edhe ndaj nesh. Po them \u00abjam e detyruar\u00bb. Edhe pse i them k\u00ebto gj\u00ebra me dashje, megjithat\u00eb nuk m\u00eb lejohet t\u00eb g\u00ebnjej, ashtu si\u00e7 do d\u00ebshiroja me k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsi. Shum\u00eb gj\u00ebra i pohoj kund\u00ebr vullnetit tim. Edhe shfryrjen me sharje, q\u00eb do doja ta villja, m\u00eb duhet ta bllokoj. Hyji qe i m\u00ebshirsh\u00ebm ndaj nesh duke mos lejuar t\u00eb shterrej mbi tok\u00eb vullneti yn\u00eb i lig, ashtu sikurse ne do t\u00eb kishim qen\u00eb t\u00eb gatsh\u00ebm t\u00eb b\u00ebnim. Kjo do t\u00eb kishte shtuar fajet tona dhe mundimet tona. Ai na b\u00ebri t\u00eb vdisnim para kohe, si mua, ose nd\u00ebrhyu n\u00eb rrethana t\u00eb tjera leht\u00ebsuese.<\/p>\n

Tani ai tregohet i m\u00ebshirsh\u00ebm ndaj nesh duke mos na detyruar q\u00eb t\u2019i afrohemi atij m\u00eb shum\u00eb se sa tani q\u00eb jemi n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb vend t\u00eb larg\u00ebt ferri; kjo e zvog\u00eblon mundimin. <\/p>\n

\u00c7do hap q\u00eb do t\u00eb m\u00eb \u00e7onte m\u00eb af\u00ebr Hyjit, do t\u00eb m\u00eb jepte nj\u00eb mundim m\u00eb t\u00eb madh se sa ajo q\u00eb ty t\u00eb jep nj\u00eb hap m\u00eb af\u00ebr nj\u00eb zjarri t\u00eb madh t\u00eb ndezur. Ti je trembur, kur un\u00eb nj\u00eb here, gjat\u00eb nj\u00eb udh\u00ebtimi, t\u00eb tregova se si babai im, pak dit\u00eb p\u00ebrpara Kungimit tim t\u00eb par\u00eb, m\u00eb kishte th\u00ebn\u00eb: \u00abAnetina, p\u00ebrpiqu t\u00eb meritosh nj\u00eb veshje t\u00eb bukur: gj\u00ebrat tjera jan\u00eb nj\u00eb trillim\u00bb.<\/p>\n

Nga frika jote gati turp\u00ebrohesha. Tani qeshem me k\u00ebt\u00eb. E vetmja gj\u00eb e arsyeshme n\u00eb at\u00eb trillim ishte se lejohej t\u00eb merrej Kungimi i par\u00eb vet\u00ebm n\u00eb mosh\u00ebn 12 vje\u00e7are. Un\u00eb at\u00ebher\u00eb isha shum\u00eb e z\u00ebn\u00eb nga mania e zbavitjeve t\u00eb bot\u00ebs, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, pa skrupuj lija m\u00ebnjan\u00eb gj\u00ebrat fetare dhe nuk i dhash\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi t\u00eb madhe Kungimit t\u00eb par\u00eb. <\/p>\n

Fakti q\u00eb disa f\u00ebmij\u00eb i lejojn\u00eb t\u00eb marrin Kungimin e par\u00eb q\u00eb n\u00eb mosh\u00ebn 7-vje\u00e7are, na t\u00ebrbon. Ne b\u00ebjm\u00eb t\u00eb pamundur\u00ebn q\u00eb t\u2019u japim p\u00ebrshtypjen njer\u00ebzve se f\u00ebmij\u00ebve iu mungon njohja e p\u00ebrshtatshme. Ata duhet t\u00eb kryejn\u00eb m\u00eb p\u00ebrpara ndonj\u00eb m\u00ebkat mortar (M\u00ebkat mortar, nga latinishtja MORT\u00c0LEM, nga rr\u00ebnja M\u00d2RS – vdekje. Do t\u00eb thot\u00eb di\u00e7ka q\u00eb i n\u00ebnshtrohet vdekjes; lidhur me m\u00ebkatin, do t\u00eb thot\u00eb: q\u00eb i sjell vdekjen shpirtit me d\u00ebmtimin e p\u00ebrjetsh\u00ebm. \u00cbsht\u00eb ai lloj m\u00ebkati, q\u00eb duke qen\u00eb tep\u00ebr i r\u00ebnd\u00eb, sjell vdekjen e shpirtit p\u00ebr amshim, n\u00eb rast mospendese dhe ngurrimi n\u00eb t\u00eb. Mortar, pra, q\u00eb t\u00eb sjell vdekjen shpirt\u00ebrore \u2013 sh\u00ebnim i p\u00ebrkthyesit). <\/p>\n

At\u00ebher\u00eb, Ostja e bardh\u00eb nuk b\u00ebn m\u00eb n\u00eb ta nj\u00eb d\u00ebm t\u00eb madh, si\u00e7 mund ta b\u00ebj\u00eb kur n\u00eb zemrat e tyre jetojn\u00eb akoma feja, shpresa dhe dashuria \u2013 pffff, k\u00ebto gj\u00ebra \u2013 t\u00eb marra n\u00eb Pag\u00ebzim! A t\u00eb kujtohet si e mb\u00ebshtesja mbi tok\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb opinion? <\/p>\n

Fola p\u00ebr babain tim. Ai shpeshher\u00eb ngat\u00ebrrohej me n\u00ebn\u00ebn. T\u00eb flisja lidhur me k\u00ebt\u00eb rrall\u00eb her\u00eb; turp\u00ebrohesha. Gj\u00eb qesharake turpi i t\u00eb keqes! P\u00ebr ne k\u00ebtu gjith\u00e7ka \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00ebsoj. <\/p>\n

Prind\u00ebrit e mi as nuk flinin m\u00eb n\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn dhom\u00eb; por un\u00eb me n\u00ebn\u00ebn bashk\u00eb dhe babai n\u00eb dhom\u00ebn pran\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb kthehej n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi lirisht n\u00eb \u00e7far\u00ebdo ore. Pinte shum\u00eb; n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb shkap\u00ebrderdhte pasurin\u00eb ton\u00eb. Motrat e mia ishin t\u00eb dyja t\u00eb pun\u00ebsuara dhe kishin nevoj\u00eb ato vet\u00eb, thonin, p\u00ebr parat\u00eb q\u00eb fitonin. N\u00ebna filloi t\u00eb punonte p\u00ebr t\u00eb fituar ndonj\u00eb gj\u00eb. <\/p>\n

N\u00eb vitin e fundit t\u00eb jet\u00ebs, babai e rrihte shpesh n\u00ebn\u00ebn, kur ajo nuk donte t\u2019i jepte asgj\u00eb. Nd\u00ebrsa, ndaj meje qe gjithmon\u00eb e dashur. Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb \u2013 ta kam treguar dhe ti, at\u00ebher\u00eb, je p\u00ebrplasur me huqin tim (po p\u00ebr \u00e7far\u00eb ti nuk je p\u00ebrplasur me mua?) \u2013 nj\u00eb dit\u00eb iu desh t\u00eb kthente mbrapsht, p\u00ebr dy her\u00eb radhazi, k\u00ebpuc\u00ebt q\u00eb m\u2019i kishte bler\u00eb, sepse forma dhe takat nuk ishin p\u00ebr mua mjaft moderne. <\/p>\n

