{"id":67358,"date":"2021-04-24T00:14:39","date_gmt":"2021-04-23T23:14:39","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/fjala.info\/?p=67358"},"modified":"2021-04-24T06:28:14","modified_gmt":"2021-04-24T05:28:14","slug":"perpelitje-per-ta-zene-dramen-e-femijerise","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jehonashqiptare.al\/fjala\/perpelitje-per-ta-zene-dramen-e-femijerise\/","title":{"rendered":"P\u00cbRP\u00cbLITJE P\u00cbR TA Z\u00cbN\u00cb\u00a0DRAM\u00cbN E F\u00cbMIJ\u00cbRIS\u00cb"},"content":{"rendered":"

Nj\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb q\u00eb buz\u00ebqesh\u00eb, me gjuh\u00ebn pak t\u00eb nxjerrur p\u00ebrjashta, si \u00e7do f\u00ebmij\u00eb…<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

Brahim Ibish AVDYLI<\/strong>:<\/p>\n

(novel\u00eb)<\/em><\/p>\n

1). P\u00ebrp\u00eblitja e par\u00eb: udh\u00ebtime p\u00ebrtej dhembjes<\/strong><\/p>\n

Secilit na ka ndodhur q\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrplasemi me p\u00ebrfytyrimet e para t\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebris\u00eb apo t\u00eb p\u00ebrpiqemi q\u00eb ta l\u00ebjm\u00eb koh\u00ebn e tanishme e t\u00eb shikojm\u00eb koh\u00ebt e l\u00ebna pas dore, sepse jan\u00eb t\u00eb siguruara n\u00eb brendin\u00eb ton\u00eb dhe i kemi mbuluar me pluhurin e r\u00ebnd\u00eb t\u00eb kujtes\u00ebs. Do t\u00eb p\u00ebrpiqemi prore q\u00eb t\u00eb shkudim harres\u00ebn e kujtes\u00ebs, t\u00eb shohim veten ton\u00eb si f\u00ebmij\u00eb, n\u00eb mesin e ngjyrave t\u00eb nj\u00eb kohe.<\/p>\n

Kjo koh\u00eb, ka ikur! Nuk jemi m\u00eb n\u00eb nj\u00eb moment t\u00eb jet\u00ebs s\u00eb at\u00ebhershme. Edhe n\u00ebse kthehemi, nuk kthehemi pa ngjyrat e koh\u00ebs son\u00eb, pa ngarkimet e viteve, pa dhembjen e p\u00ebrgjakimeve, pa p\u00ebrpjekjet e at\u00ebhershme, q\u00eb t\u00eb kapin fillin e p\u00ebshtjelluar n\u00eb dor\u00ebn e f\u00ebmiut, q\u00eb nuk e di mir\u00ebfilli \u00e7far\u00eb ka z\u00ebn\u00eb me dor\u00eb, \u00e7far\u00eb duhet t\u00eb ngehet lart\u00eb e \u00e7far\u00eb duhet l\u00ebshuar p\u00ebr dh\u00e9. Po e zgjedhe gabim at\u00ebher\u00eb, do t\u00eb shkojn\u00eb katrahurat e jet\u00ebs sate n\u00eb at\u00eb drejtim.<\/p>\n

T\u00eb dhemb n\u00eb shpirt kjo ndjenj\u00eb e tanishme p\u00ebr at\u00eb koh\u00eb. T\u00eb tjera jan\u00eb k\u00ebto gj\u00ebra sot, e t\u00eb tjera kan\u00eb qen\u00eb n\u00eb fillim t\u00eb viteve. Sado e ve\u00e7ant\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb jet\u00eb kjo gj\u00eb; sado e pap\u00ebrs\u00ebritshme q\u00eb t\u00eb jet\u00eb p\u00ebrpjekja jon\u00eb p\u00ebr ta z\u00ebn\u00eb p\u00ebrfytyrimin e k\u00ebsaj kohe, po e them se \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb dhembje e pa shpjeguar…<\/p>\n

Ne, m\u00ebsojm\u00eb t\u00eb ecim n\u00eb tok\u00eb me dy k\u00ebmb\u00eb. Na ka rastisur fati t\u00eb lindim n\u00eb nj\u00eb moment t\u00eb caktuar, n\u00eb nj\u00eb ambient t\u00eb caktuar, me njer\u00ebz t\u00eb caktuar, n\u00eb nj\u00eb shoq\u00ebri t\u00eb caktuar e nj\u00eb komb q\u00eb e flet gjuh\u00ebn e popullit t\u00eb vet.<\/p>\n

Para se t\u00eb shohim nj\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb, pra veten ton\u00eb, me ngjyrat e koh\u00ebs son\u00eb, nuk kemi se si t\u00eb pajtohemi. Po ta pyesish veten, me vet\u00ebdijen t\u00ebnde t\u00eb sotme, do t\u00eb kishe b\u00ebr\u00eb prova, po t\u00eb ishte n\u00eb dor\u00ebn t\u00ebnde, q\u00eb ta pastroje terrenin nga qeniet t\u00eb cilat duken njer\u00ebz, por q\u00eb nuk e meritojn\u00eb aspak k\u00ebt\u00eb em\u00ebr, sepse, si\u00e7 do t\u00eb duken ty, me syrin e koh\u00ebs tjet\u00ebr, do t`i zhb\u00ebje! T\u00eb mundur\u00ebn do ta b\u00ebje t\u00eb pamundur, e t\u00eb pamundshmen do ta b\u00ebje t\u00eb mundur. As koha nuk nd\u00ebrrohet, as qeniet q\u00eb t\u00eb rrethojn\u00eb nuk nd\u00ebrrohen, as fati i pa fat nuk nd\u00ebrrohet, sepse, do t\u00eb jesh vet\u00ebm i sprovuar, n\u00eb nj\u00eb \u00e7\u00ebshtje, q\u00eb thirret jet\u00eb, por q\u00eb nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb jet\u00eb, sepse mund\u00ebsit\u00eb tuaja jan\u00eb t\u00eb padryshueshme.<\/p>\n

P\u00ebrpjekja e jote p\u00ebr ta ndryshuar \u00ebsht\u00eb e kot\u00eb, sepse \u00ebsht\u00eb p\u00ebrpjekje vet\u00ebm brenda konturave t\u00eb nj\u00eb drejtimi t\u00eb caktuar, pik\u00ebrisht si\u00e7 e kan\u00eb dh\u00ebn\u00eb t\u00eb gjith\u00ebfuqishmit, jasht\u00eb teje e jasht\u00eb konturave t\u00eb ekzistenc\u00ebs sate, n\u00eb nj\u00eb drejtim t\u00eb dh\u00ebn\u00eb. Ti m\u00ebson t\u00eb ec\u00ebsh brenda konturave tuaja, si\u00e7 e ke fatin, dhe k\u00ebto gj\u00ebra nuk mund t`i ndryshosh, por fatin individual dhe kolektiv t\u00eb nj\u00eb kolektiviteti, do t\u00eb b\u00ebsh prova q\u00eb ta p\u00ebrmir\u00ebsosh…<\/p>\n

\"\"Nj\u00eb piktur\u00eb magjike e skanuar p\u00ebr \u00e7do rast t\u00eb nevojsh\u00ebm…<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

Nejse! K\u00ebto, po i l\u00ebm\u00eb m\u00ebnjan\u00eb. Para syve m\u00eb del nj\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb, q\u00eb i ngjan\u00eb ngapak secilit f\u00ebmij\u00eb. Duket sikur \u00e7do njeri vrapon q\u00eb ta p\u00ebrvet\u00ebsoj\u00eb, armik e mik, sepse secili mendon se ai \u00ebsht\u00eb. \u00cbsht\u00eb pamje q\u00eb e kemi par\u00eb me syt\u00eb tan\u00eb. Po t\u00eb kishim syt\u00eb e mendjes s\u00eb sotshme, ndryshe do ta kishim p\u00ebr ta par\u00eb. Nuk e dim\u00eb se njeriu nd\u00ebrron ngjyrat, n\u00ebp\u00ebr pollaroid. Pra, t\u00eb kishim mund\u00ebsi q\u00eb t\u00eb shk\u00ebputnim syt\u00eb nga vetja e t`i japim nga dija e p\u00ebrgjithshme e k\u00ebsaj jete edhe diapazonin e jet\u00ebs tjet\u00ebr, pra t\u00eb jet\u00ebs paralele, d.m.th. q\u00eb je ende i gjall\u00eb n\u00eb bot\u00eb, do t`i shikoje qeniet vet\u00ebm me ngjyra. Nga k\u00ebto ngjyra, ngjyrat e mbyllta e deri n\u00eb t\u00eb zez\u00ebn-fut\u00eb, si nata e err\u00ebt-pa drit\u00eb, lidhen me tok\u00ebn. Ngjyrat m\u00eb t\u00eb ndritshme e deri n\u00eb drit\u00ebn e diellit, jan\u00eb drita t\u00eb dijes, deri te e gjith\u00ebdijshmja apo e p\u00ebrjetshmja. Ato lidhen me qiejt e pa skaj…<\/p>\n

Ajo q\u00eb nuk e kemi par\u00eb asnj\u00ebher\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb pik\u00ebrisht pamja e jon\u00eb e par\u00eb. Sa m\u00eb me d\u00ebshir\u00eb e kishim par\u00eb veten me ata sy.<\/p>\n

Pa marr\u00eb parasysh a do t\u00eb kishim qeshur me te apo do t\u00eb kishim qar\u00eb me te; do t\u00eb kishim britur pa pushim, ose do t\u00eb kishim q\u00ebndruar t\u00eb heshtur, t\u00eb urt\u00eb apo kurreshtar, p\u00ebrpara t\u00eb gjitha \u00e7udirave q\u00eb do t\u00eb ma ndodhnin p\u00ebrball\u00eb; prap n\u00eb shpirt do t\u00eb kishim ndjer\u00eb nj\u00eb dashuri t\u00eb pap\u00ebrshkruar; nj\u00eb mall p\u00ebr ta z\u00ebn\u00eb me duar e p\u00ebr t`i folur urt\u00ebsisht:<\/p>\n

\u201cO \u00e7un i dashur, o shpirt, o xhan, jam un\u00eb m\u00eb i madh! U ktheva, vet\u00ebm nj\u00ebher\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00eb dua, t\u00eb t\u00eb shikoj, t\u00eb t\u00eb ndjej, t\u00eb t\u00eb prek pak me dor\u00eb!…\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00cbsht\u00eb nj\u00eb dhembje e thell\u00eb fakti q\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb nuk mund ta b\u00ebjm\u00eb, ose m\u00eb mir\u00eb t\u00eb themi se k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb nuk mund ta shohim, kurrsesi apo gjithmon\u00eb, sepse me koh\u00eb do t\u00eb kemi pasur mund\u00ebsit\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrmir\u00ebsojm\u00eb t\u00eb gjitha ato sjellje t\u00eb atij, q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb i yti, por nuk e ka k\u00ebt\u00eb p\u00ebrvoj\u00eb t\u00eb hidhur. Jan\u00eb sjellje, t\u00eb cilat t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt do t`i marrin n\u00ebp\u00ebr goj\u00eb, n\u00eb baz\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrvoj\u00ebs s\u00eb tyre apo t\u00eb pa p\u00ebrvoj\u00ebs s\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb n\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb. Qeniet flasin, kur mund t\u00eb flasin e nuk jan\u00eb pa t\u00eb folura. E folura e tyre nuk ka si t\u00eb shpjegohet. T\u00eb m\u00ebdhenjt\u00eb, i kan\u00eb shpjegimet e tyre. Varet nga e t\u00ebra, n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb spekt\u00ebr, nga marradh\u00ebnjet e tua me ta. E shumta, t\u00eb mbajn\u00eb n\u00eb mendje me pamjen tuaj t\u00eb par\u00eb, sipas ve\u00e7antive. Ti nuk e di si ke qen\u00eb edhe at\u00ebher\u00eb, ke patur tjet\u00ebr pamje, je dukur k\u00ebshtu e ashtu, tjet\u00ebr nga ajo q\u00eb e mendon. Duhet ndonj\u00eb fotografi, q\u00eb t\u00eb na bind\u00eb se ti ke qen\u00eb pik\u00ebrisht ashtu, si\u00e7 t\u00eb thon\u00eb t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt, e ty t\u00eb duket se nuk ke qen\u00eb ashtu, por k\u00ebshtu. Nuk e ke nj\u00eb vij\u00eb t\u00eb prer\u00eb!<\/p>\n

Edhe n\u00eb \u00e7astin e fotografimit t\u00eb jan\u00eb veshur rrobat ashtu si\u00e7 kan\u00eb mundur t\u00eb t\u00eb veshin, t\u00eb tuajt apo ata q\u00eb kan\u00eb qen\u00eb pran\u00eb teje. N\u00ebse nuk ke qen\u00eb i varf\u00ebr e prej t\u00eb atit, t\u00eb jan\u00eb veshur rrobet m\u00eb t\u00eb reja apo m\u00eb t\u00eb zgjedhura; apo jan\u00eb edhe t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve; t\u00eb jan\u00eb hequr gjurm\u00ebt e jet\u00ebs dhe jan\u00eb mbuluar ato. Mendoj se jan\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb p\u00ebrpjekje n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb drejtim, sepse \u00e7do ndryshim ti e v\u00ebren vet\u00eb me koh\u00eb: t\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb pastruar fytyra e jan\u00eb hequr qyrrat apo jarg\u00ebt, n\u00ebse i ke pasur; t\u00eb jan\u00eb rregulluar balluket n\u00eb ball\u00eb, e kjo \u00ebsht\u00eb prap\u00eb nj\u00eb rregullim i tyre nga t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt, e jo nga ti; t\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb v\u00ebn\u00eb kapota, kapela apo kapc\u00ebt n\u00eb rrobe, etj. Th\u00ebn\u00eb me nj\u00eb fjal\u00eb, \u00ebsht\u00eb p\u00ebrpjekja e t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve apo kush e di \u00e7ka \u00ebsht\u00eb ndryshuar p\u00ebr ty e rreth teje. Nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb pjes\u00eb e zakonshme e pamjes s\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, n\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb. Jan\u00eb nd\u00ebrrime t\u00eb gjendjes sipas t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve…<\/p>\n

\"\"Dy motrat e mia t\u00eb dashura – e vogla ka vdekur – e qe rritur shum\u00eb para vdekjes…<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

Po t\u00eb ishte gjall\u00eb n\u00ebna e jote e t\u00eb kishte th\u00ebn\u00eb \u00e7ka e kishe pyetur, sepse baba zakonisht \u00e7llohej n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi e fliste pak; apo motra e madhe, sepse edhe ajo \u00ebsht\u00eb e gjall\u00eb dhe po t\u00eb ishte pran\u00eb teje, e liruar prej gj\u00ebrave t\u00eb tjera, ose t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt, t\u00eb m\u00ebdhenjt\u00eb, n\u00ebse din\u00eb \u00e7ka do t\u00eb flisnin, do t\u00eb ishin p\u00ebrgjegjur…<\/p>\n

Megjithate, t\u00eb gjitha, asnj\u00ebri nuk i di!<\/p>\n

Ti, je vetvetja!…<\/p>\n

2). P\u00ebrp\u00eblitja e dyt\u00eb: n\u00eb mes qiellit e tok\u00ebs<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00c7ka t`u shkruaj k\u00ebsaj radhe?! T\u00eb gjall\u00eb ishim kat\u00ebr v\u00ebllez\u00ebr e pes\u00eb motra. E, kat\u00ebr motra ishin m\u00eb t\u00eb vogla. Secili e ka nga nj\u00eb shpirt t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb. N\u00eb pamje t\u00eb par\u00eb, ai q\u00eb rastis\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb vie n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb bot\u00eb nuk dihet mir\u00ebfilli se prej ku e ka prejardhjen. Un\u00eb po e them se trupi \u00ebsht\u00eb nga toka e shpirti \u00ebsht\u00eb enigm\u00eb. Po e them se t\u00eb \u201cvidhet\u201d<\/em> nga dikush dhe n\u00eb nj\u00eb periudh\u00eb t\u00eb caktuar. Kush e prodhon shpirtin?! Jo, askush. Madje, as fabrikat m\u00eb moderne sot nuk mund ta prodhojn\u00eb shpirtin. E them se ta jep Zoti i Madh…<\/p>\n

Dihet. U lind\u00ebm prej bab\u00ebs e n\u00ebn\u00ebs. Thuhet nga disa: kush vjen prej qiellit, i do t\u00eb gjith\u00eb; kush vjen nga toka, jan\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb ndar\u00eb. T\u00eb par\u00ebt, kan\u00eb ardhur prej parajs\u00ebs dhe kan\u00eb veti t\u00eb mira; p.sh. t\u00eb dashuris\u00eb p\u00ebr m\u00eb t\u00eb vegjlit; t\u00eb p\u00ebrkujdesjes; t\u00eb miradis\u00eb; t\u00eb dhembjes s\u00eb p\u00ebrgjithshme; pra thuhet se kan\u00eb veti polivalente. T\u00eb tjer\u00ebt, vin\u00eb prej n\u00ebntok\u00ebs, prej ferrit. I kan\u00eb t\u00eb gjitha ngjyrat m\u00eb t\u00eb padukshme, p\u00ebrkund\u00ebr disave q\u00eb rrjedhin prej qiellit, e q\u00eb kan\u00eb veti t\u00eb mira dhe ngjyra m\u00eb t\u00eb dukshme. Nuk dihet sa \u00ebsht\u00eb i sakt\u00eb ky p\u00ebrkufizim i yni. Njer\u00ebzit shtohen, duke l\u00ebn\u00eb pas vetes dikend. Ata, shtohen mbi tok\u00eb, e p\u00ebrkufizimet e tyre kan\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebjn\u00eb vet\u00ebm me shpirtin…<\/p>\n