Nat\u00ebn, kur babai im qe goditur nga apopleksi q\u00eb i solli vdekjen, ndodhi di\u00e7ka q\u00eb un\u00eb nga frika e nj\u00eb interpretimi t\u00eb pashijsh\u00ebm nuk ia dola t\u00eb ta besoja. Por tani duhet ta dish. \u00cbsht\u00eb e r\u00ebnd\u00ebsishme p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb: at\u00ebher\u00eb qesh\u00eb sulmuar p\u00ebr her\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00eb nga shpirti q\u00eb m\u00eb torturon aktualisht. <\/p>\n

Flija n\u00eb dhom\u00eb me n\u00ebn\u00ebn time. Frym\u00ebmarrja e saj e rregullt tregonte gjumin e saj t\u00eb thell\u00eb. Kur, ja q\u00eb, ndiej tek m\u00eb th\u00ebrret me em\u00ebr. Nj\u00eb z\u00eb i panjohur, m\u00eb thot\u00eb: \u00ab\u00c7far\u00eb do t\u00eb ndodh\u00eb n\u00ebse vdes babai?\u00bb.<\/p>\n

Nuk e doja m\u00eb babain tim, meqen\u00ebse trajtonte kaq harbut\u00ebrisht n\u00ebn\u00ebn; ashtu sikurse nga ana tjet\u00ebr nuk kisha dashuri absolutisht q\u00eb at\u00ebher\u00eb p\u00ebr ask\u00ebnd, por isha vet\u00ebm e p\u00ebrzem\u00ebrt me disa persona, q\u00eb ishin t\u00eb mir\u00eb ndaj meje. Dashuria pa shpres\u00eb shp\u00ebrblimi tok\u00ebsor jeton vet\u00ebm n\u00eb shpirtrat n\u00eb gjendje Hiri. Dhe un\u00eb nuk isha n\u00eb Hir. K\u00ebshtu iu p\u00ebrgjigja pyetjes s\u00eb mistershme, pa llogaritur se nga vinte: \u00abNuk \u00ebsht\u00eb e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb q\u00eb do t\u00eb vdes\u00eb!\u00bb.<\/p>\n

Pas nj\u00eb pushimi t\u00eb shkurt\u00ebr, p\u00ebrs\u00ebri perceptova t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn pyetje. \u00abPo nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb q\u00eb do t\u00eb vdes\u00eb!\u00bb – m\u00eb shp\u00ebtoi akoma nga goja, n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb vrazhd\u00eb.<\/p>\n

P\u00ebr t\u00eb tret\u00ebn her\u00eb m\u2019u k\u00ebrkua: \u00ab\u00c7far\u00eb do t\u00eb ndodh\u00eb n\u00ebse vdes babai?\u00bb. M\u2019u paraqit n\u00eb mendje se si babai shpesh vinte n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi i dehur, duke b\u00ebr\u00eb zhurm\u00eb, keqtrajtonte n\u00ebn\u00ebn dhe se si ai na kishte v\u00ebn\u00eb n\u00eb nj\u00eb gjendje p\u00ebrvujt\u00ebrimi p\u00ebrpara njer\u00ebzve. Prandaj edhe b\u00ebrtita e zem\u00ebruar: \u00abMir\u00eb e ka!\u00bb. At\u00ebher\u00eb gjith\u00e7ka heshti. N\u00eb m\u00ebngjesin tjet\u00ebr, kur n\u00ebna deshi t\u00eb vinte n\u00eb rregull dhom\u00ebn e babait, gjeti der\u00ebn t\u00eb mbyllur n\u00eb \u00e7el\u00ebs. Rreth mesdit\u00ebs der\u00ebn e hap\u00ebn me forc\u00eb. Babai im, gjys\u00ebm i veshur, shtrihej kufom\u00eb n\u00eb shtrat. Nd\u00ebrsa po shkonte t\u00eb merrte birr\u00eb n\u00eb kantin\u00eb, do t\u00eb ket\u00eb p\u00ebsuar ndonj\u00eb goditje. Ishte me koh\u00eb i s\u00ebmur\u00eb (A thua ndoshta Hyji e kishte lidhur shp\u00ebtimin e babait me vepr\u00ebn e mir\u00eb t\u00eb s\u00eb bij\u00ebs, ndaj s\u00eb cil\u00ebs ai njeri ishte treguar i mire?… Sa p\u00ebrgjegj\u00ebsi p\u00ebr secilin, n\u00ebse l\u00ebm\u00eb t\u00eb humbasim rastin p\u00ebr t\u2019i b\u00ebr\u00eb mire t\u00eb af\u00ebrmit! <\/p>\n

Marta K\u2026 dhe ti m\u00eb keni ftuar t\u00eb hy n\u00eb \u00abShoqat\u00ebn e t\u00eb Rejave\u00bb. Me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb nuk e kam fshehur kurr\u00eb se m\u00eb dukeshin mjaft t\u00eb p\u00ebrshtatshme m\u00ebsimet e dy drejtueseve, zonjat X\u2026<\/p>\n

Loj\u00ebrat na zbavitnin. Si\u00e7 e di pata menj\u00ebher\u00eb nj\u00eb rol drejtues. Kjo m\u00eb p\u00eblqente shum\u00eb. Edhe sh\u00ebtitjet m\u00eb p\u00eblqenin. E lash\u00eb vetveten nganj\u00ebher\u00eb t\u00eb shkoja edhe n\u00eb Rr\u00ebfim dhe n\u00eb Kungim. T\u00eb them t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00ebn, nuk kisha asgj\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb rr\u00ebfyer. Mendimet dhe bisedat p\u00ebr mua nuk kishin r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi. P\u00ebr veprime m\u00eb t\u00eb r\u00ebnda, nuk isha aq e korruptuar. <\/p>\n

Ti m\u00eb qortove nj\u00eb her\u00eb: \u00abAnna, n\u00ebse nuk lutesh do t\u00eb shkosh n\u00eb Ferr!\u00bb.
\nUn\u00eb lutesha me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb pak dhe edhe ato her\u00eb q\u00eb lutesha e b\u00ebja pa d\u00ebshir\u00eb. P\u00ebr fat t\u00eb keq ti at\u00ebher\u00eb kishe t\u00eb drejt\u00eb. T\u00eb gjith\u00eb ata q\u00eb digjen n\u00eb Ferr nuk jan\u00eb lutur aspak ose nuk jan\u00eb lutur mjaftuesh\u00ebm.<\/p>\n

Lutja \u00ebsht\u00eb hapi i par\u00eb drejt Zotit. Dhe mbetet hapi vendimtar. Kryesisht lutja drejtuar Asaj q\u00eb ishte N\u00ebna e Krishtit, emrin e s\u00eb Cil\u00ebs ne nuk e shqiptojm\u00eb kurr\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Devocioni p\u00ebr T\u00eb i heq nga dora e Djallit shpirtra t\u00eb pafund, t\u00eb cil\u00ebt m\u00ebkati do ia dor\u00ebzonte sigurisht. Po e vazhdoj tregimin duke u konsumuar nga inati; po e b\u00ebj vet\u00ebm se jam e detyruar. <\/p>\n

Lutja \u00ebsht\u00eb gj\u00ebja m\u00eb e leht\u00eb q\u00eb nj\u00eb njeri mund t\u00eb b\u00ebj\u00eb mbi tok\u00eb. Dhe pik\u00ebrisht me k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb kaq shum\u00eb t\u00eb leht\u00eb Zoti ka lidhur shp\u00ebtimin e gjithsecilit. <\/p>\n

Atij q\u00eb lutet me q\u00ebndrueshm\u00ebri Ai pak nga pak i jep shum\u00eb drit\u00eb, e forcon n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb till\u00eb, saq\u00eb n\u00eb fund edhe m\u00ebkatari m\u00eb i zhytur mund t\u00eb ringrihet p\u00ebrfundimisht. Edhe sikur t\u00eb ishte i zhytur n\u00eb balt\u00eb deri n\u00eb fyt. <\/p>\n

N\u00eb vitet e fundit t\u00eb jet\u00ebs nuk jam lutur si\u00e7 duhej t\u00eb b\u00ebja dhe k\u00ebshtu jam privuar nga hiret, pa t\u00eb cilat askush nuk mund t\u00eb shp\u00ebtoj\u00eb.
\nK\u00ebtu nuk marrim m\u00eb asnj\u00eb hir. Madje, edhe sikur t\u2019i merrnim, do t\u2019i refuzonim n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb cinike. T\u00eb gjitha trazirat e ekzistenc\u00ebs tok\u00ebsore pushojn\u00eb n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb jet\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr. <\/p>\n

Prej jush n\u00eb tok\u00eb njeriu mund t\u00eb ngjitet nga gjendja e m\u00ebkatit n\u00eb gjendjen e Hirit e nga Hiri mund t\u00eb bie n\u00eb m\u00ebkat, shpeshher\u00eb p\u00ebr dob\u00ebsi, nganj\u00ebher\u00eb p\u00ebr lig\u00ebsi. Nga \u00e7asti i vdekjes kjo ulje e ngritje p\u00ebrfundon, sepse ka rr\u00ebnj\u00ebn e vet n\u00eb pap\u00ebrsosurin\u00eb e njeriut tok\u00ebsor. Tashm\u00eb kemi arritur gjendjen p\u00ebrfundimtare. <\/p>\n

Me kalimin e viteve nd\u00ebrrimet b\u00ebhen m\u00eb t\u00eb rralla. \u00cbsht\u00eb e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, deri n\u00eb vdekje mund t\u2019i drejtohemi gjithmon\u00eb Hyjit ose mund t\u2019ia kthejm\u00eb shpin\u00ebn. Megjithat\u00eb, njeriu, pothuajse i t\u00ebrhequr nga rryma, p\u00ebrpara kalimit, me mbetjet e dob\u00ebta t\u00eb fundit t\u00eb vullnetit, sillet si\u00e7 ishte m\u00ebsuar n\u00eb jet\u00eb. <\/p>\n

Zakoni, i mir\u00eb apo i keq, b\u00ebhet nj\u00eb natyr\u00eb e dyt\u00eb. Kjo e fundit e t\u00ebrheq me vete. K\u00ebshtu ndodhi edhe p\u00ebr mua. Prej vitesh jetoja larg nga Hyji. P\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb n\u00eb thirrjet e fundit t\u00eb Hirit u ngrita kund\u00ebr Hyjit. Nuk qe fatal fakti se un\u00eb m\u00ebkatoja shpesh p\u00ebr mua, por fakti se un\u00eb nuk doja t\u00eb ringjallesha. Ti m\u00eb ke k\u00ebshilluar disa her\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb d\u00ebgjoja predikimet, t\u00eb lexoja libra t\u00eb p\u00ebrshpirtsh\u00ebm.<\/p>\n

\u00abNuk kam koh\u00eb!\u00bb, – ishte p\u00ebrgjigjja ime e zakonshme. Nuk mungonte gj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr q\u00eb t\u00eb shtonte pasigurin\u00eb time t\u00eb brendshme!
\nNga ana tjet\u00ebr duhet t\u00eb konstatoj k\u00ebt\u00eb: p\u00ebr faktin se kjo gj\u00eb kishte p\u00ebrparuar tashm\u00eb, pak p\u00ebrpara se t\u00eb dilja nga \u00abShoqata e t\u00eb Rejave\u00bb, e kisha jasht\u00ebzakonisht t\u00eb v\u00ebshtir\u00eb t\u2019i vihesha nj\u00eb udhe tjet\u00ebr. Un\u00eb ndihesha e pasigurt\u00eb dhe e palumtur. Por, p\u00ebrpara kthimit ngrihej nj\u00eb mur i madh.<\/p>\n

Ti nuk duhet ta kesh dyshuar. Ti e kishe paraqitur kaq t\u00eb leht\u00eb, kur nj\u00eb dit\u00eb m\u00eb the: \u00abB\u00ebje nj\u00eb rr\u00ebfim t\u00eb mir\u00eb, Anna, dhe gjith\u00e7ka do jet\u00eb n\u00eb rregull!\u00bb.<\/p>\n

Un\u00eb e ndieja se do t\u00eb ishte k\u00ebshtu. Por bota, djalli, mishi m\u00eb mbanin tashm\u00eb t\u00eb lidhur fort n\u00ebn kthetrat e tyre. Ndikimeve t\u00eb djallit nuk u besoja kurr\u00eb. E tani e d\u00ebshmoj se ai ndikon fuqish\u00ebm mbi njer\u00ebzit q\u00eb gjenden n\u00eb kushtet n\u00eb t\u00eb cilat gjendesha un\u00eb at\u00ebher\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Vet\u00ebm shum\u00eb lutje, t\u00eb t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve dhe t\u00eb miat, t\u00eb bashkuara me sakrifica dhe me vuajtje, do t\u00eb mund t\u00eb m\u00eb shk\u00ebputnin prej tij. <\/p>\n

Dhe kjo, pak nga pak. N\u00ebse pak jan\u00eb t\u00eb pushtuarit nga djalli nga ana e jashtme, t\u00eb pushtuarit nga brenda jan\u00eb nj\u00eb miz\u00ebri. Djalli nuk mund t\u2019ua rr\u00ebmbej\u00eb vullnetin e lir\u00eb atyre q\u00eb i jepen ndikimit t\u00eb tij. Por, n\u00ebse mund ta themi k\u00ebshtu, p\u00ebr hir t\u00eb largimit sistematik nga Hyji, ky lejon q\u00eb \u00abi keqi\u00bb t\u00eb l\u00ebshoj\u00eb rr\u00ebnj\u00eb n\u00eb ta. Un\u00eb urrej edhe djallin. Megjithat\u00eb, ai m\u00eb p\u00eblqen, sepse p\u00ebrpiqet t\u00eb ju shkat\u00ebrroj\u00eb juve; urrej at\u00eb dhe satelit\u00ebt e tij, shpirtrat e r\u00ebn\u00eb me t\u00eb q\u00eb n\u00eb fillim t\u00eb koh\u00ebve. <\/p>\n

Ata jan\u00eb me miliona. Sillen n\u00ebp\u00ebr tok\u00eb si nj\u00eb mori mizash t\u00eb vogla, dhe ju as q\u00eb i vini re. Nuk na takon ne t\u00eb d\u00ebnuarve q\u00eb t\u2019ju tundojm\u00eb;
\nkjo \u00ebsht\u00eb detyr\u00eb e shpirtrave t\u00eb r\u00ebn\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb kjo gj\u00eb e shton akoma m\u00eb shum\u00eb mundimin sa her\u00eb q\u00eb ata t\u00ebrheqin k\u00ebtu n\u00eb Ferr nj\u00eb shpirt njer\u00ebzor. Po \u00e7far\u00eb nuk b\u00ebn urrejtja? <\/p>\n