N\u00eb fakt, prej f\u00ebmij\u00ebris\u00eb sime, kur isha i vog\u00ebl, e kisha d\u00ebshir\u00eb t\u00eb shikoja lart\u00eb, kur m\u00eb nxirrnin p\u00ebrjashta. M\u00eb mbanin p\u00ebrdore dy motrat e mia m\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebdha, e nj\u00ebra shkoi n\u00eb dh\u00e9 tjet\u00ebr, para kohe.<\/p>\n

Mall m\u00eb t\u00eb madh e kam pasur at\u00eb mot\u00ebr, sepse t\u00eb dy motrat p\u00ebrlaheshin qindra her\u00eb p\u00ebr mua. At\u00ebher\u00eb, nuk e kuptoja \u00e7ka do t\u00eb thoshte \u201cvdekja\u201d<\/em>, por ajo m\u00eb la vite me radh\u00eb plot me lot\u00eb. E lot\u00ebt m\u00eb rrjedhnin 6 vjet me radh\u00eb, edhe pse ishte pak idhnake, e nervozohej!…<\/p>\n

\"\"Udha e Qum\u00ebshtit n\u00eb Galaktik\u00eb – e fotografuar s\u00eb fundit…<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

Tani, nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb koha q\u00eb t\u00eb flasim p\u00ebr motr\u00ebn, por p\u00ebr qiellin. Po, qiell e quanin: ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb me re, t\u00eb shumt\u00ebn me diell. Ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb, me vet\u00ebtime t\u00eb fuqishme, e bubullim\u00eb aq t\u00eb madhe sa na dridhej toka, apo dridheshim vet\u00eb, nga frika e asaj bubullime. E tjera her\u00eb na l\u00ebshohej shiu mbi kok\u00eb e n\u00eb t\u00eb gjith\u00eb hap\u00ebsir\u00ebn, me qurka t\u00eb pak\u00ebputura, si t\u00eb ishte deti p\u00ebrmbi neve e po derdhej posht\u00eb, me currila t\u00eb pak\u00ebputur. Dikur vinte edhe dimri, me d\u00ebbor\u00eb t\u00eb madhe. Baba djersitej n\u00eb at\u00eb bardh\u00ebsi, q\u00eb na i merrte syt\u00eb, duke na qelur rr\u00eahen, me lopat\u00eb, rrug\u00ebn p\u00ebr t\u00eb ecur n\u00ebp\u00ebr d\u00ebbor\u00eb, ku duhet t\u00eb shkoj\u00eb m\u00ebma e t\u00eb m\u00ebdhenjt\u00eb, sepse t\u00eb vegjllit nuk kishin ku t\u00eb dalim n\u00eb shum\u00eb, se deri aty ku pat\u00ebn nevoj\u00eb t\u00eb shkonin: para bunarit, t\u00eb pastroheshim, e n\u00eb WC. At\u00ebher\u00eb ishim mbyllur dhe ishte shum\u00eb ftoh\u00eb. Pra, loznim brenda…<\/p>\n

Dy motrat m\u00eb kishin mua, si gj\u00ebn\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb shtrenjt\u00eb, t\u00eb ardhur nga qielli. I pyesja ato apo n\u00ebn\u00ebn time, p\u00ebr \u00e7do gj\u00eb q\u00eb e shihja dhe q\u00eb dija t`i pyesja. Ato lodheshim me pyetjet e mija, por nuk e thonin k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb n\u00eb \u00e7\u00ebshtjet e pyetjeve, sepse vet\u00ebm m\u00eb buz\u00ebqeshnin dhe m\u00eb p\u00ebrgjegjeshin, aq sa e dinin ato. Ishte di\u00e7ka e rrall\u00eb q\u00eb u kishte ardhur prej Zoti t\u00eb Madh n\u00eb familje; nj\u00eb dhunti p\u00ebr ta, dhurat\u00eb prej Zotit, q\u00eb duhej t\u00eb rritej e t\u00eb dinte sa m\u00eb shum\u00eb nga jeta.<\/p>\n

M\u00eb ruanin kudo, sepse ecja pa i pyetur ato. Kisha rreziqe t\u00eb m\u00ebdha, por nuk ua dija rreziqeve, sepse pa pritur e pa menduar, t\u00eb zhduknin!…<\/p>\n

Pra, po i nd\u00ebrpres k\u00ebto. E kthehen te motrat. Ato m`i b\u00ebn\u00eb nga flet\u00ebt e tyre fluturaket e letrave, aeroplanin e raket\u00ebn. Edhe un\u00eb ua b\u00ebj t\u00eb gjith\u00eb f\u00ebmijve, nipave e mbesave. \u00c7far\u00eb e kam m\u00ebsuar nga ato, i p\u00ebrcjellja te gjeneratat pas meje, pra edhe te v\u00ebllez\u00ebrit e mi, m\u00eb t\u00eb vegj\u00ebl. Gjithmon\u00eb ishin pran\u00eb meje e m\u00eb shikonin se \u00e7far\u00eb b\u00ebja. Mund t\u00eb b\u00ebnin m\u00eb mir\u00eb e m\u00eb shpejt\u00eb se sa un\u00eb. Madje, p\u00ebrlaheshin me nj\u00ebri tjetrin e mundohesha prore q\u00eb t`i ndaj.<\/p>\n

P\u00ebr shembull: dy kumbullat bordake ishin t\u00eb mbjellura para shtall\u00ebs s\u00eb bag\u00ebtis\u00eb son\u00eb: nj\u00ebra ishte e bardh\u00eb, pra e gjelb\u00ebrt n\u00eb verdh\u00eb apo e verdh\u00eb n\u00eb t\u00eb gjelb\u00ebrt; e dyta, ishte e kalt\u00ebrt, si kumbullat, por shum\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebdha. Ato piqeshin n\u00eb ver\u00eb dhe ishin pak m\u00eb vogla se mollat. Ndoshta terreni ua kishte kusht\u00ebzuar dy kumbullave q\u00eb t\u00eb rriteshin dhe t\u00eb b\u00ebnin frute aq t\u00eb m\u00ebdha. N\u00ebna e fshinte edhe at\u00eb pjes\u00eb, si oborr, sado q\u00eb nuk na lejonte shum\u00eb t\u00eb luanim para pojat\u00ebs e mbi pojat\u00eb, sepse i shihte ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb bolla e gjarp\u00ebrinj mbi k\u00ebt\u00eb shtall\u00eb t\u00eb mbaruar si me gardh t\u00eb trash\u00eb e t\u00eb mbulluar me denga, por t\u00eb rrethuar poashtu me denga. Mbrenda ishte shum\u00eb e nxeht\u00eb, edhe kur ishte ftoht\u00eb p\u00ebrjashta. Shpesh her\u00eb shiheshin gjarp\u00ebrinjt e bollat, duke shkuar n\u00ebp\u00ebr pojat\u00eb rrambull mbi nj\u00ebri-tjetrin. Nejse! Ne, frigoheshim prej tyre. Por, tani nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb koha p\u00ebr k\u00ebto gj\u00ebra! Do t`u tregoj m\u00eb von\u00eb se si u djeg pojata nga rrufeja dhe bashk\u00eb me te shkuan edhe disa nga lop\u00ebt tona…<\/p>\n

\"\"Aurora n\u00eb polin verior – e quajtur Borealis…<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

Po kthehem te dy v\u00ebllez\u00ebrit, pas meje. Ata vraponin prej shtroj\u00ebs s\u00eb tyre, pa u pastruar, me nga nj\u00eb krahoshe t\u00eb pa vendosur n\u00eb vend e zhag p\u00ebr tok\u00eb dhe arrinin para meje. Shkonin e p\u00ebrplaseshin n\u00eb nj\u00eb kumbull kok\u00eb m\u00eb kok\u00eb, kah kishin kaluar n\u00eb mbr\u00ebmje lop\u00ebt tona, t\u00eb cilat jan\u00eb futur n\u00eb shtall\u00eb. Toka kishte plot me pluhur e dh\u00e9, e cila vazhdonte prej andej, deri jasht\u00eb dyrve t\u00eb oborrit dhe nuk ishte e shtuar, por tok\u00eb e fort\u00eb. Kumbullat q\u00eb piknin \u00e7aheshin e p\u00ebrziheshin pak me dh\u00e9 e ndonj\u00eb bag\u00ebl. Ndonj\u00ebra pikte mbi bar. Vrapoja pas tyre, duke i lutur q\u00eb t\u00eb zgjedhin nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr, m\u00eb p\u00ebrpara, pa dh\u00e9 e pa bag\u00ebl dhe t\u00eb pastrohen q\u00eb m\u00eb par\u00eb, se sa t\u00eb kacafyteshin me nj\u00ebri-tjetrin. I f\u00ebrkonin pak kumbullat bordake p\u00ebr tesha t\u00eb vetat dhe ashtu i kafshonin.<\/p>\n

A tregon kjo gj\u00eb di\u00e7ka t\u00eb pamenduar?! A e thot\u00eb ndonj\u00eb gj\u00eb se prej cil\u00ebs sfer\u00eb kishin dalur n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb jet\u00eb?! Un\u00eb, isha i lidhur me fluturaket, me qiellin, hap\u00ebsir\u00ebn; por ata qen\u00eb t\u00eb lidhur me pun\u00ebn dhe me tok\u00ebn. Kjo tregonte q\u00eb n\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebri, me \u00e7ka ishin t\u00eb lidhur, me jet\u00ebn n\u00eb tok\u00eb; nd\u00ebrsa un\u00eb qesh\u00eb m\u00eb tep\u00ebr i lidhur me jet\u00ebn e larg\u00ebt, n\u00eb hap\u00ebsir\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Ta marrim tok\u00ebn: toka ishte e ndar\u00eb me megje, prej fshatit n\u00eb nj\u00eb fshat tjet\u00ebr, prej regjionit n\u00eb nj\u00eb regjion tjet\u00ebr, prej krahin\u00ebs n\u00eb nj\u00eb krahin\u00eb tjet\u00ebr, prej shtetit n\u00eb nj\u00eb shtet tjet\u00ebr. Nd\u00ebrsa qielli ishte i pa skaj! Karakteristikat e njer\u00ebzve dallonin shum\u00eb me kufij apo pa kufij…<\/p>\n

Gjithsesi, kisha d\u00ebshir\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb fluturuar sa m\u00eb lart\u00eb, sa m\u00eb larg\u00eb, si me raket\u00eb, e t\u00eb cilat i b\u00ebja vet\u00eb, fillimisht me let\u00ebr; si fluturakja e par\u00eb prej yjeve; t\u00eb arrija deri n\u00eb paskaj, p\u00ebrtej diellit. At\u00ebher\u00eb, nuk e dija rrug\u00ebn nga kam ardhur n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb jet\u00eb, sepse et\u00ebrit e mi e gjysh\u00ebt i kisha n\u00eb tok\u00eb e me tok\u00ebn t\u00eb lidhur. Toka e jon\u00eb ishte ishte m\u00eb e dashur, m\u00eb e shtrenjta, q\u00eb t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt b\u00ebnin \u00e7mos p\u00ebr t\u00eb na e grabitur, por e kisha p\u00ebrshtypjen e t\u00eb paarritshmes n\u00eb jet\u00eb nga jeta e p\u00ebrtejme. Nuk e di si quhet me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb ajo jet\u00eb. Religjionet i kan\u00eb shpjegimet e tyre. Por, p\u00ebr disa, jan\u00eb t\u00eb thata e abstrakte. Nuk d\u00ebp\u00ebrtoje aq leht\u00eb nga jeta e p\u00ebrkohshme n\u00eb jet\u00ebn e p\u00ebrgjithshme t\u00eb shpirtave.<\/p>\n

\"\"Mali i p\u00ebrzier me pisha dhe maja e bjeshk\u00ebve t\u00eb Shkezenit…<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

Nejse! Kush e dinte si duhet t\u00eb kaloje \u201cp\u00ebrtej\u201d<\/em>, pa vdekur, apo n\u00ebp\u00ebr mur. Ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb, k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb e merrnim me mend prej Bab\u00ebs Uk\u00eb, i cili na vizitonte shpesh, por k\u00ebto i kishim vet\u00ebm me \u201ct\u00eb th\u00ebnura\u201d<\/em>, e jo me p\u00ebrjetime. Pran\u00eb tij mblidheshim e q\u00ebndronim, por pak e njihim at\u00ebher\u00eb metafizik\u00ebn. Ishte nj\u00eb bot\u00eb tjet\u00ebr e nuk na shpjegohej me fjal\u00eb…<\/p>\n

Thuhej se ai d\u00ebp\u00ebrtonte murin e trash\u00eb t\u00eb gurit e kalonte n\u00ebp\u00ebr te n\u00eb an\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr; fluturonte p\u00ebrtej galaktikave, duke e l\u00ebn\u00eb trupin n\u00eb siguri, n\u00eb tok\u00eb, por njer\u00ebzit nuk i kuptonin k\u00ebto gj\u00ebra t\u00eb rralla t\u00eb fluturimeve. P.sh. tregonte se si e kishte nxjerrur prej burgut n\u00eb Idrizov\u00eb, shqiptarin e d\u00ebnuar pa t\u00eb drejt\u00eb, dhe e kishte d\u00ebrguar n\u00eb Gjermani, ku i d\u00ebnuari kishte folur vet, p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb rast t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb. Ai ishte prej an\u00ebs son\u00eb. Pra, k\u00ebtu kishte nj\u00ebfar\u00eb metafizike, t\u00eb cil\u00ebn aspak nuk e kuptonim. \u00c7\u00ebshtja e p\u00ebrgjithshme komb\u00ebtare shqiptare, ishte katandisur, si mos m\u00eb keq! Trupi i kombit ishte sakatuar!…<\/p>\n

At\u00ebher\u00eb, nuk i kuptoja k\u00ebto gj\u00ebra t\u00eb rralla. M\u00eb interesonin gj\u00ebra t\u00eb tjera, p\u00ebr t\u00eb cilat b\u00ebja pyetje. P.sh. \u00e7ka \u00ebsht\u00eb vdekja, e pyetja n\u00ebn\u00ebn time. Ajo, pak nga pak ma shpupuriste. Asnj\u00ebher\u00eb, nuk ma thoshte t\u00eb nj\u00ebjten gj\u00eb!<\/p>\n

Ishin pyetje t\u00eb pakapshme, t\u00eb jet\u00ebs e vdekjes, p\u00ebrtej e \u00e7do gj\u00ebje, t\u00eb daljes nga kjo bot\u00eb, apo, si\u00e7 i thon\u00eb, \u201ct\u00eb fluturimit n\u00ebp\u00ebr qiell\u201d<\/em>. T\u00eb gjitha gjallesat e gjalla fluturonin vet\u00eb apo l\u00ebviznin n\u00ebp\u00ebr bot\u00eb. Kur \u201ct\u00eb fluturoj\u201d<\/em> un\u00eb n\u00ebp\u00ebr qiell, pa trup, do ta merrni vesh edhe ju!…<\/p>\n

Nj\u00ebher\u00eb, jam n\u00eb jet\u00eb dhe po e p\u00ebrjetoj…<\/p>\n

3). P\u00ebrp\u00ebllitja e tret\u00eb: p\u00ebrpjekja p\u00ebr t`u larguar nga toka.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Nj\u00eb veti e pashpjeguar m\u00eb ka mbetur kaher\u00eb. T\u00eb ngritem lart\u00eb n\u00eb male, t\u00eb ngritem n\u00ebp\u00ebr lisa, madje sa m\u00eb lart\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb mundja t\u00eb largohem prej tok\u00ebs, \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb veti e ve\u00e7ant\u00eb. P\u00ebrpjekja ime ishte p\u00ebr t`u larguar nga toka, drejt qiellit. Nuk do mend se shpirti do t\u00eb m\u00eb ngrehte lart\u00eb, te yjet…<\/p>\n

\"\"F\u00ebmij\u00ebt e vizatuar me dram\u00ebn e tyre f\u00ebmij\u00ebrore…<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

Isha f\u00ebmij\u00eb. Nuk e dija si shpjegohet kjo etje e mbetur peng. A ishte para lindjes sime apo menj\u00ebher\u00eb pas saj. Divergjenca n\u00eb mes t\u00eb shpirtit, t\u00eb ardhur nga lart\u00eb dhe e trupit t\u00eb lindur nga n\u00ebna, n\u00eb tok\u00eb, p\u00ebrvidhet pa e kuptuar dhe pa e njohur. E dinim se shpirti ishte fryma e brendshme, q\u00eb na kishte l\u00ebn\u00eb t\u00eb gjall\u00eb, pra ishim gjall\u00eb n\u00eb baz\u00eb t\u00eb frym\u00ebs. Aspak nuk e dinim se \u00e7ka \u00ebsht\u00eb shpirti. Aq m\u00eb pak e dinim \u00e7far\u00eb roli e ka ai n\u00eb kujtes\u00ebn ton\u00eb dhe n\u00eb vet trurin e qenies son\u00eb. Truri jon\u00eb nuk ishte i plot\u00eb pa qenien, e kujtesa ishte pak nga truri i jon\u00eb. Kujtesa kishte t\u00eb b\u00ebj\u00eb n\u00eb vij\u00ebn jet\u00ebsore q\u00eb do t\u00eb p\u00ebrmblidhej n\u00eb vet\u00ebdijen ton\u00eb, e nd\u00ebrdija ishte shum\u00eb m\u00eb e madhe, pastaj vinte nj\u00eb pjes\u00eb e trurit, q\u00eb i themi se \u00ebsht\u00eb \u201ctruri qendror\u201d<\/em>, i cili sjell\u00eb fuksione t\u00eb qenies son\u00eb, p\u00ebr t\u00eb cilat nuk i dinim se ato lidhen edhe me shpirtin.<\/p>\n

E \u00e7ka \u00ebsht\u00eb shpirti, p\u00ebrpos frym\u00ebmarrjes; mbetjes apo t\u00eb mbajtjes gjall\u00eb?! \u00cbsht\u00eb e v\u00ebshtir\u00eb p\u00ebr ta shpjeguar! As sot e k\u00ebsaj dite nuk e dim\u00eb te njeriu si t`i lidhin trupin, trurin, zemr\u00ebn, qenien, shpirtin, shqisat, ndjenjat, e t\u00eb tjera, n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb p\u00ebrmbajtje e n\u00eb shum\u00eb kuptime.<\/p>\n

Aq m\u00eb tep\u00ebr, at\u00ebher\u00eb, nuk e dija k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb. Jo, jo! Nuk jam \u201cgjeni\u201d<\/em>, por njeri! Kjo \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb \u00e7\u00ebshtje ende e pa p\u00ebrfunduar…<\/p>\n

Thon\u00eb se Kina ka b\u00ebr\u00eb prova t\u00eb prodhoj\u00eb njeriun n\u00eb fabrika dhe ka arriur t\u00eb b\u00ebj\u00eb shum\u00ebfishin e nj\u00eb njeriu t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb, me multifikimin e tij. Por kjo \u00ebsht\u00eb prov\u00eb dhe prova i ka d\u00ebshtimet e veta. Nj\u00ebriu \u00ebsht\u00eb qenie polivalente dhe polivalenca e tij \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb kompleks i pafund…<\/p>\n

Isha f\u00ebmij\u00eb fshatar dhe n\u00eb Mal\u00ebsi, larg nga qyteti. I ruaja heret bag\u00ebtin\u00eb. T\u00eb shumt\u00ebn i l\u00ebshonin n\u00eb Rudavina e deri n\u00eb bok\u00eb. I ruanin nga livadhet e Hysen Dervish\u00ebve dhe duhet q\u00eb t`u rrinim p\u00ebrpara, pastaj edhe n\u00eb bok\u00eb e lart\u00eb, t`i ruajm\u00eb nga kufiri, e t`i kthenim teposht\u00eb. Kur t\u00eb na ikte ndonj\u00eb lop\u00eb dhe kalonte kufirin, sikur na mbyste babai, se lop\u00ebt ishin bler\u00eb me mund, p\u00ebr t\u00eb na rritur neve, f\u00ebmij\u00ebve t\u00eb vet. Pastaj, nuk e dinim a kthehej m\u00eb, a e hanin ujq\u00ebrit, apo e prenin n\u00eb kufi apo p\u00ebrtej kufirit, t\u00eb cilat nuk i njihnim.<\/p>\n

Me nj\u00eb fjal\u00eb, i ruanim lop\u00ebt nga livadhet e huaja, t\u00eb mos k\u00ebrcenin gardhet e livadheve; i ruanin nga humbja; nuk largoheshim prej tyre dhe nuk isha i vet\u00ebm, por dy veta: un\u00eb dhe v\u00ebllai im m\u00eb i vog\u00ebl, i dyti.<\/p>\n

\"\"Kuk\u00ebl e zez\u00eb – me duar t\u00eb hapura e kthetra – p\u00ebr frig\u00eb…<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

Kur i futnim lop\u00ebt tona n\u00eb Rudavina, nj\u00ebri i ruante q\u00eb t\u00eb mos shkonin drejt drumit t\u00eb rrug\u00ebs kah Molliqi e vau i p\u00ebrroit; tjetri i ruante nga livadhet e Hysen Dervish\u00ebve. I kthenim ngadal\u00eb, p\u00ebrpjet\u00eb maleve, duke i ruajtur nga kthesat e maleve, te rruga e sht\u00ebpive t\u00eb Hysen Dervish\u00ebve, nga ana e maleve.<\/p>\n

Kjo gj\u00eb na merrte mjaft koh\u00eb. Po e them se i kishim gati dy or\u00eb t\u00eb ushqimit t\u00eb lop\u00ebve tona, n\u00ebp\u00ebr k\u00ebto male. Dikur, ngriteshin kah boka, e kur i kthenim, ishte b\u00ebr\u00eb nxeht\u00eb dhe i kishte z\u00ebn\u00eb zhegu i madh, murjelat e mizat e lop\u00ebve…<\/p>\n

Zakonisht, meq\u00eb isha m\u00eb i madh, e zgjedhja malin, nd\u00ebrsa v\u00ebllai i dyt\u00eb, m\u00eb i vog\u00ebl, i ruante nga drumi i rrug\u00ebs s\u00eb Molliqit dhe vau i p\u00ebrroit, p\u00ebr vad\u00eb. Ai ishte n\u00eb breg rruge. Un\u00eb, n\u00eb male. Lop\u00ebt i kishin p\u00ebrpara, n\u00eb kullos\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Her\u00eb her\u00eb nd\u00ebgjoheshin me fjal\u00eb, sepse t\u00eb rrinim vetmas kjo gj\u00eb nuk b\u00ebhej. Lopet ktheheshin p\u00ebrpjet\u00eb. Kur ktheheshin, edhe ne bashkoheshim. Nuk mund t\u00eb rrinim t\u00eb ndar\u00eb nga nj\u00ebri-tjetri, pa frig\u00eb, e t\u00eb luanim s\u00eb bashku…<\/p>\n

Atje, posht\u00eb, kishte shum\u00eb plepa t\u00eb bardh\u00eb. Por nuk i kishim te seqi i jon\u00eb i Sheravin\u00ebs. Te seqi jon\u00eb i Sheravin\u00ebs ishin t\u00eb gjat\u00eb e p\u00ebrpjet\u00eb, me deg\u00eb t\u00eb vogla e p\u00ebrpjet\u00eb. Trungu i plepit ishte m\u00eb i madh dhe deg\u00ebt ia fillonin pak m\u00eb lart\u00eb. Ne, qem\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb. Nuk i mb\u00ebrrinin deg\u00ebt dot pa shkall\u00eb, po t\u00eb na lejonte dikush! N\u00eb kujtes\u00eb i kishin k\u00ebta plepa. Deg\u00ebt i kan\u00eb t\u00eb vogla. Natyrisht, nuk i mbanin as f\u00ebmij\u00ebt! Deg\u00ebt i kishin t\u00eb brishta. Edhe sot i dua plepat! N\u00eb male, ishin t\u00eb tjer\u00eb: t\u00eb ul\u00ebt, sa drunjt\u00eb n\u00eb male; m\u00eb t\u00eb bardh\u00eb nga ngjyra; me deg\u00eb t\u00eb hapura e t\u00eb rralla; me gjethe t\u00eb vogla, e m\u00eb t\u00eb rralla. K\u00ebta plepa t\u00eb malit, n\u00eb Rudavin\u00eb, m\u00eb ndjellnin me shpirt\u00eb, p\u00ebrpara fatkeq\u00ebsis\u00eb sime t\u00eb madhe…<\/p>\n

Po iu tregoj si m\u00eb ndodhi puna. Kacavirresha n\u00ebp\u00ebr ta, shpejt\u00eb e shpejt\u00eb, me k\u00ebng\u00eb n\u00eb goj\u00eb, deri te maja. Ngjitesha n\u00eb t\u00eb gjith\u00eb plepat e drunjt\u00eb e malit dhe nuk e dija k\u00ebt\u00eb prirje apo shtytje t\u00eb di\u00e7kaje nga uni, t\u00eb shkoja m\u00eb lart\u00eb. Plepat e bardh\u00eb t\u00eb Rudavinave ishin m\u00eb t\u00eb leht\u00eb p\u00ebr ngritje n\u00ebp\u00ebr ta, sepse deg\u00ebt i kishin si shkall\u00ebt. Edhe e bardha e tyre i simbolizonte p\u00ebllumbat, q\u00eb i mbanim n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi dhe i ushqente t\u00eb shumt\u00ebn n\u00ebna e jon\u00eb apo motrat. M\u00eb kujtohen kurdoher\u00eb \u201cgugut\u00eb\u201d <\/em>e tyre. D\u00ebshiroja t\u00eb fluturoja lart\u00eb, si ata, dhe t\u00eb kthehem gjithnj\u00eb n\u00eb dritare. M\u00eb p\u00ebrcillte me sy, n\u00ebp\u00ebr deg\u00eb, deri n\u00eb maje, v\u00ebllai im i dyt\u00eb. Natyrisht, f\u00ebmij\u00ebt nuk i dinim dob\u00ebsit e k\u00ebtyre drunj\u00ebve. Ata qen\u00eb plepa, e jo t\u00eb tjer\u00eb. E plepi thehej shum\u00eb leht\u00eb, krap-krrup. Sa hap e mbyll syt\u00eb, ai thehej! K\u00ebt\u00eb dob\u00ebsi, nuk e dija m\u00eb par\u00eb…<\/p>\n

\"\"Kulshedra me krah\u00eb – q\u00eb fluturon. Per\u00ebndimor\u00ebt e quajn\u00eb gabimisht at\u00eb Dragon…<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

V\u00ebllau tregonte edhe n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, se t\u00ebr\u00eb koh\u00ebn e kaloja n\u00ebp\u00ebr drunj. Hipja shum\u00eb lart\u00eb. Ai frigohej \u00e7do dit\u00eb se do t\u00eb rr\u00ebzohesha. Ishte i m\u00ebrzitur! M\u00eb p\u00ebrcillte sa i vija k\u00ebmb\u00ebt e mija n\u00ebp\u00ebr deg\u00eb, nga toka, me zemr\u00ebn e ngrir\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Kishte frig\u00eb se po rr\u00ebzohesha. Nganj\u00ebher\u00eb, ua lakoja majet me trupin tim dhe l\u00ebshohesha prej maj\u00ebs s\u00eb tyre p\u00ebrposhte prej duarve, pingull e n\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00eb t\u00eb mijat. Sa her\u00eb u tregonte v\u00ebllai n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi me lot\u00eb n\u00eb sy. Ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb, me rrihnin. Mos hyp n\u00ebp\u00ebr lisa, sepse \u00ebsht\u00eb rrezik! Mos u l\u00ebsho prej majes n\u00ebp\u00ebr deg\u00eb, sepse \u00ebsht\u00eb e pamundur t\u00eb shp\u00ebtosh nga deg\u00ebt! Toka t\u00eb pret me thyerje ose me vdekje! Mali \u00ebsht\u00eb larg\u00eb! A e di: ti nuk mund t\u00eb shp\u00ebtosh! \u00c7ka t`u ka dh\u00ebn\u00eb kjo pun\u00eb e mbytjes s\u00eb vetvetes apo e mbetjes sakat nga lisat?! E fute n\u00eb t\u00eb liga t\u00eb m\u00ebdha, edhe v\u00ebllain t\u00ebnd! E kush \u00ebsht\u00eb tjet\u00ebr pran\u00eb teje?! Kush \u00ebshte pran\u00eb jush?! Kush?! Sa kilometra jan\u00eb prej malit e deri te mjeku?!…<\/p>\n

P\u00ebrkund\u00ebr shuplakave n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, un\u00eb e vazhdoja timen, kur kishim koh\u00eb n\u00ebp\u00ebr male. I d\u00ebgjoja fjal\u00ebt me vaj t\u00eb v\u00ebllait tim, por ngjitesha me k\u00ebng\u00eb n\u00eb goj\u00eb deri te majet e drunj\u00ebve, q\u00eb t\u00eb mund t`i lakoja, sado t\u00eb lart\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb ishin. Mendoja se ata nuk qen\u00eb aq t\u00eb lart\u00eb e aq t\u00eb trash\u00eb, sepse nuk mund t`i lakoja kah toka. Plepi ishte m\u00eb i leht\u00eb t\u00eb lakohej, sado m\u00eb i trash\u00eb t\u00eb ishte. K\u00ebshtu e konsideroja me logjik\u00ebn e f\u00ebmiut. E kur ia lakoja majen kah toka, mbahesha me t\u00eb dy duart, larg\u00eb nga nj\u00ebra tjetra, n\u00eb pjes\u00ebn e majes s\u00eb tij.<\/p>\n

Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb, krap-krup u thye nga trupi i plepit maja dhe rash\u00eb me te n\u00ebp\u00ebr deg\u00eb, pa e l\u00ebshuar prej duarve, sado q\u00eb u p\u00ebrpalasa, e rash\u00eb pa thyer ndonj\u00eb gj\u00eb prej trupit n\u00ebp\u00ebr deg\u00eb. E kisha harruar q\u00eb ta l\u00ebshoja prej duar\u00ebve t\u00eb mia majen e madhe me deg\u00eb dhe ajo e kishte nj\u00eb deg\u00eb t\u00eb thyer nga bora, direkt me kok\u00ebn time. M\u00eb b\u00ebrtiti v\u00ebllau, l\u00ebshoje maj\u00ebn e plepit, por nuk ishte maja. Ishte gati sa gjysma e plepit t\u00eb eg\u00ebr. Nuk m\u00eb b\u00ebri p\u00ebrshtypje, sepse isha i alarmuar. Duart e mia ishin t\u00eb vogla p\u00ebr ta mbajtur at\u00eb pesh\u00eb t\u00eb madhe. Si mund t\u00eb mbahej lart\u00eb nga koka gati gjysm\u00ebn e plepit. Prandaj, nga pesha e r\u00ebnd\u00eb, ajo mu p\u00ebrplas mbi kok\u00eb. Thepi i deg\u00ebs s\u00eb thyer, ma shpoi kok\u00ebn e m\u00eb humbi edhe vet\u00ebdija. Kur u zgjova, e pash\u00eb se isha lar\u00eb n\u00eb gjak, sepse m\u00eb kishte larguar v\u00ebllai im nga plepi i qar\u00eb e i thyer, sado q\u00eb ishte kjo e v\u00ebshtir\u00eb. Un\u00eb, ndodhesha pa vet\u00ebdije dhe n\u00ebn plepin e thyer…<\/p>\n

\"\"Kulshedra me zjarr<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

V\u00ebllai im ishte l\u00ebshuar me vrap n\u00ebp\u00ebr rrug\u00eb, e krye Demirajve, te sht\u00ebpia, e me lot n\u00eb faqe, si i \u00e7mendur, t\u00eb k\u00ebrkoj\u00eb ndihm\u00eb n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. Babai im ishte n\u00eb fush\u00eb dikund, n\u00eb pun\u00eb, e kush do ta gj\u00ebnte ate, sepse pa babain kush do t\u00eb m\u00eb ndihmonte?! Motrat ishin t\u00eb vogla, p\u00ebr t\u00eb m\u00eb bartur nga mali!…<\/p>\n

Kur m\u00eb erdhi vet\u00ebdija, shkova p\u00ebrtej p\u00ebrroit dhe fillova t\u00eb ngjitem rrug\u00ebs, q\u00eb t\u00eb ngriste mbi sht\u00ebpi t\u00eb Demirajve, por m\u00eb la fuqia. Gjaku, m\u00eb vlonte prej trurit. Isha i lar\u00eb me gjak. Edhe vet\u00ebdija m\u00eb la.<\/p>\n

Dikur, i d\u00ebgjova edhe z\u00ebrat e motrave e v\u00ebllez\u00ebrve, pastaj babain e d\u00ebgjova, q\u00eb t\u00eb gjith\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb qanin. I luteshin Zotit t\u00eb Madh, q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00eb shp\u00ebtoj\u00eb! Ishim n\u00eb l\u00ebvizje, por nuk e di cili m\u00eb mbante. As nuk e di n\u00eb cil\u00ebn rrug\u00eb shkuam dhe as sa veta ishin. N\u00eb Ponoshec, n\u00eb ambullant\u00eb, u ndjeva m\u00eb mir\u00eb, pasi m\u00eb kishin lidhur p\u00ebrs\u00ebri kok\u00ebn dhe m\u00eb kishin dh\u00ebn\u00eb edhe injekcionet e duhura. N\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb, kishte filluar q\u00eb t\u00eb vij\u00eb edhe nj\u00eb mjek, dit\u00ebve t\u00eb ve\u00e7anta, p\u00ebr ato fshatra e bashk\u00ebsis\u00eb s\u00eb Ponoshecit. Tri dit\u00eb ishin, e tani mir\u00eb nuk i di, por po them se diku vinte t\u00eb h\u00ebn\u00ebn, t\u00eb merkur\u00ebn e t\u00eb premten.<\/p>\n

Ma kishin zgjidhur kok\u00ebn nga rubat e bardh\u00eb t\u00eb qarshafit dhe ma kishin pastruar nga di\u00e7ka q\u00eb kishte hedhur n\u00ebna, p\u00ebr ta ndalur pak gjakderdhjen. N\u00ebna ime dinte shum\u00eb gj\u00ebra t\u00eb mira, t\u00eb cilat nuk i njihte medicina e jon\u00eb n\u00ebp\u00ebr lokalitete, por disa i konsideronin \u201cparamedicin\u00eb\u201d<\/em>, t\u00eb b\u00ebra me barnat dhe lulet, sidomos n\u00eb bok\u00eb, e gj\u00ebra t\u00eb tjera. E ku i dija si f\u00ebmij\u00eb k\u00ebto gj\u00ebra?!…<\/p>\n

Shkurt, m\u00eb d\u00ebrguan p\u00ebr n\u00eb spital, n\u00eb Gjakov\u00eb. U desh q\u00eb t\u00eb merrte babai, me ato q\u00eb ne nuk e merrnim me mend se kush jan\u00eb dhe sa jan\u00eb. T\u00eb tjer\u00ebt, u kthyen n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, p\u00ebrmes Pllanikut. Ne, shkuam me ndihm\u00ebn e par\u00eb. Mua, po m\u00eb dhimbte koka pa mas\u00eb. N\u00eb spital, na prit\u00ebn mjek\u00ebt. M\u00eb shikuan dhe m\u00eb kontrolluan, pastaj m\u00eb d\u00ebrguan edhe n\u00eb rentgen…<\/p>\n