Megjith\u00ebse un\u00eb ecja n\u00eb udh\u00eb larg prej Hyjit, Hyji m\u00eb ndiqte. P\u00ebrgatisja udh\u00ebn ndaj Hirit me gjeste dashurie t\u00eb natyrshme, q\u00eb kryeja jo rrall\u00eb her\u00eb fal\u00eb prirjes s\u00eb temperamentit tim. Nganj\u00ebher\u00eb Hyji m\u00eb t\u00ebrhiqte n\u00eb nj\u00eb Kish\u00eb. At\u00ebher\u00eb un\u00eb ndieja si nj\u00eb mall. Kur kujdesesha p\u00ebr n\u00ebn\u00ebn e s\u00ebmur\u00eb, me gjith\u00eb pun\u00ebn q\u00eb kisha n\u00eb zyr\u00eb gjat\u00eb dit\u00ebs, e n\u00eb nj\u00ebfar\u00eb m\u00ebnyre sakrifikohesha me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, k\u00ebto joshje t\u00eb Hyjit vepronin fuqish\u00ebm. <\/p>\n

Nj\u00eb her\u00eb, n\u00eb Kish\u00ebn e spitalit, ku ti m\u00eb kishe \u00e7uar gjat\u00eb pushimit t\u00eb mesdit\u00ebs, ndodhi di\u00e7ka n\u00eb mua pas s\u00eb cil\u00ebs do t\u00eb m\u00eb kishte mjaftuar edhe nj\u00eb hap i vet\u00ebm p\u00ebr t\u2019u kthyer: un\u00eb qava! Por pastaj g\u00ebzimi i bot\u00ebs kalonte p\u00ebrs\u00ebri si nj\u00eb p\u00ebrrua sip\u00ebr Hirit. Grurit po i merrej fryma mes ferrave. Me deklarimin se feja \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb \u00e7\u00ebshtje ndjenje, si\u00e7 thuhej gjithnj\u00eb n\u00eb zyr\u00eb, e hodha n\u00eb kosh edhe k\u00ebt\u00eb ftes\u00eb t\u00eb Hirit si t\u00eb gjitha t\u00eb tjerat. <\/p>\n

Nj\u00eb her\u00eb ti m\u00eb qortove sepse n\u00eb vend q\u00eb t\u00eb gjunj\u00ebzohesha deri p\u00ebrtok\u00eb, mezi e b\u00ebra nj\u00eb p\u00ebrkulje t\u00eb patrajt\u00eb, duke p\u00ebrthyer gjurin. Ti e konsiderove nj\u00eb gjest dembelie. Nuk dukeshe q\u00eb dyshoje aspak q\u00eb un\u00eb q\u00eb at\u00ebher\u00eb nuk besoja m\u00eb n\u00eb pranin\u00eb e Krishtit n\u00eb Sakrament.<\/p>\n

Tani besoj, por vet\u00ebm n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb natyrore, si\u00e7 besohet n\u00eb nj\u00eb shtr\u00ebngat\u00eb efektet e s\u00eb cil\u00ebs vihen re. Nd\u00ebrkaq un\u00eb kisha krijuar vet\u00eb nj\u00eb fe sipas m\u00ebnyr\u00ebs sime. Mb\u00ebshtesja opinionin, q\u00eb tek ne n\u00eb zyr\u00eb ishte i zakonsh\u00ebm, se shpirti pas vdekjes lind n\u00eb nj\u00eb qenie tjet\u00ebr. N\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb do t\u00eb vazhdonte t\u00eb shtegtoj\u00eb pa fund. Me k\u00ebt\u00eb, \u00e7\u00ebshtja e ankthshme e jet\u00ebs s\u00eb p\u00ebrtejme ishte nj\u00ebkoh\u00ebsisht e sistemuar dhe e vler\u00ebsuar tashm\u00eb p\u00ebr mua si e pad\u00ebmshme. P\u00ebrse ti nuk ma ke kujtuar sh\u00ebmb\u00eblltyr\u00ebn e pasanikut dhe t\u00eb Lazrit t\u00eb varf\u00ebr, ku treguesi, Krishti, d\u00ebrgon menj\u00ebher\u00eb pas vdekjes, nj\u00ebrin n\u00eb Ferr dhe tjetrin n\u00eb Parajs\u00eb?… Nga ana tjet\u00ebr, \u00e7far\u00eb do t\u00eb kishe fituar? Asgj\u00eb m\u00eb shum\u00eb se sa p\u00ebr ato bisedat e tua prej fanatikeje! <\/p>\n

Pak nga pak krijova un\u00eb vet\u00eb nj\u00eb Hyj; i pajisur mjaftuesh\u00ebm p\u00ebr t\u2019u quajtur Hyj; larg mjaft prej meje, sa p\u00ebr t\u00eb mos mbajtur asnj\u00eb lidhje me T\u00eb; aq i mjegullt sa p\u00ebr t\u2019u braktisur, sipas nevoj\u00ebs, pa nd\u00ebrruar fen\u00eb time; duke i p\u00ebrngjasuar nj\u00eb hyji panteistik t\u00eb bot\u00ebs, ose q\u00eb lejon t\u00eb poetizohet si nj\u00eb hyj vetmitar. <\/p>\n

Ky Hyj nuk kishte asnj\u00eb Ferr p\u00ebr t\u00eb m\u00eb dh\u00ebn\u00eb. E lija n\u00eb paqe. N\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb q\u00ebndronte adhurimi im p\u00ebr T\u00eb.
\nAjo q\u00eb p\u00eblqen besohet me k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsi. Gjat\u00eb viteve q\u00ebndrova mjaft e bindur p\u00ebr fen\u00eb time. N\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb mund t\u00eb jetohej. Nj\u00eb gj\u00eb e vetme do t\u00eb ma kishte cop\u00ebtuar zverkun: nj\u00eb dhimbje e gjat\u00eb, e thell\u00eb. E kjo dhimbje nuk erdhi!
\nA e kupton tani se \u00e7far\u00eb do t\u00eb thot\u00eb: \u00abHyji i d\u00ebnon ata q\u00eb i do!\u00bb? <\/p>\n

Ishte nj\u00eb e diel korriku, kur Shoqata e t\u00eb rejave organizoi nj\u00eb sh\u00ebtitje n\u00eb \u2026. Sh\u00ebtitja do t\u00eb m\u00eb kishte p\u00eblqyer. Por ato biseda t\u00eb pashije, ato m\u00ebnyra prej fanatik\u00ebsh! Nj\u00eb statuj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr mjaft e ndryshme nga ajo e Zoj\u00ebs s\u00eb \u2026 q\u00ebndronte tash sa koh\u00eb n\u00eb altarin e zemr\u00ebs sime. I forti Max N\u2026 i dyqanit pran\u00eb. Pak koh\u00eb m\u00eb par\u00eb kishim b\u00ebr\u00eb shaka s\u00eb bashku disa her\u00eb. Pik\u00ebrisht p\u00ebr at\u00eb t\u00eb diel, ai m\u00eb kishte ftuar n\u00eb nj\u00eb sh\u00ebtitje. Ajo me t\u00eb cil\u00ebn ai shkonte zakonisht dergjej n\u00eb spital e s\u00ebmur\u00eb. <\/p>\n