\"\"Nj\u00eb fotografi e vjet\u00ebr<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

Kur u kthye mjeku kryesor, m\u00eb shikoi gjat\u00eb e shmonte. M\u00eb tregoi se nuk e kam l\u00ebnduar shum\u00eb trurin, por duhet t\u00eb kaloj\u00eb koh\u00eb e gjat\u00eb pa folur shum\u00eb e pa e lodhur veten, deri sa t\u00eb sh\u00ebrohesha. Kur t\u00eb b\u00ebja m\u00eb mir\u00eb, do ta kisha nj\u00eb bised\u00eb t\u00eb gatshme me babain, e asnj\u00ebher\u00eb nuk do t\u00eb ngjitesha m\u00eb n\u00ebp\u00ebr drunj, deri sa t\u00eb rritesha! Mbushu mend, m\u00eb tha, p\u00ebr tjet\u00ebr her\u00eb. Paj, n\u00eb gjetsha mend t\u00eb tjera, do t\u00eb kisha marr\u00eb me vete di\u00e7ka m\u00eb tep\u00ebr!…<\/p>\n

Ani! Pik\u00ebrisht ato po m\u00eb duheshim!…<\/p>\n

4). P\u00ebrp\u00eblitja e kat\u00ebrt: gulshedra[1]<\/a>, q\u00eb m\u00eb ndiqte prore<\/strong><\/p>\n

Nuk e di se n\u00eb \u00e7far\u00eb kategorie fjal\u00ebsh t\u00eb rr\u00ebfimeve t\u00eb mia do t\u00eb p\u00ebrfshihen k\u00ebtu. N\u00eb radh\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00eb do t`i bluaj n\u00eb mullirin e mendimeve t\u00eb mia t\u00eb gjitha ato rr\u00ebfime t\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebris\u00eb, e pastaj do t`ua shtroj edhe juve n\u00eb sofr\u00ebn e shtruar t\u00eb marrjes suaj, gjat\u00eb mik\u00ebpritjes s\u00eb leximit. Pra, duhet t\u00eb p\u00ebrp\u00eblitem vet me t\u00ebr\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb periudh\u00eb, e t`ua zgjedh vet\u00ebm ato m\u00eb t\u00eb ve\u00e7antat.<\/p>\n

Me ve\u00e7anti, nuk e di a jeni provuar edhe ju. E ve\u00e7anta hidhet n\u00ebp\u00ebr n\u00ebp\u00ebr l\u00ebmshin e pa shpjeguar t\u00eb gj\u00ebrave, q\u00eb udh\u00ebtojn\u00eb me shpejt\u00ebsi t\u00eb pazonshme n\u00eb lumin e rrebt\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebshimit t\u00eb kujtimeve. I turbullt shkon p\u00ebrpara v\u00ebrshima e kujtimeve. Por, me ekuilibrin e pahumbur t\u00eb koh\u00ebs, ua nxjerr k\u00ebt\u00eb rr\u00ebfim.<\/p>\n

Pse ua nxjerr k\u00ebt\u00eb rr\u00ebfim? Sepse \u00ebsht\u00eb e parevokueshme t\u00eb mos ua nxjerr. Duhet t\u00eb futesh p\u00ebrmes kujtes\u00ebs s\u00eb f\u00ebmiut e t\u00eb gj\u00ebsh cila \u00ebsht\u00eb e ve\u00e7anta dhe cila u nevojtet t\u00eb gjith\u00ebve, apo t\u00eb gjith\u00eb sa i lexojn\u00eb, p\u00ebr t`ua dh\u00ebn\u00eb edhe t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve, sepse ndoshta edhe t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt kan\u00eb nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr ndonj\u00eb pjes\u00eb t\u00eb tyre.<\/p>\n

Po, po. Njer\u00ebzit e ve\u00e7ant\u00eb m\u00eb par\u00eb lindin si f\u00ebmij\u00eb t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb dhe rriten plot e p\u00ebrplot me v\u00ebshtir\u00ebsi. Nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb e t\u00ebra e v\u00ebshtir\u00ebsuar e fatit t\u00ebnd, por me fatin personal kan\u00eb q\u00eblluar p\u00ebr rreth teje t\u00eb tjer\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebdhenj e bashk\u00ebkoh\u00ebs, t\u00eb cil\u00ebt e kan\u00eb si q\u00ebllim t\u00eb p\u00ebrjetsh\u00ebm q\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrcjellin e t\u00eb v\u00ebshtir\u00ebsojn\u00eb jet\u00ebn. E jeta \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb rropullim\u00eb e madhe ndodhish\u00eb, n\u00ebp\u00ebrmes t\u00eb s\u00eb cil\u00ebs do t\u00eb nxjerrish mendimet e veprimet tuaja tep\u00ebr t\u00eb guximshme, e cila \u00ebsht\u00eb q\u00ebllimi i q\u00ebllimeve t\u00eb jetes\u00ebs suaj. \u00c7do njeri ka lindur me nj\u00eb q\u00ebllim t\u00eb caktuar dhe jo t\u00eb gjith\u00eb e din\u00eb q\u00eb para se t\u00eb lindin prej am\u00ebs s\u00eb vet k\u00ebt\u00eb q\u00ebllim, apo k\u00ebto q\u00ebllime, por nj\u00eb pjes\u00eb e caktuar e f\u00ebmijve i humbin me koh\u00eb disa nga k\u00ebto q\u00ebllime, qoft\u00eb nga rrethi familjar; qoft\u00eb nga rrethi m\u00eb i gj\u00ebr\u00eb; qoft\u00eb nga vet\u00eb m\u00ebsimi apo p\u00ebsimi i tyre; ose nuk mund t\u00eb realizohen n\u00eb koh\u00ebn e jetes\u00ebs s\u00eb tyre dhe ua vjedh dikush nga barkushet e dijes.<\/p>\n

\"\"Zbritja ime n\u00eb ar\u00eb dhe kop\u00ebsht<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

T\u00eb kthehem n\u00eb t\u00eb pad\u00ebshiruar\u00ebn: kisha lindur n\u00eb nj\u00eb mjedis, q\u00eb nuk ishte aq i denj\u00eb p\u00ebr veprimet e mia; q\u00eb nj\u00eb pjes\u00eb do t\u00eb m\u00eb konsideronte si pjes\u00eb q\u00eb do t\u00eb udh\u00ebhiqte n\u00eb nj\u00eb drejtim t\u00eb \u201cparehatsh\u00ebm\u201d<\/em> p\u00ebr ta; e pjesa tjet\u00ebr do t\u00eb qe pjesa kund\u00ebshtare, q\u00eb do t\u00eb m\u00eb luftonte pa kompromis!<\/p>\n

N\u00eb fakt, \u201cjeta e p\u00ebrkohshme\u201d<\/em> e atyre q\u00eb po jetonin, ishte \u201cvdekja\u201d<\/em> e tyre si komb. Dridhja \u201ce parehatshme\u201d<\/em> ishte p\u00ebrpjekja e gjat\u00eb dhe e mundimshme e nxjerrjes s\u00eb kombit nga pushtimi. Ishte nj\u00eb luft\u00eb e pafund. \u201cLiri apo vdekje!\u201d<\/em>, thoshte Ukshin Hoti. Ne, po e l\u00ebm\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb pun\u00eb e po merremi me jet\u00ebn ton\u00eb t\u00eb f\u00ebmijve. Aty ishte mjedisi n\u00eb t\u00eb cilin kisha lindur edhe un\u00eb; lagja ime; fshati dhe rajoni. Mishmashi i l\u00ebmshit t\u00eb fatit dhe pafatit tim sillej prej t\u00eb af\u00ebrmive t\u00eb mi; prej fqinj\u00ebve e af\u00ebr fqinj\u00ebve t\u00eb mi. Si f\u00ebmij\u00eb, nuk kishe mjaft forc\u00eb t\u00eb kuptoja t\u00eb t\u00ebr\u00ebn, as q\u00eb e dije se p\u00ebrse disa nuk qen\u00eb t\u00eb \u201cp\u00ebrputhura\u201d<\/em> me ty.<\/p>\n

Kur u bije p\u00ebrskaj, t\u00eb rrokte nj\u00eb dridhje jo e mir\u00eb, n\u00eb baz\u00eb t\u00eb ngyrave t\u00eb aureol\u00ebs sate dhe aureol\u00ebs s\u00eb tjetrit; dhe nj\u00eb dridhje e mir\u00eb, n\u00eb baz\u00eb t\u00eb k\u00ebtyre ngjyrave t\u00eb aureolave. Si f\u00ebmij\u00eb, nuk e dija \u00e7ka \u00ebsht\u00eb aureola e ngjyrave, por kur t\u00eb rritesh e t\u00eb m\u00ebsosh shum\u00eb, edhe nga parapsikologjia, do t\u00eb dije nga k\u00ebto t\u00eb padukshmet e njeriut. \u00c7do f\u00ebmij\u00eb, i cili ishte fare i vog\u00ebl, e p\u00ebrjeton k\u00ebt\u00eb dridhje t\u00eb mir\u00eb, apo k\u00ebt\u00eb dridhje t\u00eb lig\u00eb, edhe n\u00eb qoft\u00eb se nuk e din\u00eb q\u00eb ta shpjegojn\u00eb. Pa m\u00ebsime e pa lexime, natyrisht pak do t\u00eb dije…<\/p>\n

F\u00ebmij\u00ebt, disave u shkojn\u00eb e disave nuk u shkojn\u00eb, edhe pse vin\u00eb me qeshje apo me qeshje t\u00eb shtir\u00eb. Kur t\u00eb m\u00ebsosh \u00e7ka \u00ebsht\u00eb aureola, atyre q\u00eb u shkojn\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebt, i kan\u00eb ngjyrat e hapura apo t\u00eb \u00e7elta, deri n\u00eb t\u00eb bardh\u00ebn; atyre q\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebt nuk u shkojn\u00eb me vullnetin e tyre, i kan\u00eb ngjyrat e mbyllta t\u00eb aureol\u00ebs s\u00eb tyre, deri n\u00eb t\u00eb zez\u00ebn. E k\u00ebtu, n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb ngjyra ndahen njer\u00ebzit. E zeza dhe e bardha, t\u00eb dy kontrastet, jan\u00eb n\u00eb pika t\u00eb skajshme t\u00eb tyre. E zeza \u00ebsht\u00eb me tok\u00ebn baz\u00eb dhe e bardha \u00ebsht\u00eb me qiellin dhe hap\u00ebsirat e yjeve. E zeza lidhet me Kryedemonin, pra qendra e tok\u00ebs, Luciferri; nd\u00ebrsa tjetra, q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb e para, \u00ebsht\u00eb kulmi i energjis\u00eb s\u00eb globit ton\u00eb, q\u00eb idetifikohet me Diellin, Dijen e Diturin\u00eb e k\u00ebsaj jete, me Zotin e Madh.<\/p>\n

\"\"Baba i ulur n\u00eb koder t\u00eb bah\u00e7es – duke qeshur me rr\u00ebfimet e v\u00ebllait t\u00eb vog\u00ebl…<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

Un\u00eb e kisha af\u00ebr t\u00eb keqen m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe, edhe nj\u00eb njeri e fem\u00ebr, grua e vej\u00eb, sepse e kishte mbytur edhe burrin e saj dhe lak e gjak shkonte me bab\u00ebn tim, por ishte fem\u00ebr, syverdha, po e quaj Flaka Ledili, sepse flaka ishte ajo q\u00eb gufonte prej goj\u00ebs s\u00eb saj, pa fjal\u00eb. Kur rastiste p\u00ebskaj, m\u00eb dridhej trupi me dridhje t\u00eb liga. I thoja vet me vete: \u201cPthu, pthu, pthu! E hang\u00ebrsh bok\u00ebn e gjan\u00eb, n\u00eb dhamb, e kryet tan\u00eb!\u201d<\/em> (E kafshofsh me dh\u00ebmb\u00eb bok\u00ebs e gj\u00ebr\u00eb me dh\u00ebmb\u00eb dhe kok\u00ebn t\u00ebnde!)<\/em>. K\u00ebt\u00eb fjal\u00eb, ma kishin m\u00ebsuar t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt, q\u00eb dinin se ajo ishte e Liga e Lagjes dhe fshatit ton\u00eb. M\u00eb dridhej trupi, por aspak nuk folte me mua. E mbante kok\u00ebn e ult\u00eb e m\u00eb shikonte anash. Fillonte t\u00eb flas\u00eb vet me vete: b\u00ebrr, b\u00ebrr, b\u00ebrr, b\u00ebrr. E b\u00ebnte nj\u00eb magji t\u00eb veten, drejt meje…<\/p>\n

T\u00eb gjith\u00eb t\u00eb familjes e t\u00eb lagjes e kishin ate \u201cz\u00ebt\u201d<\/em>. Kur takoheshe n\u00eb rrug\u00eb, duhet t\u00eb ktheheshe, sepse at\u00eb dit\u00eb t\u00eb shkonte koha s\u00eb prapti ose t\u00eb ndodhte di\u00e7ka e lig\u00eb dhe e papritur. K\u00ebsi sojit ishte edhe djali i vet\u00ebm, i madh, i martuar e me f\u00ebmij\u00eb, q\u00eb e kishte edhe ar\u00ebn pran\u00eb mesh. Edhe ate, e kishte \u201cz\u00ebt\u201d <\/em>baba. Nuk ishte e mundur q\u00eb t\u00eb mos e takoje, sidomos Keqmanin, dit\u00eb p\u00ebr dit\u00eb, kur dilje n\u00eb pun\u00eb apo p\u00ebr rrug\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Po e marr nj\u00eb dit\u00eb t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb t\u00eb fillimi t\u00eb t\u00eb zezave t\u00eb mia. Isha f\u00ebmij\u00eb dhe e kisha filluar shkoll\u00ebn, klas\u00ebn e par\u00eb apo t\u00eb dyt\u00eb. T\u00eb mir\u00ebt, m\u00eb lavd\u00ebronin. \u00c7do dit\u00eb, kur e filloja rrug\u00ebn, bija n\u00eb vorret e lagjes sime. Aty qen\u00eb edhe vorret e Babagjyshit ton\u00eb dhe gjyshes son\u00eb, Raz\u00ebs, vajz\u00ebs e djalit t\u00eb vdekur. Vendi i tyre ishte rrafshuar, por baba i dinte me mend, prej babagjyshit e gjyshes, e deri te f\u00ebmij\u00ebt. M\u00eb kishte th\u00ebn\u00eb, q\u00eb t\u00eb mos i harroj. Por, t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt, ishin t\u00eb lagjes. Disa varre ishin t\u00eb rind\u00ebrtuara, me fjal\u00eb p\u00ebrkujtimore. Ndonj\u00eb varr ishte i vjet\u00ebruar apo n\u00eb shembje, pa e shikuar askush.<\/p>\n

Duke kaluar pran\u00eb k\u00ebtyre varreve, me mend t\u00eb shkepura tutje, sepse jeta jon\u00eb ishte me halle, p\u00ebrmbi varret e t\u00eb vjet\u00ebrve, pran\u00eb lisit e varrrit t\u00eb plakut, i cili ishte rind\u00ebrtuar, mbi p\u00ebrkujtimoren e tij e kishte vendosur dor\u00ebn e ngjyrosur n\u00eb t\u00eb zez\u00eb, kreatura lakuriqe, poashtu t\u00eb ngjyrosur me t\u00eb zez\u00eb apo ngjyr\u00ebn e th\u00ebngjijve t\u00eb oxhakut e hedhur nj\u00eb \u00e7arshaf t\u00eb bardh\u00eb, fund e krye, q\u00eb i kishte zhbiruar te fytyra, goja e hunda, si gjamallat t\u00eb ngjyrosura n\u00eb t\u00eb zez\u00eb, si futa. E pash\u00eb papritur, dhe e pash\u00eb se m\u00eb p\u00ebrcillte.<\/p>\n

\"\"Fotografi e imja – pasi kreva shkoll\u00ebn fillore – d.m.th. 15 vje\u00e7ar…<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

Kur i drejtova syt\u00eb, ai u qatallis\u00eb rrebt\u00eb dhe shprazi nj\u00eb \u201chaahahaa\u201d<\/em> dhe nj\u00eb \u201coouuuiii\u201d<\/em> drejt meje, me t\u00eb dy tuart e ngritura, q\u00eb luhateshin, por luhatej edhe ai prej vendit, me q\u00ebllim q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00eb z\u00eb. Nuk kisha koh\u00eb e ishte m\u00ebngjes. U ktheva duke vrapuar e duke qajtur me t\u00eb madhe te sht\u00ebpija. E kisha hedhur qant\u00ebn n\u00eb rrug\u00eb. Fare nuk mund t\u00eb shpjegoja! Dridhesha e qaja, sikur isha i dalur prej taktit. P\u00ebrpiqeshin t\u00eb gjith\u00eb dhe n\u00ebna t\u00eb m\u00eb ndihmoj\u00eb, duke m\u00eb dh\u00ebn\u00eb uj\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb, q\u00eb e mbante n\u00eb nj\u00eb shishe t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb. Motra doli ta gj\u00ebj ku \u00ebsht\u00eb babai. Erdhi edhe babai, i lodhur nga vrapi e ishte i tronditur, pa mas\u00eb! M\u00eb qet\u00ebsonin e p\u00ebrpiqeshin q\u00eb t\u00eb gj\u00ebjn\u00eb shkakun.<\/p>\n