Ai e kishte kuptuar mir\u00eb se un\u00eb ia kisha v\u00ebn\u00eb syrin. T\u00eb martohesha me t\u00eb as q\u00eb e mendoja at\u00ebher\u00eb. Ishte v\u00ebrtet i pasur, por kishte nj\u00eb q\u00ebndrim plot me mir\u00ebsjellje me t\u00eb gjitha vajzat. Dhe un\u00eb, q\u00eb at\u00ebher\u00eb, doja nj\u00eb burr\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00eb p\u00ebrkiste vet\u00ebm mua. Jo vet\u00ebm t\u00eb isha grua, por grua e vetme. Nj\u00ebfar\u00eb mir\u00ebsjelljeje, natyrore, n\u00eb fakt, e pata gjithmon\u00eb. N\u00eb sh\u00ebtitjen q\u00eb m\u00eb p\u00ebrmendi, Max i shkriu t\u00eb gjitha mir\u00ebsjelljet. Eh! Nuk b\u00ebm\u00eb biseda prej priftash si\u00e7 b\u00ebhet mes juve! Dit\u00ebn n\u00eb vijim, n\u00eb zyr\u00eb, ti m\u00eb b\u00ebre disa qortime, sepse nuk kisha ardhur me ju n\u00eb \u2026. Un\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrshkrova zbavitjen time t\u00eb asaj t\u00eb diele.<\/p>\n

Pyetja jote e par\u00eb, qe: \u00abA ke qen\u00eb n\u00eb Mesh\u00eb?\u00bb. Budallaqe! Si mund t\u00eb shkoja, meqen\u00ebse nisja ishte vendosur n\u00eb or\u00ebn gjasht\u00eb?! A e di se si un\u00eb, e nxehur, shtova: \u00abZoti i mir\u00eb nuk ka nj\u00eb mentalitet kaq t\u00eb ngusht\u00eb si priftat tuaj!\u00bb.<\/p>\n

Tani duhet ta rr\u00ebfej: Hyji, me gjith\u00eb mir\u00ebsin\u00eb e Tij t\u00eb pafund, i peshon gj\u00ebrat me nj\u00eb sakt\u00ebsi m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe se sa t\u00eb gjith\u00eb prift\u00ebrinjt\u00eb. Pas asaj dite me Max, erdha edhe nj\u00eb her\u00eb n\u00eb Shoqat\u00eb: p\u00ebr Krishtlindje, p\u00ebr kremtimin e fest\u00ebs. Por brenda meje isha larguar me kohe prej ju t\u00eb tjerave. Kinema, vall\u00ebzime, sh\u00ebtitje qarkullonin pa pushim. Max dhe un\u00eb u zum\u00eb disa her\u00eb, por dita gjithnj\u00eb ta lidhja p\u00ebrs\u00ebri me mua. Shum\u00eb e bezdishme ishte p\u00ebr mua e dashura tjet\u00ebr, e cila, pasi u kthye nga spitali, pati nj\u00eb sjellje prej t\u00eb djallosure. V\u00ebrtet p\u00ebr fatin tim; meqen\u00ebse qet\u00ebsia ime fisnike b\u00ebri nj\u00eb p\u00ebrshtypje t\u00eb fuqishme mbi Maksin, i cili vendosi t\u00eb m\u00eb konsideronte si t\u00eb preferuar\u00ebn e tij. Kisha ditur q\u00eb t\u2019ia b\u00ebja t\u00eb urryer, duke folur n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb ftoht\u00eb: nga jasht\u00eb shfaqesha pozitive, nga brenda villja helm. Ndjenja t\u00eb tilla dhe nj\u00eb p\u00ebrmbajtje e till\u00eb p\u00ebrgatisin n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb shk\u00eblqyer p\u00ebr n\u00eb Ferr. Jan\u00eb djall\u00ebzor\u00eb n\u00eb kuptimin m\u00eb t\u00eb ngusht\u00eb t\u00eb fjal\u00ebs. <\/p>\n

P\u00ebrse ta tregoj k\u00ebt\u00eb? P\u00ebr t\u00eb t\u00eb th\u00ebn\u00eb se si un\u00eb u shk\u00ebputa p\u00ebrfundimisht nga Hyji. Nga ana tjet\u00ebr, jo se mes meje dhe Maksit i kemi shkuar n\u00eb skaj familjaritetit. E kuptoja se do t\u00eb isha p\u00ebrulur para syve t\u00eb tij, po t\u00eb isha l\u00ebshuar krejt\u00ebsisht, p\u00ebrpara kohe; prandaj dita t\u00eb p\u00ebrmbahesha.<\/p>\n

Por, n\u00eb vetvete, sa her\u00eb q\u00eb e konsideroja t\u00eb dobishme, isha gjithmon\u00eb e gatshme p\u00ebr gjith\u00e7ka. Duhej t\u00eb fitoja Maksin. P\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb q\u00ebllim asgj\u00eb nuk ishte e kushtueshme. P\u00ebrve\u00e7 k\u00ebsaj, pak nga pak duheshim, duke zot\u00ebruar secili jo pak cil\u00ebsi t\u00eb \u00e7muara, q\u00eb na b\u00ebnin ta vler\u00ebsonim nj\u00ebri-tjetrin. Un\u00eb isha e shkath\u00ebt, e aft\u00eb, n\u00eb shoq\u00ebri e p\u00eblqyeshme. K\u00ebshtu e mbajta fort n\u00eb dor\u00eb Maksin dhe ia dola, t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn n\u00eb muajt e fundit para martes\u00ebs, t\u00eb isha e vetmja q\u00eb e zot\u00ebroja. N\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb q\u00ebndroi mohimi q\u00eb i b\u00ebra Zotit: duke e lart\u00ebsuar nj\u00eb krijes\u00eb si idhullin tim. N\u00eb asgj\u00eb nuk mund t\u00eb ndodh\u00eb kjo, n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrqafoj\u00eb gjith\u00e7ka, si n\u00eb dashurin\u00eb e nj\u00eb personi t\u00eb gjinis\u00eb tjet\u00ebr, kur kjo dashuri ngec n\u00eb k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsit\u00eb tok\u00ebsore. <\/p>\n

Kjo \u00ebsht\u00eb ajo q\u00eb formon t\u00ebrheqjen e saj, stimulin e saj dhe helmin e saj. \u00abAdhurimi\u00bb, q\u00eb un\u00eb i jepja Maksit, u b\u00eb p\u00ebr mua fe e jetuar. Ishte koha kur n\u00eb zyr\u00eb hidhesha kund\u00ebr atyre q\u00eb frekuentonin Kish\u00ebn, prift\u00ebrinjt\u00eb, ndjesat, murmuritja e rruzareve dhe budallall\u00ebqe si k\u00ebto. Ti je p\u00ebrpjekur, pak a shum\u00eb me mpreht\u00ebsi, q\u00eb t\u00eb marr\u00ebsh pozicion mbrojtjeje ndaj k\u00ebtyre gj\u00ebrave. N\u00eb pamje t\u00eb jashtme, pa dyshuar se n\u00eb thell\u00ebsin\u00eb time m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe nuk b\u00ebhej fjal\u00eb, n\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, p\u00ebr k\u00ebto gj\u00ebra, un\u00eb k\u00ebrkoja m\u00eb shum\u00eb nj\u00eb mb\u00ebshtetje kund\u00ebr nd\u00ebrgjegjes sime \u2013 at\u00ebher\u00eb un\u00eb kisha nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr nj\u00eb mb\u00ebshtetje t\u00eb till\u00eb \u2013 p\u00ebr t\u00eb justifikuar edhe me arsyen apostazin\u00eb time (braktisjen e fes\u00eb s\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb). <\/p>\n