N\u00eb n\u00eb fund, e mora pak veten nga vaji. Nuk delnin m\u00eb lot\u00eb, por d\u00ebnesja. U tregova atyre se m\u00eb ka ndjekur prej varrit t\u00eb Aliosman\u00ebve, nj\u00eb i vdekur, q\u00eb ishte zgjuar me plafin e bardh\u00eb t\u00eb vorreve dhe b\u00ebrtiste. U sul q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00eb z\u00eb. Ika dhe e kam hedhur qant\u00eb time, n\u00eb rrug\u00eb, p\u00ebr t\u00eb ikur sa m\u00eb shpejt\u00eb. Ai m\u00eb ndjekte pas dhe un\u00eb ikja prej tij. M\u00eb n\u00eb fund, i trou ashp\u00ebr fqinj\u00ebt tan\u00eb babai yn\u00eb, t\u00eb cil\u00ebt qenkan ordi nga e liga, sa t\u00eb fshehen n\u00ebn qarshafin e bardh\u00eb p\u00ebr ta frig\u00ebsuar pa mas\u00eb nj\u00eb djal\u00eb me vuajtje, e deri n\u00eb \u00e7mendi, si un\u00eb, pa ia b\u00ebr\u00eb askujt e asnj\u00eb t\u00eb lig\u00eb! Kisha jetuar, pas dy vitesh t\u00eb vdekjes s\u00eb v\u00ebllait tim, Hasanit, sepse ai, si foshje, ishte s\u00ebmuar papritur, si e motra e vet, Sosja, dhe kishte filluar t\u00eb qaj rrebt\u00eb, si un\u00eb, dit\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00ebra e net\u00eb me vaj, derisa askush nuk i binte n\u00eb fije \u00e7ka ka, e as mjek\u00ebt, derisa pushoi, pas vdekjes. Ishte vdekje e r\u00ebnd\u00eb p\u00ebr ne e p\u00ebr babain. I kishin vdekur dy f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e par\u00eb, duke e l\u00ebn\u00eb t\u00eb gjurmoj\u00eb me mend se kush ishte fajtor; kush na kishte b\u00ebr\u00eb magji, sipas n\u00ebn\u00ebs sime, apo nuk e kishin aq fat t\u00eb p\u00ebrt\u00ebrijm\u00eb familjen ton\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Papritmas babai im rroku sopat\u00ebn e druve nga cungu i druve dhe u ngjit malit p\u00ebrpjet\u00eb kah jetimet, dy sht\u00ebpi t\u00eb v\u00ebllez\u00ebrve jetim\u00eb. Nj\u00ebra sht\u00ebpi ishte shum\u00eb e mir\u00eb dhe t\u00eb gjith\u00eb i donim, por nj\u00ebra jo, sepse ishte e asaj, e Flak\u00ebs.<\/p>\n

\"\"Fotografi e Halles Shkurt\u00eb – e madhja – e b\u00ebr\u00eb nga un\u00eb…<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

N\u00ebna e kuptoi se ku po shkonte. Ajo e dinte se do t\u00eb shkoj\u00eb te djali i vet\u00ebm dhe i mbrapsht\u00eb i Flaka Ledilit, apo siq e quante vet\u00eb: te kopili i g\u00ebrgjules! Ju vesh, q\u00eb t\u00eb mos e l\u00eb t\u00eb shkoj\u00eb. E fitoi nj\u00eb flaresh\u00eb t\u00eb madhe fytyr\u00ebs dhe filloi t\u00eb qante e t\u00eb shmonte, duke l\u00ebvizur kuturu e duke u lutur p\u00ebr te! Edhe dy fqinj\u00ebt, q\u00eb e d\u00ebgjuan zhurukam\u00ebn ton\u00eb n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi ton\u00ebn t\u00eb vog\u00ebl, nj\u00ebri nga sht\u00ebpia mbi ne, e nj\u00ebri nga kodra p\u00ebrball\u00eb, dol\u00ebn pas tij, duke e lutur q\u00eb t\u00eb kthehet. Britjet e shumta t\u00eb babait, q\u00eb po nd\u00ebgjoheshin kodr\u00ebs p\u00ebrpjet\u00eb, deri te sht\u00ebpija e Keqman Ledilit. Dikur, u kthye poashtu me ata dy fqinj\u00eb, deri posht\u00eb kodr\u00ebs, duke folur vet me vete. Nuk kishte asnj\u00eb shenj\u00eb n\u00eb trup, pos shp\u00ebrthekam\u00ebs s\u00eb mitonit dhe t\u00eb k\u00ebmish\u00ebs. Ishte mbushur frym\u00eb, sa nuk dihej! E n\u00eamte dhe e shant\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb e Flaka Ledilit. Befas, n\u00ebna ia solli nj\u00eb kafe t\u00eb qet\u00ebsoj, \u00e7ka nuk e priste, sepse nuk ishim t\u00eb m\u00ebk\u00ebmbur, por t\u00eb holl\u00eb prej gj\u00ebrave t\u00eb komodit. Ai e shikoi t\u00eb t\u00ebr\u00ebn rrebt\u00eb, por asaj nuk i tha asgj\u00eb. Filloi ta pij\u00eb kafen e t\u00eb qet\u00ebsohej. Dal\u00ebngadale, ashtu u b\u00eb.<\/p>\n

\u201cBiri im! A t\u00eb ka kaluar ajo frig\u00eb? Kurr mos u frigo nga ato varre, se ai, qafiri i g\u00ebrgjules, nuk ka p\u00ebr t\u00eb dal\u00eb mbi varre, kurr\u00eb si gjamall! A more vesh?! Mos u tut! Sepse, te ato varre i ke edhe varret tona.\u201d<\/em> \u2013 m\u00eb tha dikur, i qet\u00ebsuar.<\/p>\n

E kuptova shum\u00eb mir\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb fjal\u00eb. Por, e kujtoj poashtu lisin e madh pran\u00eb rrug\u00ebs, n\u00eb g\u00ebshtenjat e Osmanajve, para se t\u00eb arrij kthes\u00ebn te varret, q\u00eb ishte i paprer\u00eb koh\u00eb t\u00eb gjat\u00eb. Sa her\u00eb kur kaloja p\u00ebrskaj tij, largohesha p\u00ebr an\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr t\u00eb rrug\u00ebs, jo fort af\u00ebr therrave t\u00eb m\u00ebdha, sepse di\u00e7ka n\u00eb maje t\u00eb lisit apo n\u00ebp\u00ebr therra fishk\u00ebllonte fuqish\u00ebm apo tmerrsh\u00ebn, ose ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb rrall\u00eb ia behte papritur si nj\u00eb murmurim\u00eb, pak m\u00eb e shkurt\u00ebr, edhe dit\u00ebn p\u00ebr dielli. K\u00ebt\u00eb lis shum\u00eb t\u00eb lig\u00eb e sh\u00ebnova kaher\u00eb n\u00eb memorjen time. Ashtu e dinim t\u00eb gjith\u00eb, mendoja un\u00eb. I frigoheshim atij lisi, e ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb therave t\u00eb m\u00ebdha, q\u00eb ishin rritur tep\u00ebr mbi gardh dhe ishte b\u00ebr\u00eb lam\u00eb e madhe.<\/p>\n

V\u00ebllez\u00ebrit e mi thonin se ishte nj\u00eb gjarp\u00ebr i madh, tek ai lis, ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb n\u00eb maje t\u00eb lisit, sepse atje ishte nj\u00eb \u00e7\u00ebrdhe e madhe, por nuk kishte asnj\u00eb zog apo shpez\u00eb, sepse ai, q\u00eb ata i thonin k\u00ebshtu, kaher\u00eb i kishte ngr\u00ebn\u00eb. E nuk ishte gjarp\u00ebr i madh, por boll\u00eb e madhe, me tri fije flok\u00ebsh t\u00eb bardha n\u00eb kok\u00eb ose m\u00eb tep\u00ebr, dhe ishin t\u00eb gjata, t\u00eb cil\u00ebn m\u00eb von\u00eb e dalluam. Pamja e saj e tregonte se ishte boll\u00eb, e bollat ishin natyr\u00eb e prishur e t\u00eb mir\u00ebs, pra, ato i hanin mushk\u00ebrit\u00eb e njeriut, sa ishte i gjall\u00eb. P\u00ebr t\u00eb gjall\u00eb e lidhnin, e rrahnin me bisht, si me pandrek t\u00eb fort\u00eb, edhe pse piskat\u00ebte dhe k\u00ebrkonte ndihm\u00eb, e shtronin p\u00ebr dh\u00e9, pastaj i futeshin n\u00eb sqetulla, q\u00eb t`ia hanin mushk\u00ebrit\u00eb. Po e them k\u00ebte, sepse e shp\u00ebtuam nj\u00eb burr\u00eb t\u00eb lidhur nga bollat e m\u00ebdha. Ato, k\u00ebsisojit vepronin. Ishin gulshedrat, me flok\u00eb t\u00eb gjata!…<\/p>\n

\"\"Fotografi e imja mjaft i m\u00ebrzitur – n\u00eb detin adriatik – Tiran\u00eb e Bari-IT…<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

Edhe nga k\u00ebrsima dalloheshin ato, qofshin t\u00eb mallkuara, lanet pa\u00e7in p\u00ebr t\u00eb gjitha koh\u00ebrat, sepse ato murmuronin edhe fishk\u00ebllonin, ishin gulshedra; nd\u00ebrsa dragoni ishte nj\u00eb mashkull i fuqish\u00ebm, me natyr\u00eb mbinjer\u00ebzore, dhe e shprehte vet\u00ebtima, kur ishte n\u00eb ndjekje p\u00ebr mbytjen e gulshedrave. Disa e quanin \u201cp\u00ebrrall\u00eb\u201d<\/em>, e disa t\u00eb tjer\u00eb dridheshin!…<\/p>\n

Dragoni ishte i mir\u00eb p\u00ebr shqiptar\u00ebt, e gulshdrat ishim t\u00eb liga. Gulshedrat nuk e nd\u00ebrronin form\u00ebn. Dragoni mund t\u00eb ishte nj\u00eb mashkull i nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpie, e kur kishte nevoj\u00eb, mund t\u00eb nd\u00ebrronte form\u00ebn, p\u00ebr t`i z\u00ebn\u00eb gulshedrat…<\/p>\n

K\u00ebto shpjegime u ngjajn\u00eb pak historive t\u00eb magjikshme e fantastike, por ka nj\u00eb histori t\u00eb m\u00ebrzitshme e t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb femij\u00ebrore. Kur bija \u00e7do nat\u00eb n\u00eb gjum\u00eb e m\u00eb merrte me vones\u00eb gjumi, e shihja te ky lis nj\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebrr t\u00eb tmerrshme: m\u00eb dilte befas nj\u00eb qenie jasht\u00eb natyr\u00ebs njer\u00ebzore, si n\u00eb form\u00ebn e dinosaur\u00ebve, t\u00eb cil\u00ebt nxirrnin nga goja flak\u00eb t\u00eb tmershme, kur t\u00eb sulomin e dihat\u00ebshin. Un\u00eb ikja me britm\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebdha t\u00eb frig\u00ebs, me z\u00eb, e nuk arrija t`i ik\u00eb, sa djersitesha. Zgjohesha tmerrsh\u00ebm prej gjumit, sepse t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt i kisha zgjuar sa isha n\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebrr, me z\u00eb t\u00eb lart\u00eb, dhe ata m\u00eb l\u00ebkund\u00ebshin. M\u00eb sillte pak ujt\u00eb t\u00eb fryr\u00eb n\u00eb nj\u00eb shishe, t\u00eb cilin e ruante n\u00ebna ime, e m\u00eb qet\u00ebsonin baba, n\u00ebna apo edhe motrat. T\u00eb gjith\u00eb ishin t\u00eb zgjuar nga britma ime, t\u00eb gjith\u00eb!…<\/p>\n

Nuk e di sa vjet zgjati kjo \u00ebnd\u00ebrr e kjo s\u00ebmundje. Disa thon\u00eb tri vjet me radh\u00eb, e disa thon\u00eb pak m\u00eb gjat\u00eb! Nuk m\u00eb lan\u00eb pa m\u00eb d\u00ebrguar n\u00ebp\u00ebr mjek\u00eb, por ata nuk e dinin \u00e7ka \u00ebsht\u00eb kjo \u00ebnd\u00ebrr e tmerrshme e mbusheshin nga rr\u00ebfimet, por m\u00eb shpesh m\u00eb d\u00ebrgonin tek ata q\u00eb shinin n\u00ebp\u00ebr magji, e m\u00eb shum\u00eb te dervish\u00ebt e hoxhallar\u00ebt. Ma merr mendja se ishin 3 vjet me radh\u00eb, sepse isha n\u00eb shkoll\u00ebn fillore, aty, n\u00eb Morin\u00eb. Kur dola n\u00eb Ponoshec, kishte mbaruar kjo pun\u00eb. Erdhi papritmas tek ne, nj\u00ebri q\u00eb e kishte t\u00eb motr\u00ebn n\u00eb at\u00eb fshat, nipat e mbesat, n\u00eb Morin\u00eb t\u00eb Ep\u00ebrme. Nuk kishte rrobe t\u00eb dervish\u00ebve e as t\u00eb hoxh\u00ebve. Por, qe i shenjt\u00eb dhe i pa martuar. E thirrnim Baba Jah\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Lidhja e madhe e dervish\u00ebve nuk e kishte pranuar n\u00eb asnj\u00eb teqe t\u00eb saj; Lidhja Islame dhe hoxhallar\u00ebt nuk e kishin pranuar as ata, sepse pinte dhe nuk falej si ata, por kishte fuqi magjike. Madje, \u00e7ka nuk e mendoje!<\/p>\n

Baba Jah\u00eb erdhi at\u00eb dit\u00eb me diell, nuk e di se a ishte pranver\u00eb, ver\u00eb apo vjesht\u00eb, sepse e mbaj n\u00eb mendje se ai u ul n\u00ebn hijen e pjeshk\u00ebs, at\u00ebher\u00eb n\u00eb oborr, tani, \u00ebsht\u00eb nd\u00ebrtuar sht\u00ebpia e re, madje aty pari. E priti shum\u00eb mir\u00eb baba. Ishte me qehre t\u00eb mir\u00eb, t\u00eb \u00ebmb\u00ebl, e njer\u00ebzore, madje hokatare. E njihte edhe babai, q\u00eb nga jetimi, n\u00eb Morin\u00eb t\u00eb Ep\u00ebrme, dhe e motra, pak m\u00eb e vjet\u00ebr se sa ai, me rrobe t\u00eb grave fshatare e grua shum\u00eb burr\u00ebrore.<\/p>\n

\"\"Fragment nga nj\u00eb fotografi p\u00ebr shtyp – bardh\u00eb e zi<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

Baba Jah\u00eb m\u00eb thirri e m\u00eb mori n\u00eb preh\u00ebr. Nuk e kujtoj se \u00e7ka flitke e p\u00ebr \u00e7ka qeshnin t\u00eb gjith\u00eb, edhe ne f\u00ebmij\u00ebt, sepse na donte si t\u00eb qen\u00eb t\u00eb tij.<\/p>\n

\u201cKam marr\u00eb vesh se ti e sheh p\u00ebr \u00e7do nat\u00eb, nj\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebrr t\u00eb tmerrshme! T\u00eb ndjek\u00eb gulshedra, te lisi, pran\u00eb rrug\u00ebs, me zjarr, \u00e7do nat\u00eb. Ti, edhe sonte do ta shoh\u00ebsh, e tjet\u00ebr here kurr\u00eb nuk do ta shoh\u00ebsh!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

\u201cAjo m\u00eb del papritmas, \u00e7do nat\u00eb, sepse dikur lodhem, e m\u00eb merr gjumi!\u201d <\/em>\u2013 ia kthej atij, me t\u00eb dridhurat e mia, n\u00eb prehrin e tij.<\/p>\n

\u201cMos u dridh, tek un\u00eb! Tek un\u00eb je mu ashtu sikur t\u00eb ishe n\u00eb duar t\u00eb d\u00ebrguar n\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb tuaj nga Zoti i Madh, atij i qoshim fal\u00eb!\u201d<\/em> \u2013 m\u00eb k\u00ebshilloj n\u00eb preh\u00ebr, duke m\u00eb gudulisur e p\u00ebrg\u00ebdhelur. \u201cT\u00eb ndjek si p\u00ebrpara e t\u00eb gjuan edhe me flak\u00eb. D\u00ebrgoje mendjen tek un\u00eb, se t\u00eb kam marr\u00eb n\u00eb Bes\u00eb! Nuk e l\u00eb t\u00eb prapt\u00ebn gulsheder aspak t\u00eb t\u00eb kap, deri te dera e sht\u00ebpis\u00eb sate. Kur futesh brenda der\u00ebs, mbylle der\u00ebn menj\u00ebher\u00eb, me shul e me qel\u00ebs. Ajo edhe der\u00ebn mundohet q\u00eb ta hap\u00eb, por thirr\u00ebn mua: o Baba Jah\u00eb, n\u00eb bes\u00eb t\u00ebnden! Thirr vazhdimisht, sa her\u00eb t\u00eb kesh frig\u00eb! E ajo, lanet past\u00eb, n\u00eb vend se ta \u00e7el der\u00ebn nga brava, do ta \u00e7el der\u00ebn prej bakllam\u00ebve, pra s\u00eb prapti. Por, sa ta fut kok\u00ebn brenda der\u00ebs, rri gati e shtyja prap me at\u00eb der\u00eb kok\u00ebn, me sa fuqi t\u00eb kesh! Ke p\u00ebr t`ia z\u00ebn\u00eb kok\u00ebn e nuk mund t\u00eb kthehet prapa, as t\u00eb dali nga kurtha e jote! At\u00ebher\u00eb, i hup ngadal\u00eb pamja e gulshedr\u00ebs q\u00eb e ka pasur dhe i kthehet pamja natyrore, e do ta shoh\u00ebs e do ta njoh\u00ebsh kush \u00ebsht\u00eb! At\u00eb em\u00ebr, mos ia thuaj askujt, por mua, nes\u00ebr, sepse kthehem edhe nj\u00ebher\u00eb prej motr\u00ebs tek ju!… A e more vesh k\u00ebt\u00eb pun\u00eb?!\u201d<\/em> \u2013 m\u00eb pyeti ai, pas k\u00ebtyre fjal\u00ebve. E mua, me ishte tharr\u00eb goja, duke u p\u00ebrpjekur q\u00eb ta mbaj\u00eb t\u00ebr\u00eb historin\u00eb e gjat\u00eb n\u00eb mendje.<\/p>\n

\u201cPo. T\u00eb gjitha i kam marr\u00eb vesh. Por, a do t\u00eb m\u00eb ndodh\u00eb pik\u00ebrisht kjo gj\u00eb, me k\u00ebt\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebrr t\u00eb tmerrshme?!\u201d<\/em> \u2013 mezi e pyeta.<\/p>\n

\u201cPa merak e shqet\u00ebsim, djali yn\u00eb i mir\u00eb! Si sonte, q\u00eb do ta shoh\u00ebsh e do ta z\u00ebsh pisk me der\u00eb, gjith\u00eb jet\u00ebn t\u00ebnde do t\u00eb kesh aq fuqi t\u00eb madhe q\u00eb t`i zbulosh e t`i vras\u00ebsh t\u00eb gjitha gulshedrat!… Por, do t\u00eb rritesh, s\u00eb pari!\u201d<\/em> \u2013 me tha Baba Jah\u00eb, t\u00eb cilit, shpirti i paft\u00eb drit\u00eb, kurdoher\u00eb!<\/p>\n

Fillova q\u00eb t\u00eb ndjeja veten shum\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb fort\u00eb, sikur t\u00eb jem m\u00eb i madh. Edhe n\u00eb kok\u00eb, pas kreje, m\u00eb k\u00ebrstiti e m\u00eb rropulloj di\u00e7ka. Ashtu, rrap-rrup!<\/p>\n

\u201cMir\u00eb!\u201d<\/em> \u2013 i thash\u00eb pastaj, duke u ngritur nga prehri i tij e duke zbritur n\u00eb tok\u00eb. \u201cBaba Jah\u00eb, ti m\u00eb m\u00ebsove! Ashtu do t`ia b\u00ebj! Me t\u00eb vertet\u00eb, ashtu do t`ia b\u00ebj! Vet\u00ebn ti mos m\u00eb harro e jep\u00ebm mund\u00ebsi q\u00eb t`ia z\u00eb qafen, si\u00e7 m\u00eb the! Nuk do t`i tregoj askujt tjet\u00ebr, pos teje!\u201d <\/em>\u2013 thash\u00eb, i k\u00ebndellur jasht\u00ebzakonisht.<\/p>\n

\u201cSa her\u00eb kur ta takosh, thuaji: lanet pa\u00e7, qofshi larg\u00eb prej meje! E hangsh bok\u00ebn e gjan\u00eb e kok\u00ebn t\u00ebnde me dh\u00ebmb\u00eb! Mos u frigo, kurr\u00eb tjet\u00ebr her\u00eb. As prej asaj, e as prej t\u00eb tjerave! Lutju vet\u00ebm Zotit t\u00eb Madh, e askujt tjet\u00ebr! Mos i beso shum\u00eb askujt, e as mos iu ngat\u00ebrro! Ti rrug\u00ebs t\u00ebnde, e t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt rrug\u00ebs s\u00eb vet! A m\u00eb d\u00ebgjove, djali i jon\u00eb, i mir\u00eb?!\u201d<\/em> \u2013 m\u00eb tregoi edhe nj\u00ebher\u00eb Baba Jah\u00eb.<\/p>\n

\u201cShum\u00eb mir\u00eb t\u00eb kam d\u00ebgjuar dhe ashtu do t\u00eb b\u00ebj! Por, mos na harro, Baba Jah\u00eb! T\u00eb lutem, eja shpesh tek ne! Pa ty, nuk jemi aspak t\u00eb fort\u00eb! Besa \u00ebsht\u00eb e\u00a0 madhe! Prandaj, i themi: Besa-Bes\u00eb!!\u201d <\/em>\u2013 i thash, me dhembje t\u00eb ndjer\u00eb.<\/p>\n

\u201cSa her\u00eb t\u00eb mendoni ju, jam pran\u00eb jush! Por, edhe k\u00ebshtu, si vijn\u00eb njer\u00ebzit tek ju, p\u00ebr dyer, vi ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb edhe un\u00eb. Mos u b\u00ebj merak p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb pun\u00eb! E kemi dh\u00ebn\u00eb bes\u00ebn: <Besa-bes\u00eb>!\u201d<\/em> \u2013 shtoi m\u00eb n\u00eb fund dhe ma zgjati dor\u00ebn e madhe t\u00eb tij. I sht\u00ebrguam duart! \u00c7do her\u00eb e ndjej t\u00eb till\u00eb pran\u00eb meje…<\/p>\n

At\u00eb nat\u00eb, e pash\u00eb edhe nj\u00ebher\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjten \u00ebnd\u00ebrr! Si rava, fjeta. M\u00eb ndoqi me zjarr, deri te dera e jon\u00eb! Ashtu si\u00e7 m\u00eb tregoi Baba Jah\u00eb, ia mbylla der\u00ebn. E ajo, me t\u00eb veten, rropullohej dhe e shkundke der\u00ebn, p\u00ebr ta hapur. Un\u00eb e kisha z\u00ebn\u00eb der\u00ebn me t\u00eb dy duar dhe e shtyja andej, duke e thirrur Bab\u00ebn Jah\u00eb, t\u00eb m\u00eb ndihmoj\u00eb. Kur e hapi nga bakllam\u00ebt, e shtyra fuqish\u00ebm der\u00ebn dhe ia zura kok\u00ebn. Gulshedra mbeti n\u00eb t\u00eb! Iu shnd\u00ebrua koka me \u201clidhs\u00eb e marham\u00eb\u201d<\/em>, si e grave tona. Zjarri i p\u00ebrfundoj n\u00eb syt\u00eb e verdh\u00eb! Ishte Flaka Ledili, me rrobet e vetme t\u00eb grave shqiptare, pak m\u00eb t\u00eb palara! Ishte g\u00ebrgjulja e vog\u00ebl e me sy t\u00eb verdh\u00eb! M\u00eb doli gjumi me buz\u00ebqeshje.<\/p>\n

Po besoja edhe n\u00eb vetvete, edhe n\u00eb Bab\u00ebn Jah\u00eb, pa mjek\u00ebr e jo me rrobe fetare, sepse ai nj\u00ebher\u00eb ma kishte dh\u00ebn\u00eb bes\u00ebn e vet, me \u201cBesa-Bes\u00eb\u201d<\/em>! E nuk po flas m\u00eb tep\u00ebr, sepse ju mezis! \u00c7do her\u00eb, kur t\u00eb shkoj n\u00eb vendlindje apo kur t\u00eb kthehem, e d\u00ebrgoj dor\u00ebn n\u00eb zem\u00ebr, prej rrug\u00ebs kryesore:<\/p>\n

\u201cO ku t\u00eb kam, o Baba Jah\u00eb, bre!\u201d<\/em> \u2013 i them me z\u00eb. Nj\u00eb lutje p\u00ebr shpirtin e tij ia them, drit\u00eb past\u00eb! N\u00eb kod\u00ebr t\u00eb Korenic\u00ebs e pran\u00eb pish\u00ebs e ka vorrin. As nuk ka tyrbe, as muri, pos varrin si t\u00eb gjith\u00eb shqiptar\u00ebve…<\/p>\n

M\u00eb von\u00eb, kur u rrita dhe u forcova mjaft, fillova t\u00eb gjuaj shtrigat, edhe nga malet tona. Por, k\u00ebto ju nuk i besoni! Mir\u00eb shum\u00eb! Mos i besoni, sepse nuk i dini. Ju dini, ashtu \u00e7ka dihet. E le t\u00eb dihet edhe \u00e7ka e pranojn\u00eb shkencat!…<\/p>\n

5). P\u00ebrp\u00eblitja e pest\u00eb: misteri i shkencave t\u00eb mia<\/strong><\/p>\n

Sa dit\u00eb e net\u00eb kalojn\u00eb k\u00ebshtu, duke u menduar, se \u00e7ka \u00ebsht\u00eb relevante p\u00ebr t`ua treguar juve dhe \u00e7ka nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb relevante. Meq\u00eb i besoni shkencat, po u them se edhe shkencat m\u00eb ecnin shum\u00eb mir\u00eb, si matematika, poashtu fizika, biologjia e kimia. Krahas k\u00ebtyre shkencave, pos gjuh\u00ebs e shkrimit t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb, kisha lindur si \u201cluft\u00ebtar\u00eb\u201d<\/em>, me plisin e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb t\u00eb Bab\u00ebs Faj\u00eb (Martaneshit) dhe rrobat e tij t\u00eb gjeneralit, i hypur mbi micin e Bab\u00ebs Dan\u00eb. \u201cMic\u201d<\/em> e thirrte Baba Dan\u00eb kalin e vet t\u00eb shpejt\u00eb, pak m\u00eb t\u00eb vog\u00ebl se sa kuajt e tjer\u00eb; por Baba Uk\u00eb, kur pinte n\u00eb sof\u00ebr me f\u00ebmij\u00eb (Ai ishte trupmadh, e me shpirt t\u00eb mir\u00eb, sa nuk ndahej prej f\u00ebmij\u00ebve!)<\/em>, thirrte me t\u00ebr\u00eb qenien e tij: \u201cOh, ku t\u00eb kam o Baba Faj\u00eb, bre!\u201d<\/em>. Ne, nuk e dinim t\u00ebr\u00eb historin\u00eb e tij, vet\u00ebm se ishte vrar\u00eb pabesisht, duke hyr\u00eb n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi t\u00eb vet. E dinim se ai ishte gjenerali i madh i ushtris\u00eb s\u00eb sapo t\u00eb krijuar t\u00eb kombit shqiptar! Kaq e dinim!…<\/p>\n

Nejse! Tu tregoj k\u00ebsi gj\u00ebrash, ju duken p\u00ebrralla! Por, t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn \u00ebnd\u00ebrr e kishin par\u00eb tre veta, p\u00ebr nj\u00eb nat\u00eb, para se t\u00eb lindi un\u00eb, me at\u00eb \u201cmic\u201d<\/em>, gjeneral me rroba, e plis t\u00eb bardh\u00eb t\u00eb Bab\u00ebs Faj\u00eb. Kjo nuk do tjet\u00ebr shpjegim, pos se u kisha th\u00ebn\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb treve, bab\u00ebs, n\u00ebn\u00ebs dhe dad\u00ebs Raz\u00eb, t\u00eb nj\u00ebjtat gj\u00ebra:<\/p>\n

\u201cZgjohuni ju, se po vij un\u00eb pa asnj\u00eb dhimbje, n\u00eb ora 09:30, e ju i keni burrat p\u00ebr drek\u00eb, dhe b\u00ebni ju atyre shum\u00eb t\u00eb fala prej meje! T\u00eb b\u00ebhen gati p\u00ebr detyr\u00ebn e p\u00ebrbashk\u00ebt q\u00eb e kemi p\u00ebr Atdheun, se un\u00eb po vi, p\u00ebr ta kryer!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

At\u00eb dit\u00eb, kishte baba im argat\u00eb. N\u00eb ora 10:00 kthehej dreka. E n\u00ebna ime ua qiti nj\u00eb fli, q\u00eb b\u00ebhet therror p\u00ebr te, pra quhet fli, sepse \u00ebsht\u00eb v\u00ebshtir\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebhet, me zjarr e pet\u00eb p\u00ebr pet\u00eb, duke u hedhur pak bylmet me maz\u00eb e n\u00eb \u00e7do flet\u00eb t\u00eb pet\u00ebs, sipas dialektit ton\u00eb \u201ce m\u00ebstit\u00eb flin\u00eb\u201d<\/em>, n\u00ebp\u00ebr zjarr, e n\u00eb nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb, m\u00eb lind\u00ebn sh\u00ebndosh e mir\u00eb dhe nuk qaj, por qesh. M\u00eb lan\u00eb e m\u00eb p\u00ebshtjell\u00eb, m\u00eb jep pak gji, pastaj e nd\u00ebrron prap\u00eb dad\u00ebn Raz\u00eb nga puna. E kur e d\u00ebrgoi buk\u00ebn e mjalt\u00ebn, t\u00eb cil\u00ebn do ta ngjyenin nga pak, sepse ajo i zinte m\u00eb tep\u00ebr se rakia e vena, e disave q\u00eb nuk mund ta merrnin mjalt\u00ebn, pat\u00ebn kos e djath, sa t\u00eb duash, n\u00ebna u q\u00ebndroi pran\u00eb me bakallin e ujit e got\u00ebn n\u00eb dor\u00eb, gaditu, n\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00eb, edhe pse ata i than\u00eb se mund t\u00eb shkonte!<\/p>\n

Dikur ajo u drejtohet:<\/p>\n

\u201cA \u00ebsht\u00eb buka n\u00eb rregull, o Ibish?! A mungon ndonj\u00eb gj\u00eb?\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Ai i shikoi t\u00eb gjitha dhe pastaj asaj i tha se asgj\u00eb nuk mugonte. Ishte n\u00eb rregull, e mund t\u00eb shkonte. Mund ta thirrte qik\u00ebn, sa p\u00ebr uj\u00eb.<\/p>\n

\u201cJo, jo, mbeta p\u00ebr nj\u00eb fjal\u00eb goje k\u00ebtu, e po ua them, vet\u00ebm q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00eb d\u00ebgjoni. Myzhde Ibish Sadrija, se t\u00eb ka lind\u00eb djali, si\u00e7 e kemi par\u00eb sonte n\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebrr! N\u00eb vend se t\u00eb qaj, ai djal\u00eb ka qesh\u00eb! \u00cbsht\u00eb si drita! E kam amanet t`u them burrave, p\u00ebrgaditnu p\u00ebr atdhe, se gjenerali q\u00eb e kem pa tre vet\u00eb at\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebrr, me at\u00eb plis t\u00eb bardh\u00eb, n\u00eb kalin e Bab\u00ebs Dan\u00eb, erdhi n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb jet\u00eb, pa asnj\u00eb t\u00eb keqe! U b\u00ebn t\u00eb fala, t\u00eb gjithe juve! A e more vesh, o Ibish?!\u201d<\/em> \u2013 thot\u00eb ajo dhe me z\u00eb t\u00eb lart\u00eb, q\u00eb edhe lisat ta nd\u00ebgjojn\u00eb. Babai im e uli kok\u00ebn, plot buzagas.<\/p>\n

Disa m\u00eb kishin pritur me g\u00ebzim, disa me thetra, apo me \u201chm\u201d<\/em>. K\u00ebshtu i dallonte edhe baba, por nuk u tha atyre asgj\u00eb, pos gruas s\u00eb tij:<\/p>\n

\u201cArgatin m\u00eb t\u00eb madh, n\u00eb t\u00ebr\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb jet\u00eb ton\u00ebn, e paske b\u00ebr\u00eb ti, o fisnike! E faleminderit shum\u00eb prej teje! Sepse, me at\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebrr apo serjan\u00eb, kam qen\u00eb pa fjal\u00eb, deri m\u00eb tani! T\u00eb lumt\u00eb, o fisnike, se edhe mua m\u00eb \u00e7lirove!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Nuk po shkoj m\u00eb tutje! Ka d\u00ebshmitar\u00eb sa t\u00eb duash! Kur u rrita, shpirti im e dinte se do t\u00eb plas\u00eb lufta n\u00eb trojet tona dhe un\u00eb p\u00ebrpiqesa q\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebj edhe eksperimente, qoft\u00eb me arm\u00eb t\u00eb drurit e n\u00ebp\u00ebr loj\u00ebra t\u00eb f\u00ebmijve, por edhe t\u00eb \u201cbombave\u201d<\/em> dhe t\u00eb \u201ceksplozivit\u201d<\/em>, q\u00eb quheshim k\u00ebshtu, vet\u00ebm p\u00ebr f\u00ebmij\u00eb.<\/p>\n

U p\u00ebrpoq\u00ebn 10 her\u00eb t\u00eb ma marrin jet\u00ebn, e nj\u00ebmij\u00eb forma t\u00eb tjera nuk i lan\u00eb pa p\u00ebrdorur, q\u00eb prej f\u00ebmij\u00ebsiris\u00eb. Po, po. Po ua tregoj nj\u00eb ndodhi kulminante e t\u00eb jasht\u00ebzakonshme, sepse m\u00eb ndodhi edhe nj\u00eb gj\u00eb. Prej k\u00ebsaj \u201cngjarje\u201d<\/em> mu kthye babai im kund\u00ebr. Nuk e harroj! Kush e ktheu bab\u00ebn tim kund\u00ebr meje, nuk e di! Ndoshta, nga rrethi i tij apo fetar\u00eb, ose rrethi tjet\u00ebr, q\u00eb nuk e di…<\/p>\n

I kisha mbledhur t\u00eb gjith\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebt: v\u00ebllez\u00ebrit e motrat; f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e axh\u00ebs Selim dhe t\u00eb tjer\u00eb. I organizova mir\u00eb e mir\u00eb! Ishin n\u00eb disciplin\u00eb! Kur flitsha un\u00eb, t\u00eb gjith\u00eb m\u00eb nd\u00ebgjonin! Kur t`u ipja komand\u00eb, do t\u00eb ruheshin kaq metra e do t\u00eb ishin t\u00eb futur n\u00eb strehim. I kisha llogaritur un\u00eb m\u00eb par\u00eb, p\u00ebr secilin objekt t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb t\u00eb bahqes dhe t\u00eb sht\u00ebpis\u00eb. I kisha caktuar p\u00ebr secilin nga nj\u00eb vend t\u00eb tyre. Un\u00eb, e kisha vendin m\u00eb af\u00ebrm t\u00eb gjuajtjes.<\/p>\n