N\u00eb fund t\u00eb fundit, po kthehesha kund\u00ebr Zotit. Ti nuk e kuptove; m\u00eb konsideroje akoma katolike. Madje, d\u00ebshiroja t\u00eb thirresha k\u00ebshtu; paguaja edhe ofertat p\u00ebr Kish\u00ebn. Mendoja se nj\u00ebfar\u00eb \u00abkund\u00ebr-sigurimi\u00bb nuk mund t\u00eb d\u00ebmtonte. Mbase p\u00ebrgjigjet tuaja nganj\u00ebher\u00eb mund t\u00eb ken\u00eb goditur n\u00eb shenj\u00eb. Mbi mua nuk b\u00ebnin dobi, sepse ti nuk duhej t\u00eb kishe t\u00eb drejt\u00eb. P\u00ebr shkak t\u00eb k\u00ebtyre marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnieve t\u00eb rreme mes ne t\u00eb dyjave, dhimbja e ndarjes son\u00eb qe meskine, kur u ndam\u00eb me rastin e martes\u00ebs sime. P\u00ebrpara se t\u00eb martohesha u rr\u00ebfeva dhe mora kungimin akoma edhe nj\u00eb her\u00eb. Ishte e parashikuar. Un\u00eb dhe burri im lidhur me k\u00ebt\u00eb pik\u00eb e mendonim n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00eb. P\u00ebrse t\u00eb mos e kryenim k\u00ebt\u00eb formalitet? Edhe ne e kryem si formalitetet tjera. Ju e quani t\u00eb padenj\u00eb nj\u00eb Kungim t\u00eb till\u00eb. E po mir\u00eb, pas atij Kungimi \u00abt\u00eb padenj\u00eb\u00bb, un\u00eb pata m\u00eb qet\u00ebsi n\u00eb nd\u00ebrgjegje. Nga ana tjet\u00ebr qe edhe e fundit. <\/p>\n

Jeta jon\u00eb martesore kalonte, n\u00eb p\u00ebrgjith\u00ebsi, sa m\u00eb shum\u00eb n\u00eb harmoni t\u00eb madhe. Mbi t\u00eb gjitha k\u00ebndv\u00ebshtrimet ne ishim t\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjtit mendim. Edhe n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb: se nuk donim t\u00eb merrnim p\u00ebrsip\u00ebr pesh\u00ebn e f\u00ebmij\u00ebve. Me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb burri im do ta kishte dashur nj\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb; jo m\u00eb shum\u00eb, kuptohet. N\u00eb fund un\u00eb dita ta shk\u00ebpusja edhe nga kjo d\u00ebshir\u00eb. <\/p>\n

Rroba, mobilje luksi, lokale \u00e7aji, sh\u00ebtitje dhe udh\u00ebtime me makin\u00eb dhe d\u00ebfrime t\u00eb tilla kishin m\u00eb shum\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi p\u00ebr mua. Qe nj\u00eb vit k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsie mbi tok\u00eb ajo q\u00eb kalova nga martesa ime deri dit\u00ebn e vdekjes s\u00eb papritur. \u00c7do t\u00eb diel dilnim me makin\u00eb, ose u b\u00ebnim vizita t\u00eb af\u00ebrmve t\u00eb burrit tim. Ata notonin n\u00eb sip\u00ebrfaqe t\u00eb ekzistenc\u00ebs, as m\u00eb pak dhe as m\u00eb shum\u00eb se ne. <\/p>\n

Brenda meje, kuptohet, un\u00eb nuk jam ndier e lumtur, edhe pse nga ana e jashtme un\u00eb qeshesha. Ishte gjithmon\u00eb brenda meje di\u00e7ka e pap\u00ebrcaktuar, q\u00eb m\u00eb brente. Do t\u00eb kisha dashur q\u00eb, pas vdekjes, e cila natyrisht do duhej t\u00eb ishte shum\u00eb larg, t\u00eb p\u00ebrfundonte gjith\u00e7ka.
\nPor \u00ebsht\u00eb pik\u00ebrisht k\u00ebshtu, se si nj\u00eb dit\u00eb, kur isha f\u00ebmij\u00eb, d\u00ebgjova tek thuhej n\u00eb nj\u00eb predikim: se Hyji shp\u00ebrblen \u00e7do vep\u00ebr t\u00eb mir\u00eb q\u00eb nj\u00eb kryen dhe, kur nuk do t\u00eb mund ta shp\u00ebrblej\u00eb n\u00eb jet\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr, do ta shp\u00ebrblej\u00eb q\u00eb n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb tok\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Pa e pritur, pata nj\u00eb trash\u00ebgimi nga tezja ime Lotte. Burrit tim iu duk e p\u00eblqyeshme q\u00eb t\u00eb lart\u00ebsoj\u00eb rrog\u00ebn e tij n\u00eb nj\u00eb shif\u00ebr t\u00eb konsiderueshme. K\u00ebshtu munda t\u00eb porosisja banes\u00ebn e re n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00ebrheq\u00ebse. Feja nuk sillte m\u00eb p\u00ebrve\u00e7se prej larg drit\u00ebn e saj, t\u00eb zbeht\u00eb, t\u00eb dob\u00ebt dhe t\u00eb pasigurt\u00eb. Kafja e qytetit, hotelet, ku shkonim gjat\u00eb udh\u00ebtimeve, nuk na \u00e7onin sigurisht tek Hyji. T\u00eb gjith\u00eb ata q\u00eb frekuentonin ato vende, jetonin, si ne, nga jasht\u00eb n\u00eb brend\u00ebsi dhe jo nga brend\u00ebsia jasht\u00eb. N\u00ebse n\u00eb udh\u00ebtimet gjat\u00eb pushimeve i b\u00ebnim vizit\u00eb ndonj\u00eb Kishe, p\u00ebrpiqeshim t\u00eb zbaviteshim n\u00eb p\u00ebrmbajtjen artistike t\u00eb veprave. Fryma fetare q\u00eb nxirrnin, kryesisht ato t\u00eb mesjet\u00ebs, dija ta neutralizoja me kritika ndaj rrethanave q\u00eb ishin dyt\u00ebsore: nj\u00eb v\u00eblla laik i ngath\u00ebt ose i veshur n\u00eb nj\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb jo t\u00eb past\u00ebr, q\u00eb kishte rolin e ciceronit; shkandulli i murgjve, t\u00eb cil\u00ebt donin t\u00eb paraqiteshin si t\u00eb p\u00ebrshpirtsh\u00ebm dhe pastaj shisnin likere; r\u00ebnia e zgjatur e kambanave gjat\u00eb riteve fetare, nd\u00ebrsa b\u00ebhej fjal\u00eb thjesht p\u00ebr fitim parash\u2026 <\/p>\n

K\u00ebshtu dita vazhdimisht ta d\u00ebboj prej meje Hirin q\u00eb \u00e7do her\u00eb trokiste n\u00eb der\u00ebn time. Shfryja me liri humorin tim t\u00eb keq mbi disa figura mesjetare t\u00eb Ferrit n\u00ebp\u00ebr varreza ose diku tjet\u00ebr, ku djalli i pjek shpirtrat n\u00eb prush t\u00eb kuq e t\u00eb ndezur, nd\u00ebrsa shok\u00ebt e tij, me bishta t\u00eb gjat\u00eb, i t\u00ebrheqin viktima t\u00eb reja. Klara! Ferrin mund t\u00eb gabosh duke e vizatuar, por nuk teprohet kurr\u00eb! Zjarrin e Ferrit gjithmon\u00eb e kisha v\u00ebn\u00eb n\u00eb sh\u00ebnjest\u00ebr n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb. Ti e di se si gjat\u00eb nj\u00eb grindjeje, lidhur me k\u00ebt\u00eb, t\u00eb vura nj\u00eb her\u00eb nj\u00eb kunj shkrep\u00ebseje t\u00eb ndezur n\u00ebn hund\u00eb dhe t\u00eb thash\u00eb me sarkaz\u00ebm: \u00abA ka k\u00ebt\u00eb er\u00eb?\u00bb. Ti e fike flak\u00ebn me nxitim. K\u00ebtu nuk e fik askush. Un\u00eb po t\u00eb them: zjarri p\u00ebr t\u00eb cilin flitet n\u00eb Bib\u00ebl, nuk do t\u00eb thot\u00eb mundim i nd\u00ebrgjegjes. Zjarri \u00ebsht\u00eb zjarr! Duhet t\u00eb kuptohet fjal\u00eb p\u00ebr fjal\u00eb ajo q\u00eb ka th\u00ebn\u00eb: \u00abShporruni prej meje, t\u00eb mallkuar, n\u00eb zjarrin e p\u00ebrjetsh\u00ebm!\u00bb. Fjal\u00eb p\u00ebr fjal\u00eb! <\/p>\n