Ishte kthesa e posht\u00eb e bahqes son\u00eb, n\u00eb t\u00eb cil\u00ebn do ta hidhja ate, q\u00eb ishte si granata. Pra ishte nj\u00eb shishe dy lit\u00ebrshe, me xham t\u00eb trash\u00eb.<\/p>\n

E kisha mbushur me gur\u00eb t\u00eb vegj\u00ebl t\u00eb g\u00eblqeres s\u00eb pashtymur dhe e dija sa minuta i nevojitej asaj granate t\u00eb thithte ujin e t\u00eb eksplodoj\u00eb. Kur e hodha n\u00eb bar\u00eb dhe u strehuam t\u00eb gjith\u00eb, kaluan aq minuta sa t\u00eb p\u00eblciste ajo. Prita pak, e nuk ndodhi. Mendoja se tapa nuk ishte vendosur aq mir\u00eb, e kishte l\u00ebshuar brenda ajrin dhe e kishte rrjedhur ujin, prandaj kishte nevoj\u00eb q\u00eb ta shoh\u00eb. Ne, e kishim pran\u00eb edhe nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr, dhe n\u00eb rast nevoje do ta provonim.<\/p>\n

Kur u ngrita, v\u00ebllai im dhe t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt u ngrit\u00ebn, por u ktheva edhe nj\u00ebher\u00eb dhe u b\u00ebrtita shum\u00eb, sepse askush nuk guxonte t`i l\u00ebshoj\u00eb strehimet e veta! U kthva ngadal\u00eb te granata e jon\u00eb. Ajo p\u00eblsiti, pasiu afrova: trak-trak! Un\u00eb e ktheva kok\u00ebn n\u00eb krahun e djatht\u00eb dhe u p\u00ebrpoqa t`a mbuloj me krahun tim t\u00eb majt\u00eb, dhe, derisa u p\u00ebrpoqa, m\u00eb godit\u00ebn spirrat e shishes s\u00eb xhamit, n\u00eb kok\u00eb e anash syrit t\u00eb majt\u00eb. Kishte aq shum\u00eb spirra!…<\/p>\n

M\u00eb mbuloj gjaku! U \u00e7mend\u00ebn edhe f\u00ebmij\u00ebt! E thirr\u00ebn babain e pastaj m\u00eb d\u00ebrguan n\u00eb ambullant\u00eb e n\u00eb Gjakov\u00eb, te operatori, pa me prekur…<\/p>\n

Shkurt, mi hoqi t\u00eb gjitha spirrat e xhamit p\u00ebrskaj syrit, me durim. Nuk e di cili operator i ri ishte, por me kujdes mi hjeku t\u00eb gjitha e duke mos folur shum\u00eb. M\u00eb s\u00eb v\u00ebshtiri, ishte rreth syrit t\u00eb majt\u00eb. Ishin shum\u00eb spirra…<\/p>\n

E shikoj edhe syrin me rentgen, madje shum\u00eb gjat\u00eb! Pastaj, shtoj me z\u00eb:<\/p>\n

\u201cMe sa di un\u00eb, t\u00eb gjitha spirrat e xhamit, i kam hequr! Vet\u00ebm se t\u00eb mos m\u00eb provoj\u00eb tjera her\u00eb me k\u00ebso gj\u00ebrash, se kam p\u00ebr ta rrahur edhe un\u00eb, deri sa t\u00eb lodhet! A ndjeve, apo jo, o baca Ibish?! Tani, po ia lidhi varr\u00ebt, se u lodha! Ruaje edhe ti, k\u00ebt\u00eb djal\u00eb, se e l\u00ebn\u00eb a sy ose tjet\u00ebr!\u201d<\/em> \u2013 i tha ai bab\u00ebs, q\u00eb ishte pak m\u00eb larg\u00eb. Ku e di un\u00eb se cili ishte! Por, bab\u00ebn e njihke. I tha \u201cBaca Ibish\u201d<\/em>! Baba u p\u00ebrgjegj, sepse deri at\u00ebher\u00eb, vetem qet\u00ebsin\u00eb e mban\u00ebte:<\/p>\n

\u201cQebesa, nuk t\u00eb ka ndodh\u00eb tjet\u00ebr her\u00eb, se dhjet\u00eb thupra thane po i ruaj! E kam rreh qebesa, ve\u00e7 sa t\u00eb shnoshet! E le t\u00eb b\u00ebj\u00eb luft\u00eb me mua e me granata dore sa t\u00eb doj\u00eb, sepse ka me pa \u00e7ka i del! Edhe juve u lodha, por edhe argati e dita na humbi! Le ta mbaj\u00eb mir\u00eb n\u00eb mendje, djali i im, k\u00ebto q\u00eb ia thash\u00eb!!\u201d…<\/em><\/p>\n

Prej at\u00ebher\u00eb i kam parr\u00eb thuprat thane, t\u00eb ruajtuara, mbi \u00e7ivillak. Ato ishin t\u00eb bab\u00ebs! Kush guxonte t`i prek\u00eb, prej t\u00eb nes\u00ebrmes e m\u00eb tutje! I shikoja prej teshave t\u00eb shtruara! M\u00eb duket se e ndjej\u00eb dhembjen e tyre t\u00eb fresk\u00ebt, edhe sot. I preku ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00ebt e parapanic\u00ebn, se m\u00eb duket se i nd\u00ebgjoj edhe ato! Baba nuk m\u00eb la as t\u00eb nd\u00ebrtoj e as q\u00eb t\u00eb planifikoj ndonj\u00eb gj\u00eb, psh. podrumin, n\u00ebn sht\u00ebpi, me rrug\u00eb, n\u00ebn tok\u00eb e deri n\u00ebn seq, ku ajo nuk shihej, posht\u00eb e n\u00eb livadh apo n\u00eb ar\u00eb. K\u00ebshtu e zuri edhe viti 1981…<\/p>\n

6). P\u00ebrp\u00eblitja e gjasht\u00eb: ikje nga p\u00ebrndjekjet e dhun\u00ebs<\/strong><\/p>\n

Q\u00eb n\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebri, m\u00eb ishin veshur t\u00eb ligat e pushtetit t\u00eb ish-Jugosllavis\u00eb, her\u00ebt, n\u00ebp\u00ebr t\u00eb gjitha flukamat e f\u00ebmij\u00ebris\u00eb. Ishin t\u00eb lidhur njer\u00ebz t\u00eb besimit sunit e sheit; ishin t\u00eb lidhur gjysma e fshatar\u00ebve; ishim t\u00eb lidhur edhe fqinj\u00ebt tan\u00eb, dhe aq sa m\u00eb duhet po e them. Nj\u00ebri nga fqinjet e mi t\u00eb par\u00eb m\u00eb kishte rrahur si f\u00ebmij\u00eb, pa i b\u00ebr\u00eb asnj\u00eb faj; tjetri, e kishte m\u00ebsuar djalin e vet t\u00eb madh, i cili ishte mbi tet\u00ebmb\u00ebdhjet\u00eb vje\u00e7, t\u00eb gjuante papritur me nj\u00eb guri t\u00eb madh, prej vorreve, direkt e n\u00eb kok\u00eb, e m\u00eb kishte lar\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00ebrin n\u00eb gjak, t\u00eb cilit ia kishte kthyer gurin sa dora me t\u00eb rrahura babai im, por pa gjak, deri te babai i vet. T\u00eb shumt\u00ebn, ua kthente ndojnj\u00ebrit edhe me britma.<\/p>\n

M\u00eb thoshte: \u201cKujdesu, more bir! A po e sheh sa t\u00eb duan ty fqinj\u00ebt, sepse kush\u00ebrinjt\u00eb tan\u00eb kan\u00eb ikur e shkuar n\u00eb Loxh\u00eb! Nuk mund q\u00eb t\u00eb ruaj vet\u00ebm ty, sepse duhet buk\u00eb, shati e kos\u00eb! Ruaju vet\u00eb nga pak, hedi! Hapi syt\u00eb!…\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Nuk duronte nj\u00eb pet\u00eb n\u00eb \u00e7\u00ebshtjen ton\u00eb e nuk duronte as g\u00ebnjeshtra. Ta g\u00ebnjeje ate, sikur t\u00eb p\u00ebrlante e keqja! Shkurt, sikur t\u00eb merrte djalli p\u00ebrpara! M\u00eb keq e kishe me te, se me Zotin e Madh. Kur g\u00ebnjeje, t\u00eb thoshte shkurt:<\/p>\n

\u201cA po fol shqip, a po fol turqisht? Turku me rrena e me dhun\u00eb e ka, nd\u00ebrsa shqiptari e ka pa\u00e7 e me drejt\u00ebsi!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Nisu prej lagjes son\u00eb e deri n\u00eb fshat kishte asi \u201ct\u00eb njohur\u201d<\/em>, q\u00eb shiteshin se i kemi \u201cn\u00eb lidhje e pas lidhjeve\u201d<\/em>, por baba i njihte. Un\u00eb i veshesha bab\u00ebs, i rrija sipas zakonit e m\u00ebsimeve t\u00eb tij. Ai fliste rrall\u00eb, e ti duhet t\u00eb nd\u00ebgjoje, se t\u00eb flak\u00ebronte shuplaka. Nuk fliste dy her\u00eb, sepse ishe n\u00eb nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi shqiptare:<\/p>\n

\u201cDy her\u00eb folet n\u00eb mulli, e k\u00ebtu \u00ebsht\u00eb sht\u00ebpi!\u201d<\/em> \u2013 thoshte prerazi shpesh ai.<\/p>\n

T\u00eb tregonte p\u00ebr t\u00eb gjitha familjet, se kujt duhet t`i ruhesh dhe prej \u00e7kafit duhet t\u00eb ruheshe. U fliste t\u00eb gjith\u00ebve, por e kishte mendjen e vet! Ua thoshte tro\u00e7, kur e donte rasti, e n\u00eb num\u00ebr nuk i binin, se ishte dilpomat pa shkoll\u00eb. Por, der\u00ebn e oborrit e mbante gjithnj\u00eb t\u00eb mbyllur. Kurr\u00eb nuk ishte e hapur. Kur ndonj\u00ebri e pyeste, pse v\u00eblla e mbyll der\u00ebn, i thoshte prerazi:<\/p>\n

\u201cPse, a mos mendove se k\u00ebtu \u00ebsht\u00eb Hani i Ka\u00e7it, a? Thirr, e nese jemi k\u00ebtu, dikush t\u00eb pyet e p\u00ebrgjigjesh! Nuk jam pa askend, dhe jam sht\u00ebpi e Zotit!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Pra, \u00e7do nj\u00ebri q\u00eb vinte, duhet t\u00eb thoshte se jam filani, e dua filanin, p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb pun\u00eb. Ose, me ka d\u00ebrguar filani. Nuk gj\u00ebnte pushteti der\u00eb t\u00eb hapur n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi ton\u00ebn, t\u00eb rrethuar me gardh kurore. E nuk kishte tjet\u00ebr…<\/p>\n

\u00c7do nj\u00ebrit ia jepte nj\u00ebfar\u00eb p\u00ebrgjigje t\u00eb mir\u00eb. Nj\u00ebrin po e tregoj, se nuk m\u00eb ipet rasti. \u00cbsht\u00eb Nezir Deliaj. Ishte sht\u00ebpi e madhe, mikprit\u00ebse p\u00ebr t\u00eb gjith\u00eb, i kamur, por edhe t\u00eb pushtetit. Nj\u00eb nat\u00eb, padijen e askujt, kishte ardhur n\u00eb konak t\u00eb tij Vojo Popoviqi, prej Beogradit, n\u00ebp\u00ebr terr e kishte shkuar prapa n\u00ebp\u00ebr terr. Ia kishte dh\u00ebn\u00eb nj\u00eb pushk\u00eb t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb e fillikat atij. Dual pak baba nat\u00ebn, dhe si ka shkuar aq af\u00ebr, t\u00eb d\u00ebgjoj\u00eb t\u00eb gjitha \u00e7ka i ka th\u00ebn\u00eb Voja, nuk e dim\u00eb, por nat\u00ebn ishte si i \u00e7mendur! Ne, nuk guxonim q\u00eb t`i flisnim e as nuk na tregonte \u00e7ka kishte.<\/p>\n

T\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen, t\u00eb dy pal\u00ebt, kishim argat: n\u00eb ar\u00ebn ton\u00eb u b\u00ebn\u00eb 13 argat\u00eb, e n\u00eb ar\u00ebn p\u00ebrskaj nesh, te Nezir Deliaj, u b\u00ebn\u00eb 17 argat\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Baba turfullonte. Pran\u00eb drek\u00ebs, ia nisi k\u00ebng\u00ebs, me z\u00eb t\u00eb madh:<\/p>\n

\u201cA po merr vesh, o Nezir Delija,
\n<\/em>mush-e zbraz me kok\u00ebrdhija,
\n<\/em>e mos e mush pra me barut
\n<\/em>se shpin\u00eb tande e bane mut!\u201d [2]<\/strong><\/a>)<\/em><\/p>\n

Nuk e k\u00ebndoi vet\u00ebm nj\u00ebher\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb k\u00ebng\u00eb, por disa her\u00eb, radhazi. Argat\u00ebt tan\u00eb shukatnin, e argat\u00ebt e atij pyesnin se \u00e7ka do t\u00eb thot\u00eb ai, sepse na \u00e7uditi.<\/p>\n

Ia dha p\u00ebrgjigjen si paralajm\u00ebrim, shpiunit t\u00eb Serbis\u00eb. E kishim af\u00ebr! Por edhe t\u00eb tjer\u00eb! Babai nuk i frigohej askujt e as burgut. N\u00eb burg kishte qen\u00eb, por prap\u00eb kishte dalur, q\u00eb andej. E thirrnin: Dera e Kapu\u00e7 Hekrit. Disa pas shpinde, q\u00eb t\u00eb mos e nd\u00ebgjonim ne, thoshin: Dera e Kolosh\u00ebve! Kola ishte i pari jon\u00eb, por dera e Kapu\u00e7 Hekrit i kishte mbetur nga luft\u00ebrat e pa fund kund\u00ebr tur\u00e7\u00ebve, serb\u00ebve e malazez\u00ebve…<\/p>\n

Nj\u00ebrit nuk mund\u00ebm q\u00eb \u201ct`ia mbyllnim der\u00ebn\u201d<\/em>, edhe pse e dinim pun\u00ebn e tij. Ai vinte me rroba t\u00eb milicis\u00eb. E thirrte \u201cmotr\u00ebn\u201d<\/em> e vet, e jo babain.<\/p>\n

Shpesh i thoshte atij:<\/p>\n

\u201cPuno, puno ndaj d\u00ebrras\u00eb, se erdha t\u00eb rri me motr\u00ebn teme! Ti, rri ma mir\u00eb andej, se sa me qar\u00eb d\u00ebrrasa me ne!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Pra, i tregonte se ai nuk ishte i r\u00ebndomt\u00eb dhe i thoshte tro\u00e7 dhe nuk e pati aspak p\u00ebr \u201cfije e p\u00ebr p\u00e9\u201d<\/em>! Ishte Zekiqi. At\u00eb \u201cqi\u201d<\/em>-n\u00eb e gjat\u00eb, ia kishte endja t`ia zgjaste vetvetes, sepse ishte Zeka. Kjo nuk i maftonte, pa e zgjatur pak!<\/p>\n

P\u00ebr mua, kishin vjellur gjithfar\u00eb fjal\u00ebsh t\u00eb potershme. Fjal\u00ebt qen\u00eb p\u00ebrhapur kudo, sepse qe veshur \u201cmilic\u201d<\/em>. E keqja ishte e ngjitur me p\u00ebrdhun\u00eb, midis trupit. E turbullonte ujin, kur nuk e prisje. Po i ruhesha atij \u201cmilici\u201d<\/em>, sikurse t\u00eb gjith\u00eb UDB-s\u00eb. Ai, i b\u00ebnte pun\u00ebt e liga. Vinte ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb edhe n\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb ton\u00eb me arm\u00eb t\u00eb zjarrit, sikurse do t\u00eb gjuaj laraskat n\u00eb malet p\u00ebr rreth, q\u00eb ta shohin e ta ndjejn\u00eb fqinj\u00ebt, vet\u00ebm se b\u00ebnte zhurm\u00eb, gjoja p\u00ebr t\u00eb treguar \u201cdashurin\u00eb\u201d<\/em> e tij t\u00eb madhe p\u00ebr \u201cmotr\u00ebn\u201d<\/em>e tij. Milici ishte djal\u00eb i kush\u00ebrinj\u00ebve t\u00eb larg\u00ebt me loken time e nuk e ndjenjte kurr\u00ebfar\u00eb respekti, sepse nuk e kishte mot\u00ebr, as djal\u00eb i mixh\u00ebs nuk ishte! P\u00ebrkundrazi! Po vinte t\u00eb m\u00eb gjurmoj\u00eb mua dhe t\u00eb m\u00eb ofendoj\u00eb, mu te prind\u00ebrit e familja e gj\u00ebr\u00eb. M\u00eb gjurmonte e m\u00eb distancont\u00eb rrept\u00ebsisht!<\/p>\n

Prore thoshte ai: \u201cH\u00eb\u00eb! \u00c7ka po lexon ky djal\u00eb?! Po d\u00ebshiroj q\u00eb ta di, sepse, nj\u00eb dit\u00eb, do t\u00eb \u00e7mendet nga librat!\u201d<\/em>. Nuk ia lejonte familja ime, sepse shitej \u201csi mysafir\u201d<\/em>, t\u00eb thoshte trup: do t\u00eb arrestohet<\/strong>, n\u00eb vend se \u201cdo t\u00eb \u00e7mendej\u201d<\/em>…<\/p>\n