\u00abSi mundet t\u00eb preket shpirti nga zjarri material?\u00bb, do t\u00eb pyes\u00ebsh. Si mundet shpirti yt t\u00eb vuaj\u00eb mbi tok\u00eb kur ti e v\u00eb gishtin mbi flak\u00eb? N\u00eb fakt, nuk digjet shpirti; megjithat\u00eb, sa mundim provon krejt individi! <\/p>\n

N\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb ngjashme ne k\u00ebtu jemi shpirt\u00ebrisht t\u00eb lidhur me zjarrin, sipas natyr\u00ebs son\u00eb dhe sipas aft\u00ebsive tona. Shpirtit ton\u00eb i mungon rrahja natyrore e krah\u00ebve; ne nuk mund t\u00eb mendojm\u00eb at\u00eb q\u00eb duam as se si duam. Mos u habit p\u00ebr k\u00ebto fjal\u00eb t\u00eb miat!
\nKjo gjendje, q\u00eb p\u00ebr ju duket sikur nuk thot\u00eb ndonj\u00eb gj\u00eb, m\u00eb djeg pa m\u00eb konsumuar. <\/p>\n

Mundimi yn\u00eb m\u00eb i madh q\u00ebndron n\u00eb dijen ton\u00eb t\u00eb sigurt\u00eb se ne nuk do ta shohim kurr\u00eb Hyjin. Si mundet kjo gj\u00eb t\u00eb na mundoj\u00eb kaq shum\u00eb, nga momenti q\u00eb nj\u00eb p\u00ebrmbi tok\u00eb q\u00ebndron kaq indiferent? Gjersa thika q\u00ebndron n\u00eb tavolin\u00eb, t\u00eb l\u00eb t\u00eb ftoht\u00eb. Shihet se sa \u00ebsht\u00eb e mpreht\u00eb, por nuk provohet. E ngul thik\u00ebn n\u00eb mish dhe fillon t\u00eb b\u00ebrtas\u00ebsh nga dhimbja. Tani ne e ndiejm\u00eb humbjen e Hyjit; p\u00ebrpara thjesht e mendonim. Jo t\u00eb gjith\u00eb shpirtrat vuajn\u00eb n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb barabart\u00eb. Sa me m\u00eb shum\u00eb lig\u00ebsi dhe sa m\u00eb sistematikisht nj\u00eb t\u00eb ket\u00eb m\u00ebkatuar, aq m\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00eb peshon mbi t\u00eb humbja e Hyjit dhe aq m\u00eb shum\u00eb dhe aq m\u00eb shum\u00eb ia merr frym\u00ebn krijesa me t\u00eb cil\u00ebn ka abuzuar. Katolik\u00ebt e humbur (q\u00eb kan\u00eb shkuar n\u00eb Ferr) vuajn\u00eb m\u00eb shum\u00eb se sa ata t\u00eb feve t\u00eb tjera, sepse ata p\u00ebr m\u00eb tep\u00ebr mor\u00ebn dhe shkel\u00ebn m\u00eb shum\u00eb hire dhe m\u00eb shum\u00eb drit\u00eb. <\/p>\n

Kush m\u00eb shum\u00eb ka njohur, vuan m\u00eb shum\u00eb se sa ai q\u00eb ka njohur m\u00eb pak. Kush ka m\u00ebkatuar p\u00ebr lig\u00ebsi, vuan m\u00eb thell\u00eb se sa ai q\u00eb ka r\u00ebn\u00eb p\u00ebr dob\u00ebsi. Kurr\u00eb askush nuk vuan m\u00eb shum\u00eb se sa e ka merituar. Oh, sikur t\u00eb mos ishte e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb gjith\u00eb kjo, un\u00eb do t\u00eb kisha nj\u00eb arsye p\u00ebr t\u00eb urryer! <\/p>\n

Ti m\u00eb the nj\u00eb dit\u00eb se askush nuk shkon n\u00eb Ferr pa e ditur: kjo i \u00ebsht\u00eb zbuluar nj\u00eb shenjteje. Un\u00eb qesha. Por pastaj lash\u00eb pas k\u00ebt\u00eb deklarat\u00eb: <\/p>\n

\u00abK\u00ebshtu, n\u00eb rast nevoje m\u00eb mbetet mjaft koh\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb nj\u00eb kthes\u00eb\u00bb – thoja fshehurazi. Ajo th\u00ebnie \u00ebsht\u00eb e drejt\u00eb. Me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, para fundit tim t\u00eb menj\u00ebhersh\u00ebm, nuk e njoha Ferrin se si \u00ebsht\u00eb. Asnj\u00eb i vdeksh\u00ebm nuk e njeh. Por, un\u00eb kisha nd\u00ebrgjegjen e plot\u00eb: \u00abN\u00ebse vdes, shkon n\u00eb bot\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr drejt si nj\u00eb shigjet\u00eb kund\u00ebr Zotit. Do t\u00eb kesh pasojat\u00bb.<\/p>\n

Un\u00eb nuk b\u00ebra kthes\u00eb, si\u00e7 thash\u00eb, sepse isha e t\u00ebrhequr nga rryma e zakonit, e shtyr\u00eb nga ai konformitet p\u00ebr t\u00eb cilin njer\u00ebzit, sa m\u00eb shum\u00eb vjet\u00ebrohen, aq m\u00eb shum\u00eb veprojn\u00eb n\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjtin drejtim.<\/p>\n

Vdekja ime ndodhi k\u00ebshtu. Para nj\u00eb jave \u2013 flas sipas llogaritjes suaj, sepse, lidhur me dhimbjen, mund t\u00eb them mjaft mir\u00eb se ka plot dhjet\u00eb vite q\u00eb digjem n\u00eb Ferr \u2013 para nj\u00eb jave, pra, burri im dhe un\u00eb b\u00ebm\u00eb nj\u00eb sh\u00ebtitje, t\u00eb fundit p\u00ebr mua.
\nDita kishte dal\u00eb e shk\u00eblqyeshme. Ndihesha mir\u00eb m\u00eb shum\u00eb se asnj\u00ebher\u00eb. M\u00eb pushtoi nj\u00eb parandjenj\u00eb ogurzez\u00eb lumturie, q\u00eb gjarp\u00ebroi n\u00eb mua gjat\u00eb gjith\u00eb dit\u00ebs.
\nKur, ja q\u00eb, papritmas, duke u kthyer, burri im qe verbuar nga nj\u00eb makin\u00eb q\u00eb vinte fluturimthi. Humbi kontrollin.
\n\u00abJesses\u00bb (forma e shtremb\u00ebruar e emrit Jesus, q\u00eb p\u00ebrdoret zakonisht mes disa popullsive t\u00eb gjuh\u00ebs gjermane), m\u00eb doli nga buz\u00ebt me nj\u00eb dridhje. Jo si lutje, vet\u00ebm si thirrje. Nj\u00eb dhimbje sfilit\u00ebse m\u00eb shtypi t\u00ebr\u00ebsisht. N\u00eb krahasim me at\u00eb q\u00eb vuaj tani \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb cik\u00ebrrim\u00eb. Pastaj humba shqisat. <\/p>\n

E \u00e7uditshme! At\u00eb m\u00ebngjes kishte lindur n\u00eb mua, n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb pashpjegueshme, k\u00ebt\u00eb mendim: \u00abTi do t\u00eb mund t\u00eb shkoje akoma edhe nj\u00eb her\u00eb n\u00eb Mesh\u00eb\u00bb. Ting\u00ebllonte si p\u00ebrgj\u00ebrim. E qart\u00eb dhe e vendosur, \u00abjo-ja\u00bb ime k\u00ebputi fijen e mendimeve. \u00abMe k\u00ebto gj\u00ebra duhet ta mbyll nj\u00eb her\u00eb e p\u00ebrgjithmon\u00eb!\u00bb – Tani vuaj pasojat. <\/p>\n

Ajo q\u00eb ndodhi pas vdekjes sime, tani do ta dish. Fati i burrit tim, ai i n\u00ebn\u00ebs sime, ajo q\u00eb ndodhi me kufom\u00ebn time dhe zhvillimi e funeralit tim i kam t\u00eb ditura n\u00eb \u00e7do holl\u00ebsi n\u00ebp\u00ebrmjet njohjeve natyrore q\u00eb ne k\u00ebtu kemi. Nga ana tjet\u00ebr, ajo q\u00eb ndodh mbi tok\u00eb, ne e dim\u00eb vet\u00ebm n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb turbullt. Por ajo q\u00eb n\u00eb ndonj\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb na prek nga af\u00ebr, e njohim. K\u00ebshtu un\u00eb shoh se edhe ku ti banon. Vet\u00eb un\u00eb u zgjova papritmas nga err\u00ebsira, n\u00eb \u00e7astin e kalimit tim. E pash\u00eb veten si t\u00eb mbuluar nga nj\u00eb drit\u00eb verbuese. Qe n\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjtin vend ku ishte e shtrir\u00eb kufoma. Ndodhi si n\u00eb nj\u00eb teat\u00ebr, kur n\u00eb sall\u00eb n\u00eb nj\u00eb \u00e7ast fiken dritat, perdja ndahet gjith\u00eb zhurm\u00eb dhe hapet nj\u00eb sken\u00eb e papritur. Skena e jet\u00ebs sime. <\/p>\n

Si n\u00eb nj\u00eb pasqyr\u00eb, shpirti im iu shfaq vetvetes. Hiret q\u00eb i kam shkelur q\u00eb n\u00eb rini deri n\u00eb \u00abjo-n\u00eb\u00bb p\u00ebrpara Hyjit.
\nUn\u00eb ndihesha si nj\u00eb vras\u00ebs, t\u00eb cilit, gjat\u00eb pro\u00e7esit gjyq\u00ebsor, i sillet p\u00ebrpara viktima e tij e pajet\u00eb. \u2013 T\u00eb pendohem? Kurr\u00eb!… T\u00eb turp\u00ebrohem? Kurr\u00eb! <\/p>\n

Porse as nuk mund t\u00eb rezistoja p\u00ebrpara syve t\u00eb Hyjit q\u00eb un\u00eb e kam mohuar. Nuk m\u00eb mbetej ve\u00e7se nj\u00eb gj\u00eb: ikja. Si Kaini iku nga kufoma e Abelit, k\u00ebshtu shpirti im u shty nga ai shikim tmerri. <\/p>\n

Ky qe gjykimi i ve\u00e7ant\u00eb: Gjykat\u00ebsi i paduksh\u00ebm m\u00eb tha: \u00abShporru prej meje!\u00bb.
\nAt\u00ebher\u00eb, shpirti im, si nj\u00eb hije e verdh\u00eb squfuri, u rrokullis n\u00eb vendin e mundimit t\u00eb p\u00ebrjetsh\u00ebm\u2026<\/p>\n

P\u00ebrfundon Klara<\/strong>: <\/p>\n

N\u00eb m\u00ebngjes, sapo ran\u00eb kambanat p\u00ebr lutjen e Engj\u00ebllit t\u00eb Zotit, akoma krejt duke u dridhur p\u00ebr nat\u00ebn e frikshme, u ngrita dhe vrapova n\u00ebp\u00ebr shkall\u00ebt e kapel\u00ebs.<\/p>\n

Zemra m\u00eb vlonte deri n\u00eb fyt. Mikeshat e pakta, t\u00eb gjunj\u00ebzuara af\u00ebr meje, m\u00eb shikuan; por ndoshta menduan se isha kaq e ngritur pesh\u00eb p\u00ebr vrapin q\u00eb kisha b\u00ebr\u00eb n\u00ebp\u00ebr shkall\u00eb. <\/p>\n

Nj\u00eb zonj\u00eb e mir\u00eb nga Budapesti, q\u00eb m\u00eb kishte v\u00ebzhguar, m\u00eb tha pastaj duke buz\u00ebqeshur:
\n– Zonjush\u00eb, Zotit duhet t\u2019i sh\u00ebrbejm\u00eb me durim, jo me vrap! <\/p>\n

Por e vuri re se di\u00e7ka tjet\u00ebr ma kishte ngritur shpirtin pesh\u00eb dhe m\u00eb mbante akoma t\u00eb trazuar. Dhe, nd\u00ebrsa zonja m\u00eb drejtonte fjal\u00eb t\u00eb tjera t\u00eb mira, un\u00eb mendoja: Vet\u00ebm Hyji m\u00eb mjafton! <\/p>\n

Po, vet\u00ebm Ai duhet t\u00eb m\u00eb mjaftoj\u00eb n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb jet\u00eb dhe n\u00eb jet\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr. Dua ta g\u00ebzoj nj\u00eb dit\u00eb n\u00eb Parajs\u00eb, sado q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00eb duhet t\u00eb sakrifikoj mbi tok\u00eb. Nuk dua t\u00eb shkoj n\u00eb Ferr! <\/p>\n

Sh\u00ebnim<\/strong>: – Lind spontanisht nj\u00eb pyetje: Si do t\u00eb ket\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb Klara t\u00eb kujtoj\u00eb me kaq sakt\u00ebsi t\u00eb gjitha fjal\u00ebt e shoqes q\u00eb ka p\u00ebrfunduar n\u00eb Ferr? \u2013 <\/p>\n

Mund t\u00eb p\u00ebrgjigjemi se \u00abkush b\u00ebn tenxheren, b\u00ebn edhe kapakun<\/em>\u00bb; kush fillon nj\u00eb vep\u00ebr, e plot\u00ebson. N\u00ebse manifestimi p\u00ebrtej varrit \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb fakt i mbinatyrsh\u00ebm, Klara do t\u00eb ket\u00eb qen\u00eb ndihmuar n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb mbinatyrshme n\u00eb shtrirjen me sakt\u00ebsi t\u00eb \u00e7do fjale t\u00eb vizionit. <\/p>\n

ME MIRATIM KISHTAR<\/strong>
\nE Vicariatu Urbis, die 9 aprilis 1952 <\/em><\/p>\n

Aloysius Traglia
\nArchiep. Caesarien Vicesgerens<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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