K\u00ebshtu, pik\u00ebpamjet tona na ndanin, si dy pika t\u00eb nj\u00eb segmenti, e t\u00eb v\u00ebna kund\u00ebr nj\u00ebra tjetr\u00ebs. Lindjet tona natyrale nuk kemi pasur mund\u00ebsi q\u00eb t`i ndryshojm\u00eb, sepse lindja \u00ebsht\u00eb e lidhur me Zotin e nuk ekziston kurr\u00ebfar\u00eb mund\u00ebsie q\u00eb t`i \u201czgjedhnim\u201d<\/em> prej fatit. Ajo \u00ebsht\u00eb thjesht nj\u00eb fat n\u00eb fatkeq\u00ebsi apo nj\u00eb fatkeq\u00ebsi n\u00eb fat, e t\u00eb lidhura me nj\u00ebra tjetr\u00ebn.<\/p>\n

N\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb pik\u00eb, populli e b\u00ebnte nj\u00eb gabim t\u00eb pafalsh\u00ebm. K\u00ebtu, ishte fjala p\u00ebr t\u00eb Lig\u00ebn, e cila d\u00ebp\u00ebrtonte edhe n\u00eb familjet m\u00eb t\u00eb zgjedhura. Pushteti serbo-sllav nuk vepronte pa planifikim. E lidhte lindjen me rast\u00ebsin\u00eb, por rast\u00ebsia \u00ebsht\u00eb n\u00eb momentet e caktuara, jo p\u00ebr lindjet e rritjet. P.sh. me rritjen e nj\u00eb jetimi mund t\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrvet\u00ebsonte e Liga ose t\u00eb t\u00eb gllab\u00ebronte p\u00ebrfundimisht…<\/p>\n

N\u00eb fakt, pjesa d\u00ebrmuese e familjeve tona jan\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrziera: nj\u00ebri \u00ebsht\u00eb veg\u00ebl e pushteteve, e tjetri \u00ebsht\u00eb veprimtar kund\u00ebr pushteteve. Nga pik\u00ebpamjet b\u00ebhen pushetet dhe pik\u00ebpamjet i ndajn\u00eb njer\u00ebzit. Mobilizohen forcat brenda pik\u00ebpamjeve: pro pushtetit apo kund\u00ebr pushtetit. Ndarja fillon q\u00eb k\u00ebtu!…<\/p>\n

Pra, po i biem shkurt: f\u00ebmij\u00ebria ishte nj\u00eb litar i fort\u00eb dhe i gjat\u00eb, q\u00eb p\u00ebrpiqej t\u00eb na lidhte e t\u00eb na ngrehte sa andej e k\u00ebndej, por forca e jon\u00eb shpirt\u00ebrore ishte shum\u00eb m\u00eb fuqishme, se sa lidhjet! I k\u00ebpuste, \u00e7do her\u00eb!…<\/p>\n

N\u00eb fund, nuk m\u00eb mbet gj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr, pos rrug\u00ebve t\u00eb m\u00ebrgat\u00ebs sime t\u00eb v\u00ebshtir\u00eb!<\/p>\n

\u201cTek bren\u00eb miza hekur!\u201d<\/em> \u2013 si thoshte babai, ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb…<\/p>\n

7). P\u00ebrp\u00eblitja e fundit: misticizmi i fjal\u00ebve <\/strong><\/p>\n

N\u00eb p\u00ebrp\u00eblitjen ton\u00eb t\u00eb fundit, t\u00eb k\u00ebtij rr\u00ebfimi, na kan\u00eb mbetur vet\u00ebm pak fjal\u00eb p\u00ebr t`i shkruar. P\u00ebr misticizmin e f\u00ebmijve, nuk mund t`u shpjegoj t\u00eb gjitha gj\u00ebrat. Jan\u00eb t\u00eb vegj\u00ebl dhe i ruan p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb shkak fuqia misterioze, e cila nuk duket nga kjo bot\u00eb, por mund t\u00eb merret me mend. Dikush e personfikon me Zotin e Madh e t\u00eb Gjith\u00ebdijsh\u00ebm, etj. T\u00eb m\u00ebdhenjt\u00eb, n\u00eb qoft\u00eb se jan\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb ngritur, ia l\u00ebn\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb ruajtje t\u00eb f\u00ebmijve energjive m\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebdha. Njeriu e ka si detyr\u00eb q\u00eb t`i ruaj\u00eb vet\u00eb t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt, t\u00eb vet\u00ebt, t\u00eb mirt\u00eb, p\u00ebr aq sa kan\u00eb forc\u00eb!…<\/p>\n

P\u00ebr misticizmin e f\u00ebmijve, neve na mungojn\u00eb fjal\u00ebt. P\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb \u00e7\u00ebshtje nuk mund t\u00eb flitet, pos n\u00ebse f\u00ebmij\u00ebt jan\u00eb n\u00eb dor\u00eb t\u00eb Zotit t\u00eb Madh e t\u00eb mir\u00eb, i ruan Zoti i Madh deri n\u00eb mosh\u00ebn e pjekuris\u00eb. T\u00eb gjith\u00eb jan\u00eb t\u00eb dedikuar t\u00eb k\u00ebqijve, t\u00eb bijve t\u00eb Djallit, q\u00eb t`i d\u00ebmtojn\u00eb, sidomos femrat, dhe t`i kthejn\u00eb n\u00eb an\u00ebn e kund\u00ebrt t\u00eb Zotrave. E t\u00eb gjith\u00eb jan\u00eb nga pak mistik, disa p\u00ebr t\u00eb mir\u00eb e disa t\u00eb tjer\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb lig\u00eb. Kufiri i par\u00eb i tyre \u00ebsht\u00eb vet\u00eb g\u00ebnjeshtra!…<\/p>\n

Sa m\u00eb p\u00ebrket mua, me mendjen time t\u00eb at\u00ebhershme, them se njer\u00ebzit e fshehnin nga pak jet\u00ebn e tyre dhe i mbajn\u00eb fsheht\u00eb ve\u00e7antit\u00eb. Jeta nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb e r\u00ebndomt\u00eb, por shum\u00eb e komplikuar! E mira dhe e keqja nuk kan\u00eb kufi, por njeriu i ndan\u00eb n\u00eb vetvete, ndon\u00ebse bashk\u00ebjeton me te aq af\u00ebr, m\u00eb af\u00ebr se sa k\u00ebmisha n\u00eb trup. Sa hap e mbyll syt\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrlante e keqja!…<\/p>\n

Termat e shumta t\u00eb k\u00ebtyre nuk i din\u00eb fshatar\u00ebt e njer\u00ebzit e r\u00ebndomt\u00eb, por kufirin n\u00eb mes t\u00eb keqes dhe t\u00eb mir\u00ebs; kufirin n\u00eb mes t\u00eb s\u00eb drejt\u00ebs e t\u00eb s\u00eb pa- drejt\u00ebs; t\u00eb bukur\u00ebs e t\u00eb sh\u00ebmtuar\u00ebs; t\u00eb g\u00ebnjeshtr\u00ebs e t\u00eb s\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00ebs; t\u00eb vij\u00ebs s\u00eb drejt\u00eb e t\u00eb vij\u00ebs s\u00eb shtremb\u00ebt, etj. i m\u00ebsonim p\u00ebrher\u00eb. Babai thoshte:<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00c7ka nuk ta do shpirti yt q\u00eb t\u00eb ta b\u00ebj\u00eb ty dikush, mos ia b\u00eb ti askujt!!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Kjo ishte masa e par\u00eb. N\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00ebn rreshtoheshe tek t\u00eb mir\u00ebt dhe ruheshe kudo nga e keqja, nga g\u00ebnjeshtra, nga e padrejta, nga \u00e7do gj\u00eb jo e mir\u00eb, dhe do t\u00eb vuaje e vuaje, ndonj\u00ebri t\u00eb gjith\u00eb jet\u00ebn e tij, por n\u00eb fund t\u00eb fundit, e fitoje p\u00ebrpjekjen t\u00ebnde p\u00ebr t\u00eb mir\u00eb dhe i kishe lar\u00eb t\u00eb gjitha borgjet e k\u00ebsaj jete!<\/p>\n

E dinin t\u00eb gjith\u00eb se nj\u00eb fuqi e madhe i kishte sjellur n\u00eb jet\u00eb p\u00ebrmes njeriut dhe ishin gj\u00ebra q\u00eb mirreshin vesh me nj\u00ebri tjetrin, me an\u00eb t\u00eb gjuh\u00ebs. E nj\u00eb gj\u00eb mund ta them: familjet ishin t\u00eb shenjta! Pushteti serbo-jugosllav p\u00ebrpiqej q\u00eb t`i d\u00ebmtoj\u00eb familjet dhe k\u00ebt\u00eb zingjir t\u00eb shenjt\u00eb e d\u00ebmtonin, k\u00ebputnin hallkat e tij. Psikologjin\u00eb e shqiptar\u00ebve e njihnin. Vet\u00ebm k\u00ebshtu ata mund t\u00eb sundonin me k\u00ebt\u00eb popull, n\u00eb qoft\u00eb se nuk mund ta skllav\u00ebrojn\u00eb ose ta shkat\u00ebrrojn\u00eb. E gj\u00ebnin kudo nga nj\u00eb dob\u00ebsi psikologjike dhe e rrisnin, sa e p\u00ebrdornin.<\/p>\n

Mezi mbahej me nder\u00eb familja e jon\u00eb! Kishte varf\u00ebri, por past\u00ebrti! Rrobet i harrnonte n\u00ebna, por edhe me harrna i pastronte dhe i hekuroste ajo. Buk\u00ebn e kishim kallamoqe, madje mis\u00ebr shum\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb, t\u00eb ruajtur me fanatiz\u00ebn prej gjysh\u00ebrve tan\u00eb, n\u00eb koh\u00eb krize te halla Shkurt\u00eb, e t\u00eb bluar \u201ct\u00eb imt\u00eb e t\u00eb eg\u00ebr\u201d<\/em>, sepse ma p\u00ebrcjelli n\u00ebp\u00ebr mullinj\u00eb, fshehtas e dit\u00ebn, baba im. Ky ishe kufiri q\u00eb e dinim si bluhet misri e nuk ishte vet\u00ebm i imt\u00eb, sepse kur k\u00ebshtu gatuhej mezi hahej. I joni, t\u00eb shkrihej n\u00eb goj\u00eb, that\u00eb ose me zarzavateve, si gjell\u00eb…<\/p>\n

Neve, na u pat\u00ebn l\u00ebshur mbi kurriz t\u00eb lig\u00ebt, kudo, prej lagjes son\u00eb e prej fshatit, por kishte ndonj\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb ose pak m\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb. E Baba Uk\u00eb, q\u00ebndronte pran\u00eb tij, n\u00eb \u00e7do rrethan\u00eb t\u00eb vuajtjeve, edhe Babaloku, e ndojn\u00eb mik.<\/p>\n

Po p\u00ebrpiqeshin q\u00eb t`ia merrnin tok\u00ebn e vet me dredhi e me dhun\u00eb, sa edhe ai u lodh dhe u merzit\u00eb. Baba Uk\u00eb nguli k\u00ebmb\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb mos e l\u00ebshonte tok\u00ebn e vet! Aty, duhej t\u00eb q\u00ebndronte, n\u00eb tok\u00ebn e t\u00eb par\u00ebve! E kujtoj, si f\u00ebmij\u00eb, kado q\u00eb t\u00eb ishte ai, vinte tek \u201ct\u00eb dashurit f\u00ebmij\u00eb\u201d<\/em>. Na donte dhe e donim!<\/p>\n

N\u00eb gjysm\u00eb t\u00eb nat\u00ebs e merrte me vete nan\u00ebn Tim\u00eb prej sht\u00ebpis\u00eb s\u00eb tyre dhe vinin k\u00ebmb\u00eb p\u00ebrmes Pllanikut, sepse e dinte pa i treguar askush se un\u00eb e kisha marr\u00eb nj\u00eb flam\u00eb apo kisha zjarrmi!…<\/p>\n

Edhe nj\u00eb gj\u00eb po e them k\u00ebtu: gjithmon\u00eb p\u00ebrpiqeshin q\u00eb t\u00eb na ndanin n\u00eb mes vete. N\u00eb radh\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00eb, me ndonj\u00eb ar\u00ebsye t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb. Kishte nd\u00ebr ta dhe t\u00eb ligj. Nuk jan\u00eb kurr\u00eb i biri si i ati, p\u00ebr ndonj\u00eb arsye. Pra, un\u00eb kisha m\u00eb shum\u00eb dhembje, se sa familje! Kudo q\u00eb t\u00eb ndodhesha, e ndjeja dhembjen p\u00ebr t\u00eb gjith\u00eb! Isha m\u00eb shum\u00eb i vet\u00ebm e me dhembje! Edhe sot, po ashtu!…<\/p>\n

Ti, je vet\u00ebm TI! K\u00ebshtu e deshi paraprakisht edhe pushteti pushtues dhe i huaj! K\u00ebshtu e kishin vet\u00ebm ata q\u00eb mendonin t\u00eb t\u00eb shtronin n\u00ebn k\u00ebmb\u00eb!…<\/p>\n

TI dhe kujtimet tua jan\u00eb t\u00eb hidhura! Nj\u00eb qeveri e t\u00ebr\u00eb peokupohet me TY, edhe larg\u00eb po t\u00eb jesh\u00eb! \u00c7ka mund t\u00eb b\u00ebsh kundrejt tyre, me pak miq?!…<\/p>\n

Ashtu isha edhe n\u00ebp\u00ebr bot\u00eb! I vet\u00ebm dhe pa familje! Ata e k\u00ebput\u00ebn hallk\u00ebn e paz\u00ebved\u00ebsuar \u201cfamilje\u201d<\/em> edhe nj\u00ebher\u00eb! Kjo ishte hallka e dyt\u00eb e familjes s\u00eb ngusht\u00eb! U merzita gjithmon\u00eb e gjithnj\u00eb isha i merzitur!…<\/p>\n

Dikur, von\u00eb e kuptova t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00ebn e k\u00ebtij misteri: lidhja emocionale ndaj familjes sate duket se \u00ebsht\u00eb dram\u00eb e madhe e dhembjes sate, por ajo \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb g\u00ebnjesht\u00ebr e lig\u00eb, ose e pasakt\u00eb apo e pav\u00ebrtet\u00eb! Nuk ma do zemra ime q\u00eb ta them k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb, por e v\u00ebrteta \u00ebsht\u00eb se qenia e jon\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb qenie biologjike dhe specifike, prandaj i dikton ndjenjat e fuqishme t\u00eb dashuris\u00eb polivalente, p\u00ebr t\u00eb af\u00ebrmit e tu, p\u00ebr f\u00ebmij\u00ebt, p\u00ebr familjen, etj. E TI, nuk e di se je vet\u00ebm qenie specifike. Qenia specifike i ka detyrat e marrura q\u00eb para lindjes prej fuqis\u00eb mbinatyrore. Ato jan\u00eb detyrat e tua jet\u00ebsore dhe vihem mbi t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt. Pra, vihen mbi t\u00eb dashurit tuaj, f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e familjar\u00ebt, p\u00ebr t`i send\u00ebrtuar ato, p\u00ebrve\u00e7 forcave t\u00eb m\u00ebdha e kund\u00ebrshtare. N\u00ebse nuk i send\u00ebrton k\u00ebto detyra jet\u00ebsore, nuk e ke p\u00ebrmbyllur jet\u00ebn t\u00ebnde. P\u00ebrkundrazi!<\/p>\n

Njeriun e quajn\u00eb \u201cqenie e vet\u00ebdijshme\u201d<\/em>, por nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb aq i vet\u00ebdijsh\u00ebm sa ia lejon atij qenia biologjike. Ai nuk duhet t\u00eb udh\u00ebhiqet nga ndjenjat e tij, por nga q\u00ebllimet jet\u00ebsore. Jeta p\u00ebrs\u00ebritet, e \u00e7do gj\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb tjet\u00ebr nga e para…<\/p>\n

Si f\u00ebmij\u00eb, ai mund t\u00eb kap\u00eb sa m\u00eb her\u00ebt misteret e jet\u00ebs e misticizmin.<\/p>\n

Sa keq, n\u00ebse nuk do t`i kap\u00eb apo nuk mund t`i kuptoj\u00eb!…<\/p>\n

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[1]<\/a> Ne, i thonim k\u00ebshtu geg\u00ebrisht, me dialekt t\u00eb gjuh\u00ebs shqipe. Gulshedra na ndiqte me gulshim. Ishte me etje t\u00eb madhe dhe e t\u00eb \u00e7mendura, p\u00ebr t\u00eb na z\u00ebn\u00eb. Ajo gulshon me zjarr gjat\u00eb ndekjes.
\n[2]<\/a> Kjo \u00ebsht\u00eb n\u00eb t\u00eb folmen popullore t\u00eb dialektit geg\u00ebrisht. I thoshte trup se duhej q\u00eb t\u00eb punonte token e tij, si fshatar q\u00eb ishte, t\u00eb mbush\u00eb ar\u00ebn e livadhin me plehra, e jo si\u00e7 e ka urdh\u00ebrar konglomerati \u201cserb\u201d, prej Beogradi. Ai e kishte familjen e madhe e t\u00eb ndershme dhe nuk duhej q\u00eb ta d\u00ebmtoj\u00eb apo ta f\u00eblliqte. Kok\u00ebrdhijat jan\u00eb baglat e dhive apo t\u00eb dhen\u00ebve, t\u00eb cilat Nezir Delia e kishte tub\u00ebn e tyre mjaft t\u00eb madhe\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